I'm #relatable

Side blog where I post about my mental health and all that jazz. pro self dx. do not follow if you're a pro-ana blog. I will block you

[bpdkyloorgana]

im so paranoid that im going to come home to an eviction notice. my landlord did respond that he would send the lease terms but that was over a week ago then i saw him on friday and he said he would send it that day and he didnt im so on edge. im looking at apartments just in case. if i have to move i am so fucked i dont have money for a deposit?? im gonna have to get a storage unit?? im literally going to have to ask my friend if i can crash he guest room for a month or something. im gonna puke.

[bpdkyloorgana]

freaking out about my housing situation and thing is i know everything will work out eventually but being in this limbo is unsettling and it’s making my anxiety worse that usual

[bpdkyloorgana]

texted an old hook up and then got jumpscared when they responded like bitch wtf didnyou expect

[bpdkyloorgana]

might be getting railed thursday aaayyyyyy

[bpdkyloorgana]

texted an old hook up and then got jumpscared when they responded like bitch wtf didnyou expect

[bpdkyloorgana]

not heated rivalry making me face my insecurities around dating and actually talking to my therapist about it. fuck me.

[bpdkyloorgana]

i really love heated rivalry and am enjoying it and the cultural moment it is fostering but dear lord my heart hurts and i am feeling hopeless about ever finding a partner. again.

[bpdkyloorgana]

i have a BOIL on my PERINEUM i want to scream

[podencos]

I feel disconnected and under loved and something familiar but unnamed. Maybe I’ll bake cookies. I’ll probably just go to bed at 6

[bpdkyloorgana]

if my friends dont want to watch my video of my HS performance im gonna weep for a few hours

[bakwaaas]

logically I know nothing matters and everything is temporary but emotionally I am crushed by the weight of everything that has ever happened to me and ever will happen

[bpdkyloorgana]

totally totally cool that a bunch of my friends got together twenty minutes away from me and didnt invite me im soo cool about it

[bpdkyloorgana]

ngl im about to cry with how lonely i feel when all my friends are either in happy relationships or they’re dating and they’ve been talking for like ten minutes about red flags and shit meanwhile i cant even get a date with a woman within 30 miles and i dont want to date men i want nothing beyond platonic like i just feel destined to be alone if k fonds someone and we dont end up being platonic life partners

[bpdkyloorgana]

haha just threw up so violently 🙃 literally hit me so fast that i projectiled against the mirror and about half of it just went on the mirror and the faucet bc i didnt even realize it was happening 🙃

[bpdkyloorgana]

im going to rip my face off and shove it down my throat

[bpdkyloorgana]

when my friends tell me they did coke without using fentanyl tests

[bpdkyloorgana]

gender is weird bro cause like im a lesbian but if i ever do feel “attraction” to men it is always in a Gay way like not dating idk how to explain this and im just venting no one will see this anyway bc i barely ever use this blog anymoreee djwjwouteessb

[bpdkyloorgana]

oh no might be catching feelings. time to implode.