Tell me how I can be doing SO well, working again, feeling motivated, eating more often, and then it takes one day. ONE. DAY. For everything to fall apart again? One day where nothing is different. Same morning, same afternoon, same lack of people talking to me, except maybe a slight deviation in routine, but apparently that's enough to trigger another fucking downward spiral.
How the fuck am I supposed to know which moods of mine are me genuinely getting better VS my brain practically glitching and fucking up my mood regulation? Do you know how hopeless it feels to know that you 'finally recovering' was just a trick your brain was pulling on you?

















