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THIS IS A VENT BLOG, CONTINUE AT YOUR OWN RISK. PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF I NEED TO TW SOMETHING AND I WILL!!
I LOVE GARDEN SHEDS (MOSTLY THE FIRST HALF)
DMS ARE ALWAYS OPEN AND I LOVE ASKS.
ALSO I AM PRO RECOVERY!!
I HAVE MULTIPLE PHYSICAL DISABILITIES. I USED TO BE A WHEELCHAIR/CRUTCH USER BUT CAN NOW WALK THANKS TO SURGERY. WOO!
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Plus there's this by the AMAZING r-rotting-0rang3 if you want to put it on your blogg
today was supposed to be my graduation day. If I had finished just 2 more classes. If I had just done one more small class for each semester I was in, I would be graduating today and walking the stage and everything:(
im taking summer classes so I can graduate early which is awesome, but graduating over the summer also means I don't get to walk the stage. I just get a quiet graduation at someone else's hs.
So yeah, missed my one opportunity. Never getting that again. Damn :(
today was supposed to be my graduation day. If I had finished just 2 more classes. If I had just done one more small class for each semester I was in, I would be graduating today and walking the stage and everything:(
btw if any moots want my discord feel free to ask!! I might not give it depending on if I change my mind and get scared but. It's more reliable and I can still find you if Tumblr Gets Me. Just keep in mind my irls know my discord so it's a very different theme than my blog lol
cant wait to see em!! ^^ (if u show them off of course)
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I tried to make some little sign-offs, idk how I feel about them ;; hmm
I'm happy with the one for Melancholia, okay with the one for Chester and unhappy with Lacys. I'm gonna work on them some more! Feel free to give feedback :)
The mootie bracelets were cute and therefore I shall do it!! @slitstay @kokokaboom @hpdamechan and @bluelightbasement should give me color schemes now! Or else ......I'll js do it based off ur blog colors highkey
Again thank you @d0ntmindthis465 for the idea I thought it was super cute and got all of the idea from them so you should go check out their project as it's ongoing!!!
funny (long) story about that time I helped get someone fired (she kinda deserved it idk) (tw mentions of sui and transphobia, and the story takes place in a psych ward so)
when I was 15 and in the kids mental hospital for two weeks, there was this art therapist that came over twice a week to let us draw or paint while she talked about mental health.
Problem was, she SUCKED. She claimed drawing would 100% cure cancer and depression- not help, CURE. No hyperbole. Dead serious. She acted like our depression was a choice, and like we just didn't want to get better or were too lazy. She said once, "it's not your depression killing you, it's just YOU killing you." to, and I cannot stress this enough, a room full of 10-17 year olds, most of whom were there because of an attempt.
After the 3rd or 4th time I had the displeasure of seeing her, I was really, really upset. I had a horrible morning, and she was acting transphobic to another patient who happened to be my closest friend there (repeatedly misgendering him after he tried to correct her politely. Finally I snapped at her and said "HE" when she said "she," and she gave me the meanest, most judgemental look and said "THEY.")
She gave us some kind of chalky pastel paint thing, and these huge pieces of paper, and I don't remember the exact theme she gave but it was something like "mental health" or "inside your mind"
She expected us to draw like, idk flowers or something but I decided to take the prompt genuinely and express my emotions earnestly. This is what I made (yes it's hung up on my wall now lol)
Sure it's kinda cringe but I had fun and was genuinely starting to enjoy myself! It was really obvious that the art therapist hated it. She kept walking over and saying things like "how does this embody recovery?" and I told her I find comfort in it and she said "nobody would find comfort in something like THAT."
After we were done and right before she left, she pulled me aside and said, and I quote almost directly because this is like a core memory lol, "You know, [irl name], some people here actually WANT to recover." And then she left.
I was near tears, and really upset that she pulled me aside to say something so hurtful. This AMAZING staff member/nurse, who was so awesome and always was super nice, spoke to me the next day and basically said that she was already on thin ice for being rude to patients in the past, and that how she treated me was the last straw. They had me write a short statement and told me she was not coming back haha
Idk I think the story is funny. I feel bad for making someone probably lose their job, but she was directly negatively impacting children as young as 10 with several mental illnesses and who were in terrible mental spaces. And the transphobia sent me over the edge and I was just so mad lol
if you're still doing poem requests..perhaps a poem...about the color blue... (I'm so unpredictable wow)
YES YES YES MORE POEM REQUESTS YAAAYAYAYAYAYAYA!!!
Blue is the whisper of the boundless sky,
And the rhythmic wave where the deep tides lie.
It is the chill of a twilight breeze,
And the quiet grace of the ancient seas.
A soothing balm for the weary soul,
A quiet peace making broken whole.
From sapphire crest to the softest hue,
The world is painted in endless blue.
Please send me art requests! Don't feel bad about it, don't hesitate! I really really want to draw/edit!!
I do oc drawings, I also do dividers, pfps, banners etc
I'm begging you please!! Even if you don't use it for anything, just give me themes/ideas/OCs/media you want to see art of!!! Do it on anon if you're scared!!!
