BPD Problems Ahead

spilling the tea [apple music: @vibess]

[bpdvibess]

Love when everyone in my life confirms that i am indeed an asshole on a SINGLE day

[valtsv]

*suddenly realizes i'm horrifically lonely and haven't done anything meaningful with my life and don't know what i can do to change that at this point while in the line at the grocery store*

[mournfulroses]

Euripides, tr. by Anne Carson, from Grief Lessons: Four Plays

[bpdvibess]

My parents keep yelling at me about falling being on household chores... I am literally passing all of my classes (I have not missed one), I’m on the speech and debate team at my college where I’ve been placing and winning, I’m working on my mid term papers, I just started working at a new job, I’m trying to be there for my family, and on top of all of that I’m trying not to kms.

[peacekash]

wow I’ve never met anyone who can ruin my entire day within a span of 30 seconds like my mother

[bpdvibess]

It’s really hard to explain and justify the high highs and low lows when they’re back to back.

[bpdvibess]

I cried so hard last night that I had a headache that lasted the whole day 

[bpdvibess]

Well I just proved to myself I’m a toxic friend. A while ago I had a realization that I’m the problem not other people. And this caused me to distance myself from everyone. I guess I did it so much that one of my friends said she was stalking my moms Facebook to make sure I wasn’t dead. She also just showed up to my house randomly to make sure I wasn’t dead. She tried to reconnect and in a positive way I basically was like sorry no. And she said that she’s going to keep checking up on me but I know if I keep holding out she will eventually move on. I just need everyone to move on from me. I’m so tired of being the villain.

[amontageofhell]

Having BPD is like,

Me to my friends : Yes, I get hurt and cause a fit over small things bUt thAt doeSnT meAn yoU shOuLD fEEL liKE yoU'rE wAlkiNG oN eGGsheLLs wiTh mE

[voidlatte]

I'm an unhinged emotional person so. why do i often hate it when someone else is emotionally unhinged?

oh yeah. because my empathy is all jacked up. i soak up everyone's friggin pain and then resent them for it. resent them for making me care about them more than me, resent them that they will never care about me the way i care about them. i resent that i feel like there's not enough room for both of our pain and suffering to be valid. that my pain could fill a pool but I'm trying to drain their spilling bathtub. and yes i compare and it's wrong i know. and yes i do sincerely care but i also burn with resentment for it.

[crying-in-the-cloudsxx]

I always feel bad once I’m out of a bad mood swing cause I ignore people 😞 and then I do and don’t wanna message them cause I know it’ll happen again and it’s not fair to them for me to go back and talk when I just leave again

[typos-in-my-brain]

Sometimes I just dizzily teleport around my house not knowing what's going on or what I am doing.

[grungeyfuckingzombie]

[hypervigil]

they’ve always said, when you feel a random shiver, that a rabbit has run across your future grave

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[shakeyourlonely]

thing i made in photoshop based on the poem wild geese by mary oliver

[bpdvibess]

Did I abruptly stop opening and replying to messages bc I want my friends to know that I’m mad.. yes

Will I ever explain to them why I did it... no

[slimetony]

hey people who know astrology shit. ive been having a lot of feeligs lately. any planets i can blame that on.