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the united states government could become a fascist dictatorship doing a full trans genocide rounding up queer ppl into the camps and making it illegal to be gay and you know @ jacknjellify on twitter dot com would still be posting their gay tennis ball ms paint doodle for pride month #allyship

#this is how rainbow capitalism can still win #<- /j im not saying that osc pride month tweets are rainbow capitalism. i don't actually care #txt #osc #bfdi

the factory where they build mentally unstable ex-osc haters who obsess over hating object shows and attempt to start mass harassment campgains, harass crew members, doxx them and leak their addresses, threaten violence at irl osc meetup events and get banned from multiple social media platforms for inciting violence and defending mass murderers

#it isn't so much the fact that it's happened before but the fact that it keeps happening again and again😭😭#does anyone remember operation huangfall. i still have their insane manifesto saved on my google docs #i do find it funny that they admitted that they failed and gave up though. i wonder who was running that acc #txt

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Vegetables With Glamour From the 1958 "wonderful ways with soups...from Campbell's" Cookbook

#band in an object show #reblog

my therapist asked me if i had any other lgbtq ppl in my life and i was like i honestly don't think i have a single friend or acquaintance in my life who ISN'T some form of transgender or nonbinary 😭😭

#if there are any cis people in my life then they certainly aren't neurotypical i will tell u that much #txt

my other burden when trying to name women is that i dont know how to spell anyone's name

#if i googled the spelling of everyone's name it would take like twice as long lmao #txt

i could easily name 100 women probably but most of my friends and acquaintances are nonbinary so i feel like i would end up naming a lot of nonbinary people who could technically be included under the umbrella of women in that they are not men But i would be worried about what is actually defined as a women in this context.... what is a women...... how do you know if someone is actually a woman or secretly nonbinary or trans unless you yourself are able to know their personal experience with gender identity. Who is a woman how would you know!!!!!

#i know a lot of women who have as asterisk next to their definition of women but maybe not that many cis women #and of the cis women who i know or who i know of probably not a lot of them are famous enough to be in any online list of women #i guess the point is to name celebrities or public figures but im not convinced i could name 100 celebrities in general #yet alone 100 celebrity women #i keep thinking of object show people. both object show creators and characters. that's always my downfall cuz how are you gonna argue #that microphone inanimate insanity is a black woman. but how could you argue she isn't???#txt

was almost going to reply to this comment until i realized who it was LMAOO they almost got me too. fucking freak

#also not really the point but calling me a “fan” of bfdi (which is what im assuming they're talking about) seems extremely generous #considering i have only watched a handful of episodes and don't really care about the show at all beyond having a few friends on the crew #God forbid you're in the osc now everyone assumes ur a bfdi fan.... as if i even care about that show...#i can't believe we let them wriggle out of their hole and onto tumblr dot com. Hopefully they get banned soon #txt

i feel like the fact that throughout my life my classmates/peers have always been supportive and kind to me but my close friends absolutely HATED me and bullied me and committed psychological warfare against me to the point of severe suicidal ideation in middle school has done irrevocable harm to my ability to have healthy social relationships bcuz i can literally only trust people who i don't know personally. as soon as you're my freind the assumption is intent to harm

#it's like i was an abusive relationship for my entire childhood with the only people who were “supposed” to like me which is kinda crazy #i didnt even know friends could hurt you like that until i read some graphic novel about teeth. i think it was smile??#i was like ohhh so the torture really is unending #i still dont know what it would be like to feel safe around someone im friends with. never experienced that irl before #txt

im so fucking bored and lonely im starving for conversation. i never get to talk to anyone and have no human connection even online. i feel like nobody likes me and im incapable of having a positive social interaction with anyone irl that isn't a fucking social worker or therapist or doctor. and they're literally paid to pretend to like me. i feel like a lab experiment. they're testing me to see how long someone can go without experiencing any joy or happiness in their life before they kill themselves

#txt

seeing everyone turn on tadc and making fun of it and saying it was always bad and they always hated it makes me kinda sad cuz it Once again makes me think that everyone just hates everything that i make and people are pretending if they ever compliment me but if my work ever dared to become popular everyone would immediately switch on me and say im untalented and a waste of space and everything i create is garbage (and maybe that's true). why make anything if you know everyone will end up hating it regardless of what you do. it'll never be good enough. and all your friends will turn on you and talk about how they Always actually thought your work was garbage and you're a terrible person and that all your characters are annoying assholes. and you can never trust ppl if they tell you they don't think that because you know that they're liars

#not that i think tadc is amazing or above criticism but it's pretty good for what it is and considering it was made by an indie studio #i dont see the point in everyone switching up on it just because it's popular i guess (??) or even if shitty ppl are involved #also i feel slightly attacked when people make fun of the writing bcuz im a horrible writer and couldn't make anything even half as good lol #txt #i would get torn to shreds if people saw what was going on in my google docs. which is why i dont write anymore

i couldn't have a roommate bcuz they'd ask me to wash my dishes immediately after eating or vaccum once a week and i would start suibaiting them about it

#im already doing this to myself and i live alone #i should vaccum more genuinely it's just hard rn bcuz of my cat being scared of the vaccum and the size of my apartment #i get soo demotivated by cleaning especially lately 😭#theres always litter and cat hair everywhere. no matter how much i vaccum. and i cant vaccum everyday my cat would hate me #txt

because all my college expenses will be covered by the government technically if i wanted to i could move into student housing and have them cover my "rent" but the concept of living in college dorms and having to be roommates with a random 18 year old or worse genuinely sounds like psychological torture to me. i would rather spend 90% of my income on rent payments than live with another human being. i would rather be homeless

#hypothetically speaking bcuz the school im going to doesn't currently have student housing (tho i think they just got funding to build some)#but if i was going to another school #i realize i could save sooo much money if i had a roommate or roommates but i can't do it. i can't put myself through that emotionally #don't make me share my kitchen with another human being. i can't handle being guiltripped about chores by someone 6 years younger than me #with significantly less life experience #Honestly im just not a good roommate bcuz i won't do dishes. even when i live alone i dont do dishes. and i have a fucking dishwasher #the dishes.... they never end #txt

genuinely annoyed that when requesting my high school transcripts they some reason include a creative writing class i took in grade nine OVER A DECADE AGO (and no other classes from that school) and also that they say my grade was 60% in that class when im almost 100% certain that my final grade in that class was an A

ig it doesn't really matter bcuz a grade that i got a decade ago in an elective doesn't matter on my transcripts But also i wish there was a way to request that they remove that class or at least correct the grade. bcuz it's wrong and makes me look bad. they're slandering me!!!!

#Unless im literally crazy im so certain that i got an A in that creative writing class based on the way the teacher did grading #maybe it's included bcuz it was a grade 10 class but grade 10 also doesn't count towards admissions so what is the point #they also don't have my math 11 grade in my transcripts bcuz the teacher hasn't submitted them yet so it looks incomplete #which Doesn't matter but also it's annoying to me cuz it makes me look stupider than i am #i wonder if i could go to my old high school and ask my creative writing teacher to confirm what my grade was lmao. would she even know #not saying i deserved to get an A in that class bcuz i did not but also im pretty sure that was my grade #hopefully an actual human looks at my transcripts and realizes that there's a ten year gap between these classes #and that perhaps my life circumstances mightve changed in the interim between ages 14 and 25 #txt

i know my cat isn't an ESA bcuz he's not doing this shit for me AT ALL lmao 😭 he's very affectionate but he's made my anxiety like 50x worse and lowkey triggers my ptsd when he goes into hunting/attack mode. Emotional burden animal

#he does wake me up in the mornings and force me to exercise by playing with him though #and keep the windows open so that he can look outside even though i prefer when it's dark #and so he doesn't destroy the blinds #Not his fault (mostly) im just mentally ill and hate having cat hair and litter everywhere. and all my stuff being destroyed #im hoping he'll settle down in a few months and he's just testing my boundries rn bcuz he wasn't this bad for the first few weeks #all the advice for cats destroying blinds and eating the string is just “get different blinds/replace them with curtains”#like bro im renting this apartment i can't just remove the blinds thats not how it works 😭😭#and i can't keep them open 24/7 bcuz my apartment is on the ground floor and people can see inside when it's dark outside #i guess i could put up a blanket like my last apartment but i kinda don't want to do that everyday #not to mention all the damage he's done to my various wires and charging chords 💔#addicted to chewing #luckily he hasn't actually swallowed anything..... yet #txt

college must work differently here than in america bcuz i always see people talking about getting their acceptance letter and being excited etc but i literally applied online and it took like 5 minutes and then they sent me an email. the college i applied to (which is just the one in my town) i don't think ever rejects any applicant even if you get rejected bcuz you don't meet program requirements (which is usually just english 12) u can just take an equivalency course at the college through a seperate program. also applies to university btw i think the university in my town has like a 65% acceptance rate or something and i would get in automatically. i realize my town doesn't have top rated educational institutions But still..... how are ppl excited about getting into college they'll let anyone in that bitch. you literally just get an email about it

#i haven't been accepted yet bcuz i still need to submit school transcripts and it takes a few days #i haven't graduated high school im working on that over the summer..... but i might apply the credit for a college level class #towards high school graduation instead of finishing my social justice course. not sure yet lmao #also admission essays?? never even heard a MENTION of that and have no idea where you would submit it #the concept of writing a whole essay about myself and my life just to maybe get rejected from a university. absolutely not lmfao #some programs need a portfolio etc but that's usually at university level and wouldn't apply to college transfer #Also i dont think the standards are that high idk..... i have drawn before admittedly not very well #txt

my cat keeps eating my hair so i tried to take a bite out of his tail fur to teach him a lesson but he started purring 🙁

#maybe im in the wrong here.....#(i did not actually take a bite out of his fur)#txt

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