she was LOVELY. ⎯⎯⎯⎯ & then things CHANGED.

she can't see the landscape anymore. it's all painted in her grief. all of her history etched out at her feet. she's just like the weather. can't hold her together. born from dark water, daughter of the rain and snow. she wants the silence but fears the solitude. she wants to be alone but together with you. ⎯⎯⎯⎯ ( becky baker. )

[wordsnquotes]

I am still so naïve; I know pretty much what I like and dislike; but please, don’t ask me who I am. A passionate, fragmentary girl, maybe?

Sylvia Plath,  The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (via wordsnquotes)

[limitcdedition]

                  ❛ listen ; i KNOW it’s not easy                    —— trust me, i know ——               but ADAM wouldn’t have wanted this. ❜                              he wasn’t ENTIRELY sure where it came from, especially since he had been dealing the WORST out of all of them since adam’s d e a t h.                  but he ALSO knew that becky wasn’t able to deal either ; clare and alli had been keeping him updated on that, even AFTER the memorial.

                  @bprayers ♥‘d for a starter.

[bprayers-blog]

                  that was ALL she kept saying --- that adam would want this, or he wouldn’t want that. but it didn’t matter ---- NOTHING seemed to matter lately.       ❛ but he isn’t here to tell us what HE wants, ❜       she muttered, the bitterness evident in her voice. but she wasn’t mad at DREW, and she definitely wasn’t mad at adam. she was angry at the entire situation, and mostly, at GOD. answers weren’t forming, and nothing was making sense -- she was only getting more frustrated each and every day. without drew around, she had no clue where she’d be. she closed her eyes for a moment to take a deep breath and regain any kind of composure.       ❛ i’m sorry, ❜        she spoke with a quiet voice, now looking back up at drew and shaking her head with defeat.        ❛ i’m just tired. i’m tired of people telling me it’s going to be okay, or telling me that it all heals with time. but what are WE supposed to do while we wait for things to magically get better? ❜        ironically, she was usually on the other end, spreading positivity to whoever needed it in times of darkness. but now -- lightness wasn’t something that came to her easily. 

[limitcdedition]

                 there was a lot that adam would constantly think about.                 BUT the one thing that couldn’t seem to LEAVE his mind at that current point, was becky leaving for FLORIDA.                        he knew it would cause him nothing but ANXIETY and FEAR that something would happen and that he would lose her.                and so he had become determined to try and get her to stay, even if it meant putting an even bigger strain on their relationship.                      ❛ do you HAVE to go to florida ?? ❜

                  @bprayers ♥‘d for a starter.

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               becky’s trip to florida was all she talked about lately, mostly because it had been far too long since she had been back to her home ground and saw her friends. sure, she had friends in toronto, and she had a great boyfriend, but nothing compared to the feeling of comfort she gained as soon as she would land in florida. if she could, she would have loved to take adam with her -- her favorite person in her favorite place in the world sounded perfect in her mind, it just wasn’t feasible.      ❛ oh, adam.  are you already missing me? good, remember that. ❜     she giggled, placing her hands on his shoulder and smiling back at him.     ❛ just think, i’ll be back before you know it, and i’ll have SO many stories for you. you have no idea how excited i am to be in florida again. doesn’t mean i won’t miss you like c r a z y though.  i only wish you could meet my friends ---- you’d LOVE them, i just know it. ❜

[wordsnquotes]

She is so stubborn, her heart has an argument with her head every time it wants to beat.

Catherynne M. Valente, Deathless (via wordsnquotes)

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

She wears sunshine like a halo all over her and she has a sky of stars in her eyes. And when she gives you just a half smile, somehow you just cannot take your eyes off of her.

L.W.

// Something lovely about her half smile (via artannis)

[mhworth]

it was funny, you had to admit. anyone else could of easily laughed it off —- but becky baker had a reputation of being the pristine preachers daughter, and guys were cruel. now that he thought about it, he might just sign up to be her personal body guard until the next degrassi scandal breaks. but miles had sufficiently ruined that reputation of hers in a matter of weeks, and he was continuing to ruin it even after he had dispersed from her company ( not that he was aware of that currently ). ❛ i’m not bugging you. i’m just messing around. ❜ not exactly the time, man. he sort of hopes that his light-hearted nature would make this an easier pill to swallow, but per usual, he seems to only be making matters worse. ❛ i’m not pitying you. that’s not something i do with anyone. ever. ❜ even if she didn’t know him all that well, that was a word miles knew he could keep without hesitation. if miles ever had sympathy for you, it was because he cared. he’d never pity a cause, or a person. ❛ yeah, i get that. looking up porn isn’t dumb. keeping it UP on your computer, though… ❜ trailing off, he awkwardly places a palm to the back of his neck, ❛ it’s not a big deal. people will forget about it, yeah ? don’t beat yourself up. ❜

[bprayers-blog]

her eyes narrowed in on him as he told her he was just messing around, as if he should know better than that. she didn’t do well with jokes when they were directed at her, especially with topics as sensitive as this. it was all so new to her, and she was worried it might always be, which is how she landed herself here in the first place. ❛ i -- ❜ she began, almost ready to fight back until she realized he meant it. and now, she was only blushing more. maybe she hadn’t done anything wrong, but that didn’t ease her nerves one bit. she did SOMETHING wrong with him, and she worried that it would never be fixable.. and even if it wasn’t something worth fixing, she didn’t like the lack of closure. ❛ --thank you, i guess. ❜ she rolled her eyes in response, keeping her eyes fixated at the floor again. ❛ it is dumb. it is for me. i had no business looking at it in the first place, and -- i definitely wasn’t expecting it to pop up like that. ❜  she sighed, frustrated that she had spent all day working up a way to talk herself out of all of this and yet had nothing to work with. shooting a look back at him, she shook her head. ❛ you really believe that? high schoolers are .. brutal. do you know what they’re saying about me? i already get enough pressure being the reverend’s daughter from my family and the people at church -- and now i’m getting it from the people who go to school with me. i guess they have plenty to joke about, ❜ she said, her face falling into a frown as the reality of it all once again crashed into her. 

[musickmyriad-blog]

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There’s a love I’ve been keeping aside And you’re the missing puzzle piece I’ve been trying to find Hey girl you got me learning to fly Got me higher than a kite and I’ve been painting the sky

[mhworth]

rolling his eyes, he mirrors her ( dramatic ) body language. ❛ if i wanted to make a joke by now, i would’ve already. ❜ holding his hands up in innocence for a brief moment as if he was SURRENDERING, he quickly crosses his arms back over his chest, just as she had done. ❛ it wasn’t you…? ❜ his brow arches, his body leaning forward just barely toward her, obvious interest in what she had to say next. so far, the story unfolding was humourous at best, but he still felt bad. this was degrassi, after all. this would be nearly impossible to live down. ❛ so it was your lab partner, looking up porn on YOUR computer ? ❜ he’s not trying to be a douche, he promises. it’s just so e a s y to taunt her. a small chuckle falls between the two, his head finding interest in his shoes for a brief moment before bringing his attention back toward the blonde, ❛ i mean, from personal experience, i don’t think you need any advice. ❜

[bprayers-blog]

becky had been desperate to speak to miles for WEEKS -- and now this was the way she got it? it was frustrating, to say the least. but embarrassment was a constant emotion she held around him to begin with; she never knew what she was doing and was always waiting on him to help her out. it grew tiring, wondering if he genuinely thought she  was sweet with her innocence or if he found it annoying. but she didn’t want to be like that anymore -- she wanted to be in control of her own actions and KNOW what she was doing, so when that situation prompted next ( if it EVER did ), she would be ahead of the game. ❛ just -- can you stop? you of all people.. i thought wouldn’t bug me about this, but you did tell me that i don’t know you as well as i thought i did... ❜ she trailed off, letting out an exasperated sigh. she went silent with his next words, her face burning up EVEN MORE ( if possible ) with the compliment. shifting her weight between her flats, her hands clasped together tightly and she slowly looked back up at him. ❛ you don’t have to say that to make me feel better, or.. whatever. i did a stupid thing because i FEEL stupid lately, okay? about so many things. ❜

[mhworth]

❛ your lack in confidence in me is really endearing. seriously, thank you. ❜ of course he had heard the RUMOURS, people talked and miles listened. after all, getting caught pulling up PORN on your computer at school isn’t exactly the easiest thing to try and die down and keep to yourself. however, knowing becky, miles could only imagine how mortified she was. ❛ just wanted to see how you were. AND, i’m kind of interested to hear why you were looking up ‘best blowjob methods: SHOWN !’ in chem. already got a new dude ? ❜

[bprayers-blog]

tightly crossing her arms over her chest, she stood uncomfortably in front of her ex-whatever. ❛ do you REALLY care? or are you just trying to get your jokes in before it’s too late? ❜ you could see her physically c r i n g e as he brought up the title of her latest search, and her eyes instantly flashed to the floor. ❛ it was -- an ACCIDENT, it wasn’t me, it -- you don’t understand... ❜ she stammered on, feeling her face get warmer as the blush spread across her face. shifting her weight between her feet, she slowly looked up at him and sighed. ❛ there’s no guy. and i don’t expect there to ever be one again after all of THAT. i just -- i needed advice, i didn’t know what to do. ❜ her voice was small, and she knew she didn’t owe him any kind of explanation -- but at the same time, HE was the reason she had found herself in that position.

[bprayers-blog]

☆     ❛ you’re really the last person i want to see right now, but of course you’re here. just say whatever it is you’re dying to say and get on with it. though i’m sure you’ve got n o t h i n g to say that everyone else hasn’t already. ❜ she was masking her embarrassment by pretending she didn’t care, but anyone who truly knew her would know that she was nothing short of miserable on the inside. this kind of damage control was completely out of her element.

                                                                               @mhworth​.

[wordsnquotes]

You are flowers in my stomach.
 Cutting me open nightly, blooming through the cracks of the ribs. 
I only want to be the sun for you.

Elke River (via wordsnquotes)

[wnq-writers]

It’s difficult to live with a kind heart in such a cruel world.

wejaturks (via wnq-writers)

[imogenmarbles-deactivated201701]

Imogen laughed. “Well, yeah, but what does that have to do with standing out?” she questioned, tilting her head  to the side. “Cliche or not, it could very well be true for us!”  Becky knew her all too well. That was a total cliche, and just  saying these words made Imogen want to give up on this  C R A Z Y plan, but she had come too far to back out now.  “Oh, wow,” she whispered quietly just as the blonde began  arguing with her statement. “Never mind?” she asked, furrowing  her brows in confusion as she could only wonder what was  going to be said before she gave up too quickly on it. “I’m very grown up, too,” she defended herself – though she knew she  was doing something very childish at the moment. Sighing to  herself, she crossed her arms against her chest and looked  away from the girl’s eyes, staring off into the distance as she  thought very deeply of what she could “see” in Luke. Truth  is, he wasn’t her type at all. Imogen was more into boys or  girls with depth, good character, and maybe even a little  odd ; and neither of those things described Becky’s brother.  “Well, he’s cute. I just don’t think any real harm could come  from it ; It’s just one date, Becks.”

[bprayers-blog]

Becky was ready to leave this conversation behind her, but she was beginning to think that wasn’t entirely possible. It would keep coming up -- constant reminders on her mind that made her ache, just thinking about her brother with the girl that she had once fallen for. Of course, those were words she wouldn’t say out loud. Being gay wasn’t an option,  especially after all she was taught in her former school. And  even if she thought that it might be acceptable, she knew it  would still be too hard. Besides, Imogen wasn’t the person for her. She was WEIRD -- something she used to find so  charming about her, but now only wanted to get away from.  All her friends from her old school were very specific about  the way they dressed, acted, and spoke  -- they were nothing like Imogen. And she hadn’t realized it yet, but Imogen would be much more intriguing to be around than the cookie cutter versions of all her friends. “Or maybe not. Maybe it’s a mistake,” she reminded her with a sigh. She continued to stare at her  blankly as Imogen attempted to make a point, clearly missing it. “Looks like you could use some work. Hanging around my brother certainly won’t help,” she scoffed, shaking her head. As Imogen complimented him, Becky made a face, rolling her eyes at the idea that she actually found Luke to be attractive. “Okay, sure.  Just one day -- whatever. Doesn’t bother me. You’re the one who’s going to regret it.”

[tylerknott]

I will stay gentle no matter what I endure, I am so much more.

Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson (via ghostoat)

[fckyeahdegrassigifs]

[mckennasplaylist]

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Venice | The Lighthouse and the Whaler

[meanwhilepoetry]

Before you leave, please know this; I’d rather be the girl whose name dies at your lips every time you try to speak of me, than a girl you tell stories about at parties. I’d rather be your absinthe, than your cup of tea.

Absinthe | Nikita Gill (via aphroditerps)