Can somebody anybody please tell me if I’m wrong please . I’m in the worst split/depressive episode of my life and it’s day 4 and I just need to know if I’m the one in the wrong.
So my fp/girlfriend decided to play block me because we were having a play argument. And it lasted like two days and they kept saying “have u learned ur lesson yet?” And I playfully replied “no” so it continued and they asked another time and I said “idk y u keep asking me this” and they just replie “ ignore what I said.” They use periods when they’re upset so it alerted me a little. Then after they put on their status “ I feel so unloved rn” and it does tic me off because we are playing with eachother and you put that to ur public status instead of coming to me?? So I start damage control, I ask how they are, what they are doing and if they want to do something together and it’s bleak one worded answers with periods so obviously ik their upset. And I ask if their mood has anything to do with their status and they just reply “probably” (ᓀ‸ᓂ) girl yes or no wthhhh) and I ask if they wanna talk about it and their like “no I’m over it” and I say ok and start spiraling and splitting.
It really hurt that they would say something publicly like that. When I didn’t do anything but return the same energy back. I have never yelled at them or hurt them or even showed them an attitude no matter how mad or upset they make me. But I don’t respond in the exact way they want and they feel unloved. Mind you I’m the only one asking to call them, or see them irl, or ask about their day, and ask to spend time with them. I can’t remember the last time ANY of that was reciprocated to me. ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა and it makes me feel like a second thought so that is what initially made me spiral and split.
So after a day of spiraling and splitting we don’t talk for that day until 12am because they sent me money to order them food the next day. I try to be a good partner so I say ok I’ll order it tomorrow and we chat a little. Since I’m in a episode I don’t respond in my usual enthusiastic way and it upsets them again multiple times throughout the conversation and I tell them I’m in a split and they say “ok” and the conversation ends that night.
-The next day they ask me to order them their food and I do it and order extra that I usually don’t want them to have since it’s bad for their health.- we are having a conversation but since I’m very depressed low energy I’m not responding to jokes or anything and it sets them off again. ( i wasn’t being snippy or mean or rude) They decide to leave me alone. I said I’m just asking a question because it was about their left change and they say “ just keep it m/n.” With the period so obviously ik they’re upset, so knowing that I got them something extra with the money they had left because I wasn’t comfortable keeping it. We usually “play argue” about this item because it’s bad for their condition but I felt bad and I didn’t want to argue. It was a surprise because I didn’t tell them I used all the money on them anyway. So when they saw it they were confused because I usually say no because I care for them but this time it was a gift. They took it as me not caring for them anymore. And I continued to say I do and that I just didn’t want to argue. And they said “ fine I’ll leave you alone” but I tell them “ y? I don’t want to be alone” and they said “ummm bc it’s the vibes I’m getting??” and I apologize “ I’m sorry I don’t mean to give of that vibe” and they never responded but put onto their status
“ this relationship makes me feel like a failure”
Being with me makes you feel like a failure?…
💔 that hurt that one really hurt on top of being left on read while I can see that their online talking to other people in our shared gc.
What did I do… makes me feel worthless, I told them I’m in a split and they haven’t at all check on me.. but whenever something is wrong with them I try to help or comfort or see them in any way I can… it hurts a lot, it makes me want to relapse on my self harm it’s already fucked up my appetite I’ve lost 5lb in 4 days…my family noticed my mood which makes me feel worse I hate worrying them.
Please I really need some perspective on this
