CD

[expensiveity]

you can literally get whatever you want in life as long as you pray, and put the work in. nothing is off limits.

[lamignonette]

[boyasvenus]

Need this

[boyasvenus]

[boyasvenus]

Day 3

Mind

I have come to this realization that the beauty the mind holds has far more impact and superiority than the beauty of the body. The articulation, reflection and push towards innovation. The mind is a beautiful palace and you must fill it with art, literature and culture.

It must be kept away from vulgarity, purge your mind from impurities. For this device houses the soul, the motor of your body. Monitoring every single detail and movement. So tend to your mind, your inner garden wisely

- C.D

[boyasvenus]

Day 1

Gravity

My center of gravity remains to be the lord. I cannot lie for a while it was the affection I received from men, but now I am my own lover again. So all I can do is remain hopeful of the love of God dwelling within me, nurture this bond and someday true love will be.

When God becomes my center of gravity all things fall away that are undeserving. Breaking the chains of constant yearning.

- CD

[boyasvenus]

Just finished watching Julie & Julia . That was truly a beautiful movie that highlighted the power of consistency and having disciplined when it comes to your goals. I would love to try to implant that especially in the blog format that Julie used in the movie. Starting tommorow Sunday November 10th, I will be commuting to 100 days of random writing and poetry. None of my words need to be furnished into some great collection of literature, but merely a space for me to share creativity. I don’t know who will be viewing this or if there will be that many people tuning in, but I would love for you to come with me.

[expensiveity]

you’ve done your part. you’ve prayed already. you've cried already. now, watch God do his part, let go and trust him.

[boyasvenus]

A reminder that fear is the enemy trying to deny you the life you deserve. Fear will keep you in a bubble and a cage where you are just being your lowest self. Allowing fear to win is showing you don’t have faith in God. If God be for you who can really be against you? Yourself that’s who. You cannot allow yourself to keep living in fear.

[eatmangoesnekkid]

When you clean up your diet, it does wonders for expanding your passion, intimacy, and sex. —India Ame’ye

[boyasvenus]

Health is Wealth ALWAYS

[boyasvenus]

I love not meeting everyone’s expectations cause why are you putting that projection on me in the first place?

[expensiveity]

my mind is so programmed to think about how blessed i am and i love that for me. no matter what i’m going through my thoughts always lead me to being grateful. cos i haven't been faced with anything that God didn’t bring me out of. i am such a blessed girl. a grateful girl.

[boyasvenus]

Private Luxury

I just realized privatization = luxury. The more private something is the more valuable it becomes. Too much accessibility makes the value go down. So this pertains to you and your relationship with people too. Being easily accessible and everyone constantly having access to you makes you lose your actual value.

To add some astrology in here, Taurus is the sign of value and what makes Taurus valuable is that they understand the power of privacy. Their sister sign is literally Scorpio which rules the realm of hidden things. The axis between these signs is why people are often drawn to them, they have a presence that doesn’t do to much that makes people want to get closer to them.

So I say all this to say there is power in secrecy and not being accessible to every body. Allow yourself to put boundaries and blockages to protect your self worth. I’m not saying be this mysterious person no one knows nothing about, but instead be decisive about where you invest your time and energy. Are you spending it in things that uplift your value?

[boyasvenus]

Need to get me a flip phone. I’m realizing I don’t need access to my phone as much for real. Sometimes it’s nice to have a good break.

[boyasvenus]

IN My Head: Diary Entry

Highkey got robbed/scammed today. I am more so upset at myself for feeling weak because I'm gay and skinny, that I allowed them to take advantage of me LMFAO. Also, how gullible I was because I was being really kind to them until I realized they are stealing from me. I wish to be stronger and wish to be mentally sharper to know when people are taking advantage of me. My trust in people need to have boundaries, but I can't help it I'm a Pisces :(

But I am really optimistic about life though. I don't know something tells me those guys got exactly what they deserved. Even though things may seem rocky, sometimes you just have to smile and keep on living. I know that deep in my heart good things are coming and better days are ahead. So I will not allow this to keep me living in fear and dread.

[coffindollette]

🧿 to keep you safe from people who want to do you harm.<3 🧿

[boyasvenus]

🪬

[boyasvenus]

Sometimes I feel like I’m an adult, with the mind of a child. Wasn’t really nurtured for a while, now in my mind he runs wild.

-CD

[cyberxbattalion]