The blog I desperately wished I had

I wished there was more concrete documentation about bpd recovery. This is concrete documentation, day by day, of my recovery. Of what I learn in therapy, what medicine I take, my experience, my relapses, etc. We can do this together

[bpdrecovery101]

"help im splitting" post

Hi.

I'm tired of being sick.

I'm also tired of trying to research and being told nothing or "maybe you need to let your relationships go" (that sounds like giving up, honestly).

As of tonight, this moment, 11PM PST on August 12, 2023, I have split badly. I have relapsed and distressed those who are important to me, causing me to be more distressed. I can't live a life like this.

Consider this (hopefully) like a bit of a BPD survival guide. Essentially, it's a bit of a diary, too. As I recover, you can recover too.

We can do this. Intro below the cut. (tw for suicide discussion, ideation, splitting)

hi.

this is me with my dog (and my blurry cat in the top left corner).

this picture was taken about a few hours before id split really badly and almost attempted. i have attempted in the past. i would also split later that night and proceed to do things that would distress people that i would regret.

this is also me that day

got a new dog. i love her! except bpd kinda made me forget that, and kinda made it irrelevant. i just thought, in those splitting moments, that everybody hates me and im better off dead.

these things weren't true, of course. i thought that sharing a bit of my story may help. im going through it with you. sometimes it's fine, a lot of the time it isn't.

im kinda tired though of living like this. i dont want to live wondering when my next fit will be. it's exhausting, and it exhausts those around me too

so the name of the game here is recovery. diary posts are tagged as #diary so you can block them if you want to. otherwise, im sharing my experience and what is helping me recover.

we got this. it's hard but we can do it.

[bpdrecovery101]

I am not dead. I'm just in recovery.

Hello everybody! Shortly after I originally made this blog last year, my FP (who was really abusive) left me suddenly. I was single for about a year, and now I've been dating someone for roughly 2 months now.

My new relationship, being in college, and being single for a while gave me a lot of valuable knowledge about my disorder. I'm excited to pass this knowledge onto others.

I want to make my first actual post about the various forms of medication, then another one about treatments. I finally found something that works to help me recover (and it may not be what people are expecting)

For now, I just want to say that I'm not dead. I'm recovering gradually. And I believe you can too. It isn't easy, but it's possible.

[bpdrecovery101]

will edit post as i think of and use coping mechanisms that actually work for me

"I'm currently splitting, and idk what to do! help!!"

woah ok first off. it's okay that you feel this way. it is what it is. i know you may feel hostile and hurt but im proud of you for seeking help.

here's a list of things that help me that aren't harmful

baby sensory videos. oh my god. my autism loves these, and they're good at calming me down from full-on hyperventilating attacks. here is one to start you off. this is my favorite one. they have more if this one isn't your thing.