the rabbit hole

billy | 29 | he/him

[imagination]

insta @notaboutcarlo

[furiousgoldfish]

abusive parents be like “You’ll understand when you get older and abuse your own kids!!!” like wow I am sorry that you would even think I would grow up to be such a huge piece of garbage like you

[ghosthierophant]

what’s better than this? just a type of guy being a type of dude

[bpdbillybibbits]

i’m not ashamed of my softness anymore. i would rather be too soft than too hard. too kind than too cruel. this is not weakness. 

[painstation-deactivated20181026]

[lifeinpoetry]

Getting hit / never made us / any closer.

Duy Doan, from “first-person plural,” We Play a Game (via lifeinpoetry)

[furiousgoldfish]

this comment sums up my entire blog in one sentence. fuck.

[weltenwellen]

no more hiding my own softness, no more trying not to care too much, no more leaving love unexpressed in 2021.

[liviafalcaru]

[mellycoco]

🌴 dreamland asks 🌙

dreamland: what’s the last dream you remember having?

tangerine: how have you changed as a person in the past year?

((home movie: 1994)): if you could travel back to any era in time, what would it be and why?

hot sugar: do you have a sweet tooth?

((home movie: btx)): what was your favorite television show as a kid?

space ghost coast to coast: what’s one of your regrets in life?

tokyo drifting: what’s something about yourself that you feel confident in?

melon and the coconut: do you have any favorite foods?

your love (déja vu): what color is your hair?

waterfalls coming out your mouth: what’s something about you that not many people know?

it’s all so incredibly loud: is there anything you’ve said that you wish you could take back?

((home movie: rockets)): if you could visit any planet in our solar system, which would it be?

domestic bliss: where do you feel most at home?

heat waves: do you enjoy summertime?

((home movie: shoes on)): what kind or brand of shoes do you usually wear?

helium: do you have any dreams for the future?

[bpdbillybibbits]

when the parasocial obsession relationship hits just right

[nevver]

Don’t look back, Nguan

[theweirdwideweb]

Reparenting Affirmations for Child Abuse Survivors

I am so glad you were born.

You are a good person.

I love who you are and am doing my best to always be on your side.

You can come to me whenever you’re feeling hurt or bad.

You do not have to be perfect to get my love and protection.

All of your feelings are okay with me.

I am always glad to see you.

It is okay for you to be angry and I won’t let you hurt yourself or others when you are.

You can make mistakes. They are your teachers.

You can know what you need and ask for help.

You can have your own preferences and tastes.

You are a delight to my eyes.

You can choose your own values.

You can pick your own friends, and you don’t have to like everyone.

You can sometimes feel confused and ambivalent, and not know all the answers.

I am very proud of you.

[deactivated-872458276450]

Bob Ross  / /  The Joy of Painting

[furiousgoldfish]

You didn’t “make” anyone hurt you. You didn’t ask for it, or provoke it, or desire it. People are responsible themselves for what they did to you. You don’t take any responsibility for their cruelty.

it’s not on you to hide it or to protect them from their own actions. (via furiousgoldfish)

[eaglesblood]

[luthienne]

…and if I cut myself, it was you I bled.

Jeanette Winterson, Lighthousekeeping (via luthienne)