The Things I Think But Dont Speak 0f

My World, My Thoughts, My Words

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Honesty is our darkest truth

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I should say I'm sorry instead of blaming you

I should've looked in the mirror before there was any judgement

I should be telling you this instead of writing this poem.....

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When Doomsday came, Superman saved the world. Yet no one saved Superman from the world.

BMJ

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Aggressive Love From A Broken Heart

Well if its fuck me then its fuck you too-

Fuck a peaceful entrance its forever fuck you-

Three beers down and I still haven't seen my name-

I knew I should've left as soon as I came-

This whole relationship you knew it was a game-

But foolish me had to go and fall in love-

Imagining corny shit like getting married and releasing some doves-

So many loves songs ruined because the thought of you-

Lying through my teeth when I say I wanna be done with you-

Looking away because we know the eyes dont lie-

Dont tell me to look at you I just want to say good bye-

I know you loved me and I loved you too -

And I know we both hate what this relationship came to-

But this whole time you just dragged me all over the place-

As loyal as I was you just spit in my face-

So this is the part were the actor finish his last show and exit the stage-

Taking the mask off and letting himself breathe knowing that was the last page

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The Infamous Oracle

One second

Let me just talk now

Let me stop rhyming

Let me drop my Cape

Fall upon my knees

Never land face first

never bend to my curse

Never say never

Disregard all I say

Even though I'm right

Swallow my pride

Just keep painting

Listen to my God

Lay under his cross

Exercising my faith

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Cute Love

Let's just start talking about things I've been thinking about- if there's no Angela there's no Olivia- and without Lydia there's no Angela- basically what I'm saying is that this love thing I can't handle it- just looking for a cutie with nice tits who's a fan of me- maybe get together and start a beautiful family- making my daddy happy knowing his father's last name doesn't have to end with me- continuing the legacy- introduce her to my Minnesota family- everyone watches as my style changes as we grow together- fight together- argue because we love each other- be my queen- I'm her king- because of her the shower isn't the only place I like to sing- not just a fling- like aren't we cute- no dispute- no more words- hummingbirds- afterwards- k.i.s.s.i.n.g.- feeling free- and one day this wont be just a fantasy

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The Message

If I have evil thoughts that get filtered into positive actions, am I still considered a negative person - evil thoughts with good intentions praying for things to go back to the way they were before - before my footprints were in the middle of chaos marking my territory - I could tell you how to survive the chaos but I'm not articulate enough, and I don't want to get stuck saying "this is what I meant" making it hard to tell you my story hoping you get it - so I'm painting a picture that probably won't come together until I'm gone and God tells me I'm finished

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Demons often appear in the mirror, but we just dismiss them as just a reflection

BMJ

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A Social butterfly who love to be alone - Gondhi waiting for war - Misunderstood demon who believe he’s still an angel - A human who believes he’s more

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A Social butterfly who love to be alone - Gondhi waiting for war - Misunderstood demon who believe he's still an angel - A human who believes he's more

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3 Queens

Takes more then 3 shots to get me here- more than a couple of pills to releave the pain- after 97' nothing was ever the same- my grandmother once told me my smile wasn't the same- hopefully she found what she was looking for before she went away- at least I was able to say good bye so I wouldn't have to feel that pain- its funny how death comes in 3s- now all my mothers are free- bitter eyes because of honest lies- two broken hearts unable to see the other side. you were dead to me before you died- Now that you reached the other side I know ,that you know, that I know you did your best- sadly its easier to give you your credit now that they laid you to rest- nothing left to say to you, this is my good bye- now a moment of silence, lets close our eyes- visits to the Hospital just feeling like a trip- Rugrats looking at the world like and acid trip -too young to realize what's happening- a good way to maintain happiness- not knowing that will be our last Christmas- Not knowing what it will be like if you were never gone and never missed- would it still take drugs to see be at my best- would I still have this whole hidden in my chest

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3:13am In Minneapolis ( Rewritten)

I didn't know how to start this- wanting to start off like fuck this and fuck that 'leading into a bunch of fuck yous for those who doubted- I'm still the same person that was sleeping on couches - I'm not into flexing so it's easily forgotten - after my grandmother passed making those rounds of phone calls doesn't seem as important - nobody wins when the family is feuding but you can't deny I came out the cleanest - fuck my brother's Keepers shout out to my sister - everything understood doesn't always need to be mentioned - this is just my truth coming from Detroit to Minneapolis - I'm just getting started this isn't the half of it - embracing the chaos until I can laugh at it

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Brothers Keeper

I would've died for y'all when you called me bobo-When everything went left all of you left me solo-Lived in the same house but, cut from different cloths-Because if it was you; picking you up wouldn't've been a second thought-That's why I'll always scream shoutout to my sister-no matter what was said I see the bigger picture-When it really mattered you weren't my brothers keeper-Known you since backpacks and trapper keepers-No body wins when the family's feuding so you let me go-So it only feels right 12 years later for me to let my thoughts go

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3:13 am in Minneapolis

I didn't know how to start this- A bunch of fuck this, fuck that- A bunch of fuck yous for those who doubted- I'm still the same person that was sleeping couches- Sorry for the language but this is how I am feeling- I see you forgot- I don't know how you could forget- I'm still the same person that had hockey sticks around necks- Fighting my bullies untill they're like never again- Don't you see the Progression- Fall in love with your girlfriend until I realize she's not the one- Move on to the next notch upon my belt- Jay-z said no one wins when the family is feuding- I weathered the storm and came out the cleanest- I'm the best under pressure- A diamond in the rough- The rose the grow for concrete- I understand my shit stinks- I am who I am because of a few words from my grandmother- Shout out to my sister and everything you've done- I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for the people around me- This might be the realist thing I've wrote- If I vocally try to say these words I think I'd probably choke- Smoke a joint in the morning just to remember my past- My future is looking so bright even though I'm embracing the chaos- I can keep going; I have so much to say- I'm not going anywhere ; I'll be here for awhile- I don't know where to end this, so I'll just end this right here

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The Peoples Champion

Pissing on my old beliefs feeling free - in control of my demons now I can give you the best of me - suicides not an option for those who worry - just take a seat and let me finish telling my story - there's a bigger picture to all of this - I've been in my own world for too long now I wish I could tear down all of this - we're so connected we're disconnected - lying to urself like we're unaffected - might have been a blessing I've been so disconnected - I'm kinda new to this so give me a second- I won't have all the answers but I can teach - hopefully by the end of all of this your only response is PREACH - not gonna lie my nerves are rattled but I'm ready to give you everything till the death of me

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My Awakening

Looking in the mirror ; evil laugh - freeze frame on my eyes; heres a photograph - evil thoughts with good intentions; I'm still me - for the first time in a while; I feel free - everything around me; it means nothing - God handed us the world, and we did nothing - everything's created from our imagination - sold our self short due to temptation - I'm going somewhere with this; just be patient