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32 years old. BPD blog. Obvi possible triggers. Emotions either run high here or do not exist. Side blog. Asks welcomed.

[serialchilller-deactivated20240]

Please understand that I get so messed up inside sometimes

[bpdbabygirl24]

I'm clearly surrounded by energy sucking leeches and I need a fucking break from people. I've honestly never felt so snappy and mean in my life as I do right now. My patience is -11 at this point. I feel so goddamn used every single day lately. What do I get in return? Depleted. That's it. I'm done. People can think I'm a bitch. I don't care anymore. And I know some people say that you should do things for others without expecting anything in return but ya know what? Fuck that. I'm 32 and I've done that my whole life and became a doormat. I'm doing shit for a select few without expectations. For the rest of the vermin, I'm gonna need to benefit from it somehow too otherwise they can get fuuuuucked. I'm not sure if I've ever been so disappointed in humanity as I am lately. I feel like I'm used for my vehicle, cigarettes, lighters, a place to kick it, weed, errand running, and also just for fucking entertainment. I. Am. Done. Another thing to vent about is when these mother fucking men know that I was destroyed by infidelity and they try to come at me thinking I'm going to be okay being the other woman. What. The. Fuck. I feel like just giving up. I go two steps forward and get shoved back 10 steps. Every time. And another thing... QUIT TALKING TO ME WHEN YOU'RE BORED AND THEN IGNORING ME WHEN YOU'RE NOT. I think what these fuckin people tend to forget is that I am seasoned at cutting people out of my life. For less. ACK!!!!

[sheisrecovering]

Stop looking for the light. Become it instead.

[bpdlavender]

if you ignore someone who you know who has bpd on purpose you’re a piece of shit (✿◠‿◠) 

[rottenbutrecovering]

*taps mic* *leans in* Romeo and Juliet both had BPD and they were each others FPs. Thank you.

[bpdbabygirl24]

I just want to scream "FUCKKKKK" at the top of my lungs

[bpdbabygirl24]

Accurate af.

[bpdbabygirl24]

Preach it. Sooooo fucking true, it hurts.

[depressedgirl83]

[grungefully]

And some nights, I sit and stare at the ceiling and wonder what would have happened if I hadn’t have met you.

would I be happier? (via grungefully)

[depressedgirl83]

Suicide is stupid? You wanna know what is stupid? Hurting someone so much emotionally, that they think suicide is the only answer…

Macklemore (via depressedgirl83)

[sad-empty-lost]

The worst feeling is being unwanted by the person you want to love you the most

[woesbee]

“manipulation” assumes that a person has the skills to think about and then execute a plan. manipulation in that sense I don’t think can be applied to people with BPD because it’s all about knee-jerk reaction and desperately trying to get something feel safe and secure and okay again…I had no idea how to get people to pay attention to me in ways that would work

Kiera Van Gelder, Back From The Edge (via woesbee)

[bpdlatte]

I think the one of the worst parts of bpd is the jealousy. I don’t want to be jealous, but I literally can’t help it. I try not to be but it just comes back stronger.

Jealousy also makes me seem scary and manipulative so :))) fuck my life

[bpdbabygirl24]

me: *starts screaming*

somebody: whoa there buddy whats that all about?

me: sorry i just remembered my whole entire life

[bpdbabygirl24]

08/04/16

I support self diagnoses. I really do. When people are serious and have done some serious research. While I admit there are a lot of attention seekers who romanticize mental illness, I speak from personal experience on this. I self diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and BPD, and for me, it all proved to be accurate. I was just officially diagnosed today with BPD and while I've known it to be true for quite some time, having a specialist with a masters degree tell me that "yes, absolutely you have it" fills me with many mixed emotions. Hope everyone has a good day. Xo

[agustd-addy-deactivated20201116]

👏 I 👏 split 👏 over 👏 the 👏 simplest 👏 shit 👏 and 👏 I'm 👏 sorry 👏 I 👏 can't 👏 help 👏 it 👏