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mrsterlingeverything

Stop having children that is so weird

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exciting things happening in my inbox right now

apricops

person online 1: buhhhh discourse

person online 2: guefhhhhh discourse

person in real life: corn dogs have pronouns now so I’m going to start firing randomly in a crowded mall

I keep meaning to use my other blog but I forget and my mobile dashboard is so good on here

#I will slowly follow people so I don't get shadowbanned #And it will be obvious

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DNI if you are without love for impotent micropenis

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ihatebisexualmen2

Thank god I’m not a gay guy I’d be Evil as fuck probably killing people too

transmutationisms

wait so bipolar isn’t actually genetic? Does this mean every observed disorder isn’t actually genetic either? Interesting

no psychiatric diagnosis has been causally tied to any gene, hormone, neurotransmitter, anatomical malformation, lesion, etc, and they never will do, because psychiatric diagnoses are not constructed, assigned, or treated on such bases but by clinician observation of external behaviours, whose superficial resemblance is then read backwards to arrive at the heuristic assumption that is a diagnostic schema. certainly in the pantheon of human health conditions there are others, outside of the psychiatric specialty, that have been definitively causally linked to certain genes or clusters of genes, though overpromising genetic determinism is also a problem in non-psychiatric medical practice as well. again i have a tag about this

trans-axolotl

content note: sexual violence, intersexism, IGM.

the intersex discourse happening in my notes right now is reminding me how few people seem to realize the extent to which a lot of intersex medical abuse is also sexual violence. i could list out so many examples--from nonconsensual genital photography to nonconsensual pelvic exams to medical experimentation like Dr.Dix Poppas's clitoral stimulation experiments (Dr.Dix Poppas is still employed as the Chief of Pediatric Urology at Weill-Cornell in NYC, btw) to forced dilation to verbal sexual harassment from doctors talking inappropriately to us about penetrative sex and gender roles to the fact that there are many people who view the nonconsensual surgery they survived as a form of sexual violence.

and that's not even counting all the types of sexual violence outside of the medical realm that so many intersex people are surviving--i know so many intersex people who have survived sexual assault in so many different settings. i could talk for days about the kinds of sexual violence that become prevalent for intersex people in carceral settings where strip searches can out us. there are so many different ways that sexual violence becomes commonplace in many intersex people's lives, and i am forever and always angry about it.

i think a lot about this quote from Sean Saifa Wall:

"What does it mean to keep us safe? What does it mean for intersex people to feel safe in their bodies, in their homes and with medicine? How can we take those steps for intersex people to feel at home?

People talk a lot about the idea of being at home in your body. But when your house gets robbed, it feels like your home has been violated and desecrated by someone you don’t know. To feel safe in your home and neighborhood again, you have to go through a process of connecting with them. But some people can’t—some people move. For intersex people, I think the question is how can your body become home? How do you feel safe in your home again?"

i don't have a singular answer to that, but what i do know is that intersex survivors of sexual violence deserve better than what we're faced with right now.

trans-axolotl

there are so many elements of rape culture that interplay with the paternalism of medicine. there are so many ways that sexual violence against intersex people is dismissed, ignored, and trivialized. i know so many intersex people who are told "that's not sexual assault because it happened in a hospital. because it was the standard of care. because it doesn't meet the definition for medical malpractice. because they wrote a research study about it. because the photos of you are published in a reputable medical journal. " and on and on and on.

i think it can sometimes feel impossible to fight back against the weight of that. trying to find language that encapsulates the extent of the violation and the extent of the harm that the perpetrators caused can become especially hard when the perpetrators have the power of the medical establishment on their side. i think this especially comes up against the societally engrained idea of doctors as "helpers"--something that pretty much any marginalized person can tell you is a joke.

anyway. i think it's important to believe intersex survivors of sexual violence and to give us the space to talk about this kind of thing openly. it would be nice, maybe, to see sexual assault advocacy organizations actually create intersex specific resources to help us navigate the particular difficulties of sexualized medical abuse. it would be nicer if none of us had to survive anything like this in the first place.