Borderline-Chick

I'm a 17 year old girl livng in england constantly walking along the borderline between sanity and insanity... Herpes Type 1. PCOS. In an age gap relationship. Attending therapy. Living away from my family. Unloved by my father. I rant about all of these things. God knows why you'd follow me. Feel free to ask me any questions.

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This will be my last post on this blog...

My diagnosis of BPD has been removed. My last therapy appointment was yesterday. I have been with my boyfriend for 6 and a half months, I moved in with him yesterday. He's meeting my mother for the first time on Saturday. I'm 18 on Friday. I never thought I'd make it to my 18th birthday, hell I never thought I'd make it to my 16th and I sure as hell never thought I could be in a long lasting healthy relationship. I had BPD for almost 5 years. It was the most painful thing I've ever experienced and I never thought I would make it through to the other side. To everyone still suffering through it.... Work hard and you will reap the rewards. I know I have. Goodluck to all of you. I have faith in all of you. And thankyou to anyone who has followed me and my struggles. And a bigger thankyou to anyone who has helped and supported me through them! You all deserve all the happiness in the world.

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2 minutes looking at my Tumblr and I feel fat, ugly, inadequate and generally just wondering what's the fucking point?

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It's so easy to sink back down into quicksand.

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I'm 18 in less than 3 weeks and I feel closer to 8 than I do to 18.

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How comes you don't post anymore?! x

Life is so busy at the minute that I barely have time to come online. sorry!

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The fainter my scars get, the further I am away from my old self. And that scares me and delights me all at once.

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I am stronger than I used to be but not as strong as I want to be.

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What is love but an aching of the heart?

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You can say you love me till your lips are blue and I still wouldn't believe it.

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So my therapist thinks I have complex PTSD but not BPD. I have to have a psychiatric assessment done.

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Can't you see that you're smothering me? Holding to tightly, afraid to lose control.

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I'm just a little less miserable when I'm with you.

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1 weeks holiday in Dorset starting from tomorrow....yippee!

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Hey. I have made a new blog, where I will be writing about my secret love affair with an older man, and I was wondering since I don't have any followers yet, if you could maybe spread the word out to your followers? The blog is kissmecrippled. If you do, thanks a bunch :)

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Herpes outbreak on my tongue: Not fun.

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In just over 10 weeks time I'll be 18.... In just over 10 weeks time I'll be living off £57 a week.

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Me and my boyfriend have been together for 4 months today....