I’ve had an ED account for as long as I can remember. I’ve starved, binged, purged, etc. I’ve felt horrific, I’ve obsessed and I’ve shed so many tears. I’ve counted calories since I was thirteen. THIRTEEN.
And only now, at twenty one years old have I finally stopped and learnt to love myself.
I’ve read books on self love, I’ve watched Ted talks, I’ve followed healthy accounts on Instagram and I’ve had Tumblr deleted for nearly a year.
I can’t stress the fact that once I started to eat ‘normally’ life went back to normal. Research intuitive eating. Start eating when you’re hungry, it’ll take a while to not binge but ride it through I promise it works. Love yourself and be kind. If you need to eat more one day it’s for a reason, your body is a busy vessel. STOP counting calories. Just stop. It’ll cause anxiety at first but eventually you’ll feel free. Start weight training instead of doing shitty cardio. You’ll get heavier on the scale so don’t get on (I haven’t gotten on the scale for months). But you’ll look way better. You’ll slim down and tone up. Work out 3 times a week doing a full body weight training circuit. If you get your period or something and don’t feel like going to the gym though that’s fine. My body looks the best after eating more, than it ever did during my ‘ana’ phase.
You will be free and happy. Honestly get help. It was the best thing I ever did 💗
