emotionally compromised suicidal teenage girl

fuck i'm not a teenager anymore ;-; vent blog/dumpster fire

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I really really miss my dog

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God I am so fucking sad. I miss Zorro. I want him back. I want to go back to when he was young and healthy. I want to watch him run around playing again. It’s only been 2 days but I miss him so much. I thought I was prepared, but I’d give anything to go back just to hold him one more time. 13 years wasn’t long enough.

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My girls would’ve been 3 years old ❤️ always missing my baby beans

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Seeing Taylor Lautner in a silly role where he’s never once sexualized is something i didn’t know i needed

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Every time I learn more about how people tend to deal with sexual assault, the more I understand my past and it’s just sad :/ like bro literally ruined my life the day before my 14th birthday and because I was so scared I didn’t say anything and it continued to ruin my life for YEARS. I’m still dealing with effects almost 10 years later. It still effects my relationships. Still effects my sex life. Still effects my ability to leave my house. I still feel my stomach drop when I see him in public. And he’s not the only one who decided that my “no” meant nothing. Being victimized so young meant that I became a target for abusers the rest of my life. Not to mention the added trauma of being raped at 13 with all the religious guilt that I used to hold

What The fuck

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I know a lot of my old friends were not truly my friends and were not good for me, but it just hit me how fucking lonely I’ve been for YEARS

i miss my friends.

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Watching Vikings and internally being SO FUCKING MAD about Ragnar screwing that princess while his daughter is dying and his WIFE is trying to run their kingdom!! I hope when he gets home his son tells his mom about it and she castrates him :)

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Shout out the the old 1998 baby mozart VHS tapes being on YouTube

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My summer goal is to dress more slutty than last year

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I miss you so much 💔

I hope you’re resting easy Drey

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Happy Birthday Drey 💖 I miss you so much

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I got to punch one of my school bullies tonight 💖

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Getting up to pee, crawling back into bed, only to have to get up to shit less than 5 min later

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Hot air balloons for rats

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Snaggle toof

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Realizing that all the people who bullied me growing up are actually ugly as fuck??? Wow who were you to be hurting my feelings buttfaces