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[blurry-vialist]

need help-

I feel so fucking frustrated. my weight has gone down from 65 to 59kgs. my starting weight was 73 kgs. but I'm still fat??? I know I can't just lose all my fat miraculously, I do exercise but I feel like I'm not doing enough being stuck at home. I feel like I'm losing all of my muscle mass instead of fat, because I look the fucking same. my goal weight is 55kgs, just 4 more to go. but I don't think I'd have achieved the looks I want when I reach 55..i feel like I'm never gonna stop.

[rosy-feels]

[caffeineheartbreak]

Laughed to hard at this ☠️

[blurry-vialist]

I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY.

a few months ago, I weighed 73 kgs. (my height being 5'2)

today, I went to the doctor and weighed myself. I am now, as of 20th February 2021, 66.7kgs and my height is 5'4 (estimate, their height scale was kinda weird) .

don't get me wrong, I'm still fat. my stomach is still big and my thighs are still touching. my double chin still shows everytime I talk. but I feel good that I've made some improvements.

I need to lose 10 more kgs to have a good BMI and to look prettier.

also, I saw a dietician. I can't take all of her advice bc she's gonna make me eat, slowing down my progress, but I am gonna try my best to listen to her.

[euphoriavibe]

Looking for more friends and people to follow

Reblog if 2 or more apply to you

•sw is 180 or higher

•you’re not underweight

•you still have 40+ pounds to loose

•you’re 5’0 to 5’5 (or shorter)

•you’re 15-21 years old

•you’re active on tumblr

•you’re pro recovery

•you post progress/before & after pics

[nonskinnylegend101]

Me thinking my ED will cure all of my problems like:

[caffeineheartbreak]

I’m as single as it gets but I promised myself once I got under 70kg I’d buy myself something pretty. I started at 88kg and because of how I’m built it’s so easy to miss the changes in my body. This is my reminder that I did that. I lost 18kg and I can reach my goal if I work hard.

[blurry-vialist]

this is forever my inspiration now.

[healthy-and-toned]

21 days

It’s supposed to take 21 days before doing something becomes a habit. 

So just think. 

21 days without binging could be a lifetime of self-control.

21 days of not eating after 6 could mean always waking up skinny.

21 days of actually working out could mean a lifetime of thin.

21 days.

[proedproana]

and that is called a great motivation speech.

[l2244l-deactivated20211228]

hope you think of me and it fucks you up

[tianatwitty-deactivated20141228]

Please make this go viral.

It is so important I don’t even care if you delete what I write here, just help it be seen. 

[own-your-weird-deactivated20150]

Reblog.

[calzonegod]

If you don’t reblog get the fuck out of here

[theludicrousrival]

U.S. National Suicide Hotline: [phone] 

Live chat services are also available for anyone who doesn’t feel comfortable with making phone calls/talking on the phone. 

Please reach out when you are struggling. You deserve so much more out of this life. Don’t ever forget that somebody loves you. 

[amberstorm-splash]

I don’t know what to add. Just, be safe out there. People will love you.

[skinnyindielegend]

always fucking reblog

[strawberries-n-cigarettespt2]

i love how agressive everyone is abt reblogging- it makes me feel ✨cared about✨

[kiitmeeow]

reblog always

[somethingtofantasizeabout-deact]

I was on the brink of suicide tonight and I thought about these things.. it’s so much easier to think “I will stop my suffering”, but you start someone else’s when you leave. And that’s what still keeps me here.

If I had left tonight I would not have been able to experience life just as simple as going outside to hear the birds and see the snow.

And the most important part for me is that my friend is pregnant and I really want to meet her child in the future.

[bollydastaan]

Jab We Met [2005]

[misskhiladi]

JAB WE MET (2007) 

[blurry-vialist]

highkey want to do this to the boy I was talking about in my ed update post.

[kevindavidday]

i am once again thinking about jab we met

[blurry-vialist]

me everyday

[pxrfxctskxnny]

you ever feel really skinny cause you haven’t eaten but then you catch a glimpse of yourself in a reflection and your heart drops and you’re like

oh.

[blurry-vialist]

3:41 AM, 3/01/2021

today our housekeeper, who's very nice and friendly, told me I looked thinner. she said a lot of my double chin has disappeared. my mom said the same. then, when my dad came back home and picked me up to hug me, he said I weighed lighter. am I really making progress, though?

no, not really. my stomach is still prevalent. my thighs are still big. my calves are still fat. so are my arms. my face is still really round and chubby. I don't know what they're talking about. I felt good about it, sure. but I feel as though they're lying to make me feel better.

here are some body (legs¿) checks:

[blurry-vialist]

I'm sorry but ayushmann trying to make jeetu feel comfortable, and encouraging him to talk on the Kapil Sharma show had the same energy as this:

[open-book-of-anxiety-deactivate]

Who could possibly love me while I look like this?