im never good enough

pastel aesthetic but cold hearted • bpd • cocsa • call me Daisy • I do not promote self harm in anyway, this is just a place for me to vent

[bpdohwhatajoy]

I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person I am a bad person

[bpdtaem]

[pariaaaaah]

[thedinbpd]

I know I am capable of coping with my suffering alone, but right now I need someone to be gentle with my soul.

[bpdmoth]

Instrusive thoughts™️: !! Stab that person! bite a chunk of your arm out! punch a hole through the window!!

Me:

[dimittere-confractos]

I know I’m needy

I know I’m annoying

I know I’m a lot to handle

But please

Just don’t leave me

[pariaaaaah]

sigh

[bpdmoth]

Me: I should probably clean my room, it’s starting to get messy.

Brain: or, you could, you know, uhh, just die

Me:

[its--5am-deactivated20190318]

[mizzle-drops]

one of the weirdest things about bpd is having extreme abandonment issues but having the urge to abandon everyone you know

[little--bumble--bee-deactivated]

why does everything make me so upset! why does every tiny miscommunication make me want to kill myself! these things wouldn’t hurt me if i was a normal person and it makes me feel so damaged and unlovable!

[bpd-faust]

Brain: You need people to hug you and reassure you every 5 seconds unless they don’t want you dead

Me:…what the fuck

[si0nainn]

Me: how ever could anyone be mean!!!

Me: *is very mean*

[pariaaaaah]

me: i like to think i can exercise responsibility pretty well

me: *3am and depressively spending 300 dollars i dont have*

[dogboyism]

[bpdmoth]

Me: Man, I wish someone would text me, I’m so lonely..

Someone: *texts me*

Me: oh- no-

[pariaaaaah]