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Babies and PHD

It’s been a long time since I have written here, but I used to find it theraputic so thought I would start up again.

I have spent the morning reading blogs from others on studying whilst pregnant, studying whilst having a baby and doing a PHD at the same time as you start having kids. This has been on my mind ever since I went back to uni at the start of last year. I went back with the intention of getting into research, hopefully having a career in research, therefore I will need to complete a masters and a PHD - but that will cross over directly with my child bearing years. If I wait till it’s finished I’ll be about 35, which is fine for some people, but I would like to be done with having the kids by then if possible. 

But I am so worried, I dont want to sacrifice either/or, I want to do them both. All of this study can’t be for nothing - I can’t just have babies then go back to retail, NUH UH.  And I can’t just be a stay at home mum, I NEED them both!  My boyfriend is supportive so that is a start. I am pretty sure I am going to do both. But when is the best time to do it? Maybe during masters? Maybe a year break between finishing my degree and masters?  My boyfriend wants to “go with the flow” I dont really know what that is. I don’t think there will be a flow now since I just got Implanon put in my arm for birth control! Haha. Ever since I have done that though, my thoughts on this have just increased - gotta be the way huh? 

If anyone reading this has experiences to share please do! I am looking for all the help I can get.

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[bluebackspider]

Most of you know I am continuing my studies at University on Zoology.

I am currently studying for exams and I just read this in one of my readings. It really struck a cord, as do most statistics I hear on extinction numbers due to human land use :( 

"Tucking it's wings, a bird lands on a branch deep inside a tropical jungle. Sensing the motion, a conservation biologist scans the branch through binoculars, a glimpse of golden orange stopping her short. Staring back is a new species of smokey honeyeater (bird), never previously described by science. This bird still awaits a scientific name. In 2005, a team of American, Indonesian and Australian biologists experienced many moments like this as they spent a month cataloguing the living riches hidden in a remote mountain range in Indonesia. In addition to the honeyeater, they discovered dozens of new frog, butterfly, and plant species, including five new palms. To date, scientists have discovered 1.8 million species of organisms. Some biologists estimate about 10 million more species currently exist. Some of the greatest concentrations of species are found in the tropics. Unfortunately, tropical rainforests are being cleared at an alarming rate to make room for and support a burgeoning human population. Rate of deforestation in Indonesia are among the highest in the world. What will become of the smokey honeyeater and other newly discovered species in Indonesia if such deforestation continues?  We have physically altered nearly half of the earths land surface and we use over half of all accessible surface fresh water. In the Oceans, stocks of most major fisheries are shrinking because of overharvesting. By some estimates, we are pushing more species towards extinction than the large asteroid or comet that triggered mass extinctions at the close of the cretaceous period 65.5 million years ago"

This makes me so sad. There's going to be a huge consequence for what humans are doing to this planet. 

I am hoping to work in conservation once my studies are complete.

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Photographer Tim Carter captured these adorable images of this Red Fox playing, stretching and sleeping in the snow. 

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Killer band, killer show. Letlive taken for amhnetwork at Soundwave 2014

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Jimmy Eat World taken for amhnetwork at Soundwave 2014

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[teampinup]

Meet the Aurora dress.

Coming this Spring this whimsical dress will be coming in that fantastical castle print. Featuring pockets and removable belt.

So excited for our new collection coming this year! ♥ Micheline #pinupgirlclothing #pinupgirlstyle #vintageinspired #madeinamerica #spring2014 #spring

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OMG. This will be mine.

[bluebackspider]

UM. HOLY SHIT.

Im literally going to be stalking this dress. If I can afford it, it will be....... possibly the best dress I've ever owned. Ever. Holy shit.

[thaxted]

"I’m not an animal lover if that means you think things are nice if you can pat them, but I am intoxicated by animals."

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[kawaiimon]

Why promote a company but not add a link?

http://www.childsown.com/

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Now that’s just cool.

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Enjoying some dark chocolate almond milk in my favorite cup before work

it’s the cutest cup :3

[kingbard]

i see your cat cup and raise you a cat bowl

[roughrawtongue]

Your cat bowl has nothing on my

Measuring cups

[kingbard]

u wanna go

have a taste of my cat teapot

[roughrawtongue]

Bro, get a look at my

Actual cat

[walkonmemories-deactivated20180]

Biatch please, I have a gang.

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It’s like that Subway commercial where everyone loves Avocados

[bluebackspider]

Those measuring cups are from Modcloth!! Also . Lol.

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Kat Dennings for Zink Magazine

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Oh Kat

[emmammo]

Learn how to braid your hair like the ladies in Game of Thrones.

[letyoursoul]

SCREAMING

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where is nikita she needs to see this

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Miss yelyahwilliams (@yelyahwilliams) of Paramore. Taken in Sydney at Allphones Arena. WHAT A STUNNER. I don’t think I’ve ever photographed someone so photogenic.

I cannot wait to get another chance to photograph her on their next tour!

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It’s been pretty quiet on the gig front lately, so I hit North Narrabeen for some sunrise shots this morning. The top one was at about 5.30am before the sun came up, the next two were taken in succession as the sun rose at around 6am. 

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My first lot of prints from Pixel Perfect look awesome. These can be purchased www.etsy.com/shop/popfoxphotography ! (Link on my bio page)

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The beautiful Northern Beaches of Sydney