this used to be for poetry

i have to make myself laugh. i have to make you laugh. this.. is not that

[ojibwa]

[weltenwellen]

Joy Sullivan, from “Culpable”, Instructions for Traveling West

[theblob1958]

people are saying do it scared, but you also gotta do it alone. you'll miss out on so much you want to do if you wait til someone will do it with you. do it scared and do it alone.

[blue-echinacea]

the older I get the more I look like my mother

am I becoming my mother

is that as scary as I once thought it was

[blue-echinacea]

once again I am experiencing a pain that brings me to speechlessness and I cannot write about the pain

[blue-echinacea]

emotionally I feel like the stink spirit from spirited away

[blue-echinacea]

you are ugly when you cry. you will never stop being ugly when you cry.

[emotionalwords]

[blue-echinacea]

There was truth and there was untruth, and if you clung to the truth even against the whole world, you were not mad.

George Orwell, Nineteen Eighty-Four

[blue-echinacea]

every day i fight the urge to go feral and start chewing on people

[ashstfu]

having so much love in your heart is beautiful and amazing right up until you’re alone in your bedroom clutching at your chest and whimpering like a wounded dog

[blue-echinacea]

if i know i’m stupid why does it hurt so much when people say it?

because on some level i still have hope that it’s not true. i know it’s true. but my ego hangs on still, wounded when i’m reminded of the truth

[fakehistory]

[blue-echinacea]

I’m in this weird phase where a lot of the things that troubled me have been resolved and outwardly life is “good” right now for what I wanted. but I’m not sure I can get past the ache.

It’s easier to function daily than it was before and I even have some hope for the future, but it’s like there’s a massive pit behind me, and instead of the light shining into it, the darkness is creeping out. it floats around my heels caressing me.

Nothing is really “wrong” right now. But I don’t know if I can ever get over what happened.

[glowcowboy]

i want to be a sweet and friendly girl but there’s all this anxiety. and the horrors

[iremluna]

and rage

[glowcowboy]

yeah and also the rage

[fatecanberewritten]

“Increase of knowledge only discovered me more clearly what a wretched outcast I was.”

— Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein

[blue-echinacea]

i got sick for five days and all of a sudden summer is over