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Love Begins
Misplaced Lens Cap

JBB: An Artblog!
"I'm Dorothy Gale from Kansas"
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Cosimo Galluzzi

titsay

祝日 / Permanent Vacation
Monterey Bay Aquarium

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roma★
occasionally subtle
he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
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we're not kids anymore.
Claire Keane
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hi, i'm ghost!
+ 21, nonbinary, artist/writer 🔞
+ PJSK-brained for now
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MAFUYU!
MAFUYUS!!
oh wait it's pride month give me a sec
MAFUYU!
okay its plagiarism's birthday so I get a excuse to glaze it
one of the the things I love about plagiarism is how not kanade-centric it is. ive talked about this before, but kanade is a person who puts people before herself. at best she sees herself as a vehicle to other people's happiness. so to have a fic centered on her emotions but not her POV felt right.
somewhere in ep1 theres this line where she realizes all of her songs were dedicated to other people, and I feel like her thought process would work very similarly. k is not able to really formulate her own thoughts on finally confronting this grief, so she souts out others who share (or in this case affected) by these emotions who she can "fix" (ie: pushing down her feelings and letting everyone believe she's fine). however the panic attack left her in a position where, although there's this "possible" ""hypothetical"" that mafuyu is already saved, her own feelings arent resolved. what else is there to do but crumble?
on the other hand, the differing POVs do provide context that k is missing. niigo cares for k, affirm her feelings, and express genuine thankfulness for what shes done thus far. i remember wanting to emphasize both the degradation of her physical and mental health here. we all know how continously composing fucked over k's strength, but i feel like this was the first time girls realized how much innocence she sacrificed to make music like niigo's. like mafuyu in main story, she repeated a cycle that lost her whatever "true self" was before the music. and if we're adding themes from hadal-abyssal, she will never be that true self again. she just has to continue on, loss and all.
i was going to write a k-focused sequel right after, but i got the idea of a certain dopplerganger and got busy for a couple months. im grateful for the breather. to be completely honest, another reason there wasn't as much kanade POV in plagiarism was because i didn't know how to construct it. how to describe the mind of a woman who has discarded her own feelings since she was in middle school towards a sole goal she's only now realizing is only a childhood pipe dream? that, and the loss of family, and the prospects of her father's continued disability, and her growing relationship with the girls she once saw as victims (+ the dopplerganger that will grow up to be one), and the weight of her natural talent as a musical genius... its alot.
there's many things i would change about this fic now, but theres something in me that keeps coming back to it every couple months. i see plagiarism as a story on grief and love, and how love sometimes creates the platform for grief to swallow, and how relieving it is to be able to have something to lean on through the pain. though that may be me being a kanade torture nexus enjoyer lol
happy pride niigo
They say let your art express your emotions
gang i don't think we're surviving the backrooms tonight
i lost the cringe war (brought more anime merch)
Streaming heart(my fave deco song💖)
the fire
au where instead of trying to surpass rad weekend, vbs are birders trying to beat a big year record. vivid bird squad
additional thoughts and context and such below the cut for the interested ✌️🐦🔭
Mafuyu again