Book Review: "I Who Have Never Known Men", Jacqueline Harpman
Last month's book club theme was "freedom", because in Portugal that's pretty much a synonym for April. Fittingly, I had been meaning to read Moi qui n'ai pas connu les hommes (I Who Have Never Known Men) since last year, when my boyfriend almost begged me to read it right after he did.
This novel has a complex relationship with freedom. First, it longs for it, (spoilers ahead) then it reaches an empty, "hollow" version of it (“cette liberté vide”), and makes you question its real meaning. The story is told in the first person, by a girl who lives among 39 other women inside a prison, held by rotating guards. None of them know why they were arrested, following a chaotic global event. The narrator is the youngest and the only one who was a small child when they were arrested, so we see this mysterious dystopia through the eyes of someone who's coming of age.
Her thirst for knowledge is the drive of the novel, which itself starts with a very meta reflection on books, prefaces and translations. "But why translate when it must have been so easy to learn different languages and read anything you wanted directly?" ("without passing through an intermediary", as the original French specifies). As someone who always reads books in the original language if it's a language that I know (and if I don't, I try to get translations within the same language family), and was therefore reading the French text, I felt directly spoken to. Somehow this very isolated character, who grew up in a nonsensical world, really resonated with me intellectually.
More than a science-fiction dystopia, this book is almost a philosophical treatise. It's a book made of questions, both for the reader and for the characters. The impossibility of meaning in such an absurd world raises questions about our own reality: about the nature of time ("The alternation of day and night is merely a physical phenomenon, time is a question of being human"); the role of memory (“Is there a satisfaction in the effort of remembering that provides its own nourishment, and is what one recollects less important than the act of remembering?”); what it means to be a human being (“But human beings need to speak, otherwise they lose their humanity. (…) Talking is existing.”); or even epistemological inquiries:
The point of knowing is to know! Sometimes, you can use what you know, but that’s not what counts most. I want to know everything there is to know. Not because it’s any use, but purely for the pleasure of knowing.
It's a book permeated by existentialism, almost like the female version of L'étranger. I'd even venture to say that it's the culmination of Camus' intent. If there ever was a character who's a stranger to life, this is the one — "the world I have come from is utterly foreign to me", she says, defining herself as "the sterile offspring of a race about which I know nothing":
(...) all I’d have gained would be a new question, that worthless treasure which was beginning to weary me. This world was like a jigsaw puzzle, I only had a few pieces which didn’t fit together.
The part that affected me the most in this overall extremely grim story was the one in which the women find another cage, filled with other women who died imprisoned in an "eternal procession of despair". The gruesome description of their cadavers left me in tears, and evoked in my mind the image of Pompeii's calcified bodies: "those contorted bodies that lived there, piled haphazardly, perpetual inhabitants of horror and silence." "They’d collapsed all over the place, in all sorts of attitudes, without dignity, tragic witnesses to the incomprehensible" — it made me think of a cast that I saw of a young Pompeian girl, laying with her face down in her arm. Like the narrator of this book, the normal course of her life was interrupted by something tragic bigger than her.
While many existentialist novels have asked the question of "what is a man", Harpman seems to ask "what is a woman?". Although the mysterious event that catalysed this dystopic world seems to have been general and not gender-specific (they eventually find cages with imprisoned men, too), the title invites the question of what it means to be a woman in a world without men. One of the women says "Men mean you are alive, child. What are we, without a future, without children? The last links in a broken chain." At first glance, it might feel like an antifeminist deduction: is a woman's life not worthy in itself? And yet, the conclusion of the novel proves the opposite. Living in a world with no contact with men (and, eventually, no contact with anyone at all), the narrator learns to be human both through community and through solitude. When freed from patriarchal constraints and social expectations — things the narrator never had contact with —, all that matters is being human. Without the prejudices and conditionings of the other women, the narrator is a clean slate — filled with curiosity and intellectual hunger.
At the end of her days, she decides to write down her memoir, an act that shows a profound understanding of the preciousness of her own humanity. She asks "what does having lived mean once you are no longer alive?", and decides to eternalize her story on paper, in the hopes of reaching another human being. Through the meaninglessness of it all, she takes control of her narrative and finds freedom through a relentless search for knowledge.
I was perfectly aware that I had only added another question to all the others, but it was a new one, and, in the absurd world in which I lived, and still live, that was happiness.














