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Idk whether to cry or km$ or both AND try all at once 😭😭😭😭

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despazito

we are the daughters of parents who should not have had kids

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Anyone know of any 3d Sh3eran Reddit threads??

My greatest downfall in this process has been trying to be happy and feel fulfilled all while trynna l0 s3 weight. I’m not happy. I’m not fulfilled. I’m a fucking cluttered mess. I️ can’t figure out the root of my problems. It hurts to even think. I️ wanna shut down shut off tune out and welcome de pr3 sh ion in. I️ll surrender to passiveness and waste my life by doing so. I️ feel so shitty and I’m tired of pretending that I️ have boot straps to pull up or even THE MOTIVATION to do so… I’m 22 now and it’s scary as shit and feels so stupid that I’m still struggling with this but I’m done thinking about it

I’m showing signs of liver damage and I’m air scared, but I️ have no one in my life to be scared too. Not even that they’re here but I️ can’t tell them cause they would be scared, they literally are not in my life and have not been since I️ was 17. No mother, no father, so siblings, one Highschool friend who I️ love dearly and doesn’t know, and nobody else. I️ talk to my psychiatrist but he’s expecting me to take the steps towards recovery and for some reason I️ just want to disappear and not in a emo way in a literal permanent dissociative state way like please let me shut off and not turn back on until I️ have legitimate reasons to besides just being grateful to be alive

I️ love like but it doesn’t love me back. And I️ used to be okay with that but I’m so alone that it’s suffocating me and no one will love me because I’m not confident or comfortable in my own skin. Fuck me . Fuck it all, fuck fuck fucking fuck fucifnsndnd

Being ur own th I️ n spo >>>>

I️ love myself WAYYYY to much to self sabotage 😌 worst time of day to think about entertaining a meeel is at night 😌 don’t do it. Future you will KISS UR FEET for not fucking up your whole next day and probably week lol

Its about that time 😏😏😌😌😌 beginning of the semesters almost here, so you KNOW it’s crack down time 😏😏😏🤪😛😌

Last year I️ did this successfully ( about - 20 in 1 month 😉😙😜), but as the semester continued I️ started to binjah like a monster… like in a way I’ve never seen before. So I’m scared that if I’m successful again that the same thing will happen in the fall… but it feels different now. I️ feel more capable. It’s becoming a lifestyle rather than a habit. Plus I️ didn’t tell yall this but the doc gave me meh ds to help w the binjess which totally worked and im trying to use them to effectively

f🏃‍♀️st

It’s being going well, in the course of one month I️ only had 4 episodes… which as I’m writing this I️ realize is actually much worse than I️ thought it was-like- that’s one episode a week… wtf do I️ think this is, a mfing paycheck???? A showtime series?? Ugh

I️ think it’s because I️ don’t eeeee T all week and then try to have a lil sum sum to sustain (my liver started showing signs of pre-failure: yellow eyes, back pain, dehydration, fear inducing stomach pain that felt unlike anything I’ve experienced before). I’m on 3 medee Kay shuns and taking them w no f oo d probably isn’t a good idea… BUT I️ REFUSE. I️ will try I️ will try and I️ WILL! Ac cutane is kinda scary tho ngl

The sad thing is :

I️ do this to feel worthy of love and because I️ only will feel comfortable in my sk1n once I’m light and graceful

Ironically,

No one worthy is going to want someone who doesn’t love themselves or take care of themselves… there’s no in between there’s no winning ugh #phukmeh

I️ hate r 3 s tr ik ting… I️ muchhhhhh prefer going 0 int take … but I’ve only lasted 5 days before 😔😔 currently going for a pr 😄😗😉😏 will update soon

The cool thing about 3 D s is that if you try hard enough and move with intention, not only will ur b0 d be 😍, but you’ll also cultivate the skill of patience 🧘‍♀️🙏 like imagine being a sl3 n d3r queen who’s also grounded, strong willed, and patient 😍😍😍

Idk man… this whole things is starting to feel like it’s about more than just r3s satrick ting. I️ wanna ditch the paranoia and simply be a breath a rian 😔🥺 pls n thank u

(I’m trying to change my attitude around loo zing bc beating myself up has made the problem worse. I️ am great. My body deserves to be great too. I️ will live. I️ will survive. I️ am strong. I️ can push through.)

storybookprincess

one of the best ways i’ve found to combat that inherent depressive pessimism without veering into toxic positivity territory is simply the phrase “i’m open to the possibility”

this particularly works with anything negative i’ve forecasted. “i woke up feeling like shit today, so my day is gonna suck” isn’t a particularly helpful thought, but “it’s a great day to be alive!!!!!” feels hollow and insincere when i have a pounding headache & am running on three hours of sleep

instead i’ll tell myself, “i really don’t feel good right now, but i’m open to the possibility that coffee and breakfast might perk me up a bit.” or “i’m in a lot of pain today, but i’m open to the possibility that my workday might still have fun parts despite that”

sometimes, when your impulse is to slam the door on anything good, but you’re not exactly up to going out & hunting it down yourself, leaving the door open just a crack makes all the difference

I️ love how some naturally skinny people treat eating like it’s a chore 😮‍💨👌