from the very beginning of his life, it seems as if luck is already against gojo satoru. he was born with a reputation already preceding him, sworn to the entire jujutsu society that he would be the strongest alive, practically tilting the earth on its orbit. in his teenage years, he meets suguru. suguru opens up his world like nothing else in the world ever could have. suguru shows satoru that he chooses to be his friend not for his abilities, but simply for his character. suguru shows satoru what it is like to be simply wanted. together, they are the strongest. but after the tragedy of the star plasma vessel mission, satoru begins to fall back on his past, and what he always thought of himself. that he is not worthy because he is incapable of being strong enough. he closes himself off from even the very person who loves him the most, simply to become strong once again. because, who is he if he isn’t? suguru was his greatest gift, but nothing could overcome the teachings thrust onto him from his birth, so he carries on alone, and he closes himself off from the world because he cannot bear to face it.
satoru feels things so deeply, but he does not possess the ability to process them because of the way he was so emotionally stunted, growing up with a target on his back and being treated like an adult since the moment he could speak. so instead, he pushes them aside and smothers them with things easier for himself to digest. for example: when satoru kills suguru, he is physically unable to throw away his body. it appears to us that he never thinks anything of this again, until he sees the body in shibuya. after satoru kills his best friend, he has nothing else to do besides to try to be who he was 10 years ago with suguru, a child. he cares for nobara and yuuji and megumi and all of his students because i think deep down, he knows that all of his tragedies are due to the jujutsu society that will never change. so maybe for just a little while, he tries to show all of his students the love that jujutsu society never gave him, all while acting as a child when he is around them, because the only time he ever received such a luxury was when suguru was alive.
maybe he sees pieces of suguru and himself in the children he so dutifully takes care of, and he is not bitter or angry, but instead continues to give to them what he knows the cruel world will only try to take away.
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