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An "anthology" of my UN-filtered thots

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Okay guys I really want an episode where Iris goes and messes up Barry’s hair. Damn 🔥🔥

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Spent thanksgiving all alone this year. Went to the movies and had a great time watching Fantastic Beasts and Where to find them! Epic movie! Eddie Redmayne needs is cdsbjhfasvn!! Mad adorable red head. Loving really disappointed me! Could have called it a documentary instead of an adaptation cause that movie had no peaks. Moana was cool too but not Frozen good lol. Felt really sick afterwards and had to uber home early! Uber>Lyft Felt very alone and lonely the rest of the week but Joshhhhh really helped me feel better Tay and I aren't friends anymore because I supposedly use people. Anxiety needs to gtfo! Today was dads bday! Happy bday dad!! :) Really relate to Josh on family complications. Lost my dear aunt Spora. Love you. May you Rest Peacefully in the arms of God. Figured out I wanna be an Executive Producer! No doubt that's my calling. Wrote the 10th and 11th chapter of my Westallen fic // ahh such joy from it! There's a strike in 🇨🇲- please protect my family God! Feel like I'm not very lucid in my words. Working on taking time to form sentences. Missing MD! Really looking for a couple good friends. Started watching HOMELAND yesterday on Hulu! So gooooooood! Brody is incredibly beautiful. Never felt this way about a middle aged man since Jake from Scandal! I need me a terrorist like Brody lol! Need to find a way to honor Richmond through film. I love me! I'm focusing on me! I got me! God is with me! I can do all things! I have nothing to fear but my own mind! I'm free! I love where I am! I will cherish and live in the moment! I want to do adventurous things like a kid again! I miss skateboarding! And trying things outside! Love you mommy! Just watched Lights Out / a tad bit scarified of the dark. U ARE FREE TO SO WHAT YOU WANT! U are your only limit!!!

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I'm now attending Pepperdine! I'm Malibu, CA! My dream state. Taya is the realist. One is the funniest, or so I thought. I feel like I need attention from the people I care about cause I give that to them. So, it's a little awkward when they don't even say hi to me after we hung out all day... okay... But he's lit the best tho. Got me food at this Thai place and paid for the movies! "The magnificent 7" - Literally never going to force a guy to endure through a chick flick when ever again. Got food poisoning from the restaurant tho. Felt lightheaded af! Met a girl whom I thought was like a dream friend but hey, weird shit goes down and I don't ever want to put myself in a situation where I feel like I'm not wanted or have to pretend to be interested in stuff I could care less about. Sorry, life is lit too short. Spoke with A friend today who opened up to me about her adoption story and health problems. Girl is Strong. Made me realize that no matter how bad you've got it, you gotta keep going because someone out there would wish for your crap. Watched "lethal weapon" tv show EP. 1&2 today! Ugh, Riggs is bae! God give me hair like that?! Alo's found out Netflix bought over CW streams from Hulu. I had a place for Netflix in my heart before Hulu but after this, I just can't. Definitely changing dream job status to Hulu. Netflix is not for me apparently. UGHGHHH! the Flash S3 premiered this week so this sucks! I'm just tired of fake people. I'm making it a goal to be. Hoping to find more people who can just me real AF and chill and just have pointless fun! Currently Obsessed with Toots and Maytals & Steven Tyler's new Country album. Lucy - Hurt People // OlivertheKid God give me the strength to be like Jesus. Got tickets for TPR & it's about to me lit Dec. 9th I think lol Got a job working in the Box office. Met Mathew Glave and he was the coolest! Also, saw the Yellow Boat play and met one of the cast members! Ah, most adorable 7 yr old performance I've ever seen!!! Also started, "the exorcist " show, looking good! Pitch / is my stuff!!! Trying not to cuss. Wtwtch if u be your self? Not forcing anything ever again.

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I'm 19 and I still can't use a tampon. Tried & failed tragically. Sticking to pads ...

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I miss being able to feel my heartbeat with my hand on my chest. Womanhood took that away from me.

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Back!

Update //

Got the job at Quiznos.

Quit after a month to work for a group home agency.

In school now…. Failing math & some.

I’m 19 now / God I’m old!

I drive to school & work with a temp car so thank Jesus.

I journal now !

I have a crush on a guy in the math class I’m failing in. Plus he’s great at math.

Tweezed my brows for the first time today. Hurts a 4 / 10 & looks 8/10

Horrible Henry Danger Christmas Episode.

Quitting bell choir.

Developing a Creative Writing journal / screenplay / hobby for tv .

Currently watching sons on anarchy!

Need a camera for YouTube!

Finished friends, Salem - Outlander S1

Added Mamma Mia, Shutter Island, Night at the museum, home alone 2, who am I, ghost ship to my DVD collection.

Got on the deans list!

Started the miracle morning routine.

Dads 47th birthday week! Got him socks & stuff lol Fav youtubers - Meghan Hughes / Shane Dawson / Aiden

Black Friday shopping alone.

Stressed out cause I got a scholarship to apply for & finals.

Peace of Christ with me.

Until next time / / stay splendid.

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Yeah. Couldn’t do the ice thing // gave up that same day after 4 pm so that’s progress. Also, think I officially got a job at Quiznos … Waiting till I get my first paycheck & a second then I’ll confirm ! Also got another job in health care for those with special needs. & my Q. boss is the coolest! Meeting to get positivity & good dispositions into my life right now
$ trying to create my self the way I want myself to be.

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Staying “Iceber” - Ice Sober . I’m trying to quit because it’s affecting my teeth and will sooner or later start affecting my health.

Made a deal to myself to go a week without it! I’ll have a glass to reward myself after. A little positive reinforcement … Not quite sure what technique it’s called but I’m doing it! Pray for me!

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So my little name nephews lips are now normal sized but his eyes are now really baggy & we are praying that too returns to normal! Hahaha Anyways he is the cutest thing! His smile makes me smile and that's why he's now my screen saver! I returned from the oc today and I still feel car sick :( Glad that's over cause I'm not going on any of those trips again:/ Also, I got my laptop back!! Yay!

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At ocean city with my youth group and junior chaperoning. I just realized how much I hate hanging out with people who aren't my age and being the only odd one out. It's the worse I don't ever wanna put myself In such a situation again. Don't get me wrong, I love hanging out with younger people even more than my age sometimes cause I love having fun and I'm not at all uptight or mature! Yes, I will swing on the swings and drink a caprisun at parties I don't gaf! But this feeling is the worse and I don't like it. Also I don't know why it bothers me so much that someone whose name I don't even know could dislike me. Like they talk shit to me and I'm like ... What's your name again. Bah Felicia! I'm here for 3 days and I'm gonna need all the patience and self rejuvenation I can get because I'm feeling very down here and I'm not one to open up to others. On a good note, I got my laptop back from my authoritarian pops and don't even get me started on the speeches I had to endure before the success. Just glad I got my babe back! What else... The beach was great but the sand and sea water almost ending my life is not worth it. Staying away from that this whole trip. P.s I miss food cause the food they are serving here is not. Missing my fam already... SOS!

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Saw teen beach movie & it did not disappoint at all! You really cannot go wrong with anything beachy & surf wise with me. I'm all for that surfer life dude! The hard work they put in that movie was more than evident and the cheesiness was healthy and it worked at least for me! Praying for a tbm3!

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My oldest sister gave birth earlier today 26/June/2015 to the cutest baby boy!!! I am a real aunt now. It's just so sad that we all can't be there for her at this milestone of hers and it's the worst feeling. We don't know his name yet but I'm hoping its Jackson. He has the widest lips for a 9hr old baby and it's the funniest thing to us. My other sister laid emphasis on the fact that all new borns are NOT cute and anyone who says they are is Lying and I cannot disagree despite the heinousness of the statement. We love you baby! Welcome to the world and enjoy your stay with us. I will do anything in my power to keep a smile on your already so full lips! Found out one of my friends in boarding school passed away. May your soul rest in perfect peace E. Saw Spy today & it's definitely overhyped as a comedy. It's a great movie but calling it a comedy is stretching it cuZ personally, i laughed only one time through out the entire movie. It might just be me cuz my friend was cracking up throughout. Go see it!

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Thinking about interior design.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned from this experience of devoting its that decorative pillows are my secret weapon to basically any room design!

& oh my dad took my laptop & is pretending to not have it so CANICE is on hold cause I can’t edit the photos of my aunts place or the video for my channel.

And I’m so behind on my summer Netflix shows such as OITNB & Hemlock Grove.

Why do I have such complicated parents ?

What else.. Oh yeah! I think I would make a great actor lol! But I’m gonna need some help with the enunciating part lol ?

Also just realized that my cousin Allen is obsessed with an artist I introduced him to & he keeps posting snapchats of him Jamming to the music & it’s sincerely the best feeling ever knowing that I’m behind that.

Loving Mr. Kate’s book A HOT GLUE GUN MESs! She has no boundaries and it’s inspiring me a lot to loosen up and be boundlessly open on here!

I hate job interviews omg! I feel like I’ve been kissing major as lately and I need a break cause it’s exhausting.

Got an interview with Macy’s tomorrow. Hoping for the best. Im broke and need a source of revenue and something to do with my life this summer cause I’m going out of my mind staying at home all day believe it or not.

I NEED to save up for a car as well. Hopefully by September so I don’t have to take the bus to school! Please God change my plot line! Lol

Favorite song right now… Repetition & Heart Sigh by PURITY RING.

Also I love friends but I’m trying so hard to finish the seasons. I’m almost done with season 8 so that’s progress. And the Joey & Rachel chemistry is making me so emotional! Aww Joey needs a hug from me! He needs protection at all costs.

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Why do I feel like my mom can’t stop talking to me? 
Like she literally cannot stop talking to me. Even when it’s not necessary, or when she’s done talking, she thinks of something else to say to me and all I do is listen and aim to please. 
Her calls seriously give me anxiety because I know she’s gonna go on and on about the littlest things and more. 
I’ve listened for a while now & nothing she says is positive.

It’s mostly complaints, advice, blame, & family problems which I have no control over & its getting to the point where all this negativity she emits is seeping through my essence and I don’t think I would wanna be around her much because I know she’ll be always looking around for stuff she can go off about. 
I don’t even feel like she listens to my responses cause she just assumes and let’s me agree / disagree.

My speech impediment reaches its zenith when I’m around her because I’m scared of seeing how she’ll react cause I don’t wanna upset her but somehow someway nothing I do stops the daily motions of things. 
My family has been going through a lot and it’s taken a toll on all of us , especially her but I too deserve some peace of mind.

I’m honestly so exhausted from being the emotional trash can cause one of these days I’m gonna tip over and spill uncensored shit.

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We got my dad several pairs of socks for Father’s Day this year and what he says is the funniest yet depressing thing I’ve ever heard.

He thanks us, hugs us & tells us how his old socks were shrunk up to the point where they were preventing the blood flow up & down his shin.

To fix this problem, he doesn’t buy new socks. He doesn’t throw away the old ones. No way! What seems appropriate to him is to slit down the sides; thereby creating holes - to enable efficient blood passage.

I still for the life of me cannot imagine why he didn’t just buy new socks. But then again, my dad isn’t one to treat himself with material stuff other than his hygiene basics. 
Happy Father’s Day!

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Why do people use the phrase, “watching Netflix”?

Like, we get it, you’re more than able to afford premium entertainment.