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PSA — THIS BLOG IS NOW ARCHIVED.

I have my new blog, and while it is not entirely set up and I am still slowly and selectively following people, I will be on it. This blog will remain as a resource for myself and my partners as needed. DO NOT SEND ASKS FOR STOLAS. I WILL NOT ANSWER THEM.

#✧･ﾟ･ﾟ✧ | ☾ | : that was the sound of a fucking queue.#scheduled reminder!

When life gives you turmeric, make it golden.

I suppose all these jokes are Parsley my fault, since I'm inviting them.

#✧･ﾟ･ﾟ✧ | ☾ | : jude speaks.#tigertoramaru #why do you guys keep sending these omfg #No but they make me laugh thank you lmao

botanikos

PSA — THIS BLOG IS NOW ARCHIVED.

I have my new blog, and while it is not entirely set up and I am still slowly and selectively following people, I will be on it. This blog will remain as a resource for myself and my partners as needed. DO NOT SEND ASKS FOR STOLAS. I WILL NOT ANSWER THEM.

#REMINDER. Pls feel free to unfollow!#Rp things will not occur here!

I WOKE UP to find out someone ONCE AGAIN is taking and linking my posts into other people's inboxes.

The anon claims my post is verification that Stols has been block evading & harassing. . .

[ LOUD ASS BUZZER NOISE ]

Someone didn't read the post correctly! Sweetie, the anon that was sent to me in my post was NOT Stols.

I'm going back to sleep. Feel free to keep being a clown, but leave me and my posts out of your circus, thanks 🫶🏻

#✧･ﾟ･ﾟ✧ | ☾ | : jude speaks.#Get off my blog and do something productive

I only have 3 RP blogs blocked over here. ♡ If we don't count yours . . . We know one of them is Stols . . . And the other is a friend of theirs that I just didn't vibe with. And you, obviously, which I already know, are not friends with them.

Now. . . I have a few more blocks on my new blog, but none of which, are also blocked here. :) so again, the same 3 consistent blogs are in question.

I've figured your little game out. Knock your shit off and leave me alone, coz you sent the anon below to my new blog. . . this means you're block evading, babe. ✌🏻

Also, if you actually read my "goodbye" post, it says I would be moving to a PRIVATE blog. Nice try though. 🩵

#✧･ﾟ･ﾟ✧ | ☾ | : jude speaks.#psa

if u spill it u now have too much thyme on ur hands

SCREAMIN—

I'll have to set it down gingerly

#✧･ﾟ･ﾟ✧ | ☾ | : jude answers.#remnantsouls

I had to clean out my spice rack and noticed that everything was too old and had to be thrown out. What a waste of thyme.

SKSKEKEWKSK you got me. I didn't realize you were cumin in hot like that. 🤣😭

#✧･ﾟ･ﾟ✧ | ☾ | : jude answers.#favorite ask ever goodbye world

Hey!

For some reason, I have gained a few followers here. This blog is INACTIVE / NULL as a roleplay blog! ♡ Sorry, friends.

#✧･ﾟ･ﾟ✧ | ☾ | : jude speaks.

blitzbuckz

Stolas can't help the soft trilling. With his face pressed against the side of Blitzø's head, eyes closed and a smile curled around his beak, the owl is content. But it only lasts for a moment. Vermillion hues open, hand seeking one of the imp's. Once found, he guides it to the feathers atop his head with a hoot. Only then does Stolas close their eyes once more and start to doze.

【 Found Family 】 — 家族を見つけました ♡

#saved.#!!!!!!!!!#SCREAMING AND CRYING OVER THIS #blitzbuckz #✧･ﾟ･ﾟ✧ | ☾ | : blitzbuckz : you are so worthy of everything i have to give.

botanikos

PSA — THIS BLOG IS NOW ARCHIVED.

I have my new blog, and while it is not entirely set up and I am still slowly and selectively following people, I will be on it. This blog will remain as a resource for myself and my partners as needed. DO NOT SEND ASKS FOR STOLAS. I WILL NOT ANSWER THEM.

#self reblog #reblog since it's been 8hrs.

PSA — THIS BLOG IS NOW ARCHIVED.

I have my new blog, and while it is not entirely set up and I am still slowly and selectively following people, I will be on it. This blog will remain as a resource for myself and my partners as needed. DO NOT SEND ASKS FOR STOLAS. I WILL NOT ANSWER THEM.

#✧･ﾟ･ﾟ✧ | ☾ | : jude speaks.

botanikos

Image text: It's Lisa Simpson giving her presentation with the words "I blocked and deleted anons for months, and left this blog/Stolas only for it to all keep going anyway."

Today, while singing around the kitchen after having a hard time at work, I had some "post-stress clarity" or whatever you want to call it.

I have been so exhausted, anxious, and genuinely saddened by the ongoing anonymous tirade that continues to mention my name (and others — but I don't speak for them, only myself). So allow me to make some clarifying statements, shall we? Not that I owe anyone a single word... besides, those I am close with or who know me know the truth. And let me just say thank you.

To everyone else, I refuse to apologize for making this post. As a victim of this circlejerk of an anonymous harassment campaign that people don't want to acknowledge or take seriously and just label as regular old "drama" even though it's been going on for months and that is fucking WILD — I am tired of keeping quiet. So here it is, why I "left."

1. My very first anonymous "criticism" was not that at all. I still wouldn't classify it as "hate" either, despite what others thought of it at the time. However, I have come to the conclusion now, months later, that it is entirely possible, and very likely, they mistook me for someone else. "Jude, that is awfully generous" ; no it isn't. It's what I believe to be true. My URL, at the time before it was changed to botanikos, was very similar to another person's. Knowing what I do now, it makes sense. No harm, no foul.

2. I have no real proof of who has been / is / was sending the constant barrage of anonymous messages. The Cam blog stepped up and said it was them. I believe they played a part in it, for sure, but considering things are STILL being said and I received messages even after blocking them. . . Huh. Interesting, don't you think? Anyways. . . That being said — Not once have I ever made a post about or directed towards another name that has been consistently mentioned in all of this, yet my posts were stolen and used. Linked, of course, because I took the reblog feature away. So again. . . The only things I have ever addressed are a select very few (2-3 messages at most) anonymous asks. I have. . . So many screenshots of messages I consistently received. Let that sink in.

3. "Just ignore and block. They will stop." If that were true, do you think I would have left this blog? No. Again, I don't know who is behind any of this, but it doesn't take rocket science to realize it's because I write Stolas and started befriending people? I assume that is what I am guilty of and what drew the attention? Coz otherwise, WHAT is the reason FOR ALL OF THIS/THAT? I'll wait, if anyone has a valid explanation. . .

4. Yea. I DID make a new blog! Wow! It's almost like I felt unsafe and anxious on this one after everything that's happened/been going on! And the only real way I saw myself regaining control of the situation was to take a few days away, shut down this blog, and start anew?!?! And even still, my name is being dragged around to other people. . . Funny how cowards don't want to ask or talk to me themselves about whatever curiosities they have. Huh! But no longer surprising. I'm just disappointed that I know 6 year olds with more decency and respect than the adults over here.

At this point, I am acutely aware that whoever is behind this, while I may not know their direct identity. . . It is SOMEONE or a group of people who are either close friends with one another and have interacted with me on some level (or the people around me) or they are someone I am close to and unaware of their double standards.

So, of course, I'm going to use a different name and different blog, be private and highly selective, and slow to follow people back or write anymore. Because my spirit and desire to be here while not entirely gone has been severely broken. If you feel like you need anything made clear or confirmed from me, just ask. I have screenshots of everything I need/felt was necessary. I'm an open book. Talk to me in private if you need anything more from me. But there's your explanation.

So let it fucking go. At this point, I'm done being sad about it; now I'm just furious. And if saying all of this makes you dislike me or question my character, I hope you take a moment to do a little reflecting yourself, too. Because nothing I've said above is in any way demeaning. I have given you my experience(s). This blog has brought me so much joy, and sparked new friendships that I am grateful for. But the fact remains that I had to leave. I have to be someplace else, and I'm not even fully present there either.

#cw drama #drama cw #tw drama mention #drama mention tw #negative cw #cw negative #tw negative #negative tw #Reblogging for timezone differences.#And also because someone tried “outing” me to my friends??? Lmao #Fuck you.#drama mention cw #✧･ﾟ･ﾟ✧ | ☾ | : psa.#what absolute bullshit.

NOTE: I will not be entertaining Anonymous messages regarding my post and the situation(s) at hand. If you have actual, genuine concerns, you will have to face me directly in conversation. I've received too many Anonymous asks that were simply bait for more trouble & lacked real sincerity. And yea, this post is coming to you coz I woke up with yet ANOTHER Anonymous ask containing the same stupid themes and questions that the other had. And funny enough, I've had everyone mentioned in the asks blocked for some time now.

#✧･ﾟ･ﾟ✧ | ☾ | : jude speaks.#tell me you lack comprehension without telling me you lack comprehension #or maybe you don't actually care about my feelings at all #OH. its both

Oh, and before I leave again — please don't bombard me with questions about the new blog or why I haven't followed you yet. I made 2 things VERY clear when I announced my departure and the last post...

1. I'm going to be private & highly selective.

2. I don't feel comfortable or have the high muse drive I used to have, so I am doing all of this SLOWLY. At my leisure. At my safety, and my benefit.

If you can't respect my choices or how I move forward, then that's on you. ♡

#✧･ﾟ･ﾟ✧ | ☾ | : jude speaks.#✧･ﾟ･ﾟ✧ | ☾ | : psa.