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[brailynandlanismom]

I can’t tell you how many times I cried watching this documentary. #ParentalalienationAwareness

[brailynandlanismom]

Some people only have an image where a need was never met. A need for a family. A need for wholeness. A need to be loved and to feel loved. A need to feel complete. And need to be taken care of and to to be acknowledged. A need to stop the pain and the sadness and the confusion. A need for someone to care. A need for answers. And so their mind created an idea of what it’s like to know that love and to have that family. And their dreams had an image but meant everything to them. They wanted to have their own family so they could love and be loved in return. And this image and this idea of this family is what helped that child get through sadness. On through the teenage years, the main and only goal was still the family. On into adulthood, the family remained the life goal. The only problem was, was that somewhere along the way, the idea had became less of an idea and more of just an image. So much of who they could have been growing up had to be replaced because too much time had been wasted being sad. And the adults in their life were examples that feelings were not important so instead of wasting time on those,they get thrown out instead of sorted. They grew up with no real example of a parent who loved them unconditionally so that will never feel natural and they won’t be able to actually love someone. And they were raised to believe that their true feelings were irrelevant so that’s how they know how to treat others and their feelings. And by the time they make it to wanna start their little families, they won’t possess a single characteristic that it takes to contribute to the life and building of a loving family. But hey they still have the image though. So they think whatever fits is what makes a family. And they take a few things that give them the idea of family and the piece it all together to make one big picture of a family. Or at least it looks like an image of a family. All the things that make a family a family like love and understanding and all that are not that important anymore. Because once again, that’s what they have been taught. And so they just continue to move forward with the plan lacking every crucial component and then once they are there and they finally have their little family, they are once again met with an emptiness where they thought feelings of completeness should go. It is extremely sad and so mostly these people just go back to putting the image pieces together as good as they possibly can. Their image is important to them because it’s all they got. And it’s at least better to look at then it is to turn back and look at their pain. If anything I’m sympathetic towards them

[brailynandlanismom]

A song dedicated to Brailyn❤️

[brailynandlanismom]

To my Lani❤️

[brailynandlanismom]

A letter to Lani❤️

The best of times were when I was with you❤️

Time felt still and there was just you and me.

I knew you and you knew me.

And it didn’t really matter what we did..

Sometimes we played together for a little while

Somewhere off together just us two

A closeness of its own

I would call you over to me and put you on my lap

I told you I just wanted to hold you for a minute

And you would lay in my lap,holding me back

You would look off and sometimes close your eyes

I could tell you were somewhere in your mind

Somewhere in there enjoying this moment with me

We were both quiet

But somehow somewhere inside of me I was telling you how much I loved you

And somehow somewhere inside of you I felt you hear it.

And I gave you a kiss on your forehead and told you to look at me

Looking down at you I told you I loved you and asked you if you knew that momma loved you

And looking back at me you nodded yes

And I said hey..did you know, if someone said to me that I could go do anything that I want. Whatever I want in the entire world I could go get or have. I could be anywhere doing anything right now, you know what I would chose out of everything I could ever think of or want?

You said what?

I said “I’d chose you”

If I could be anywhere in the world I’d be with you. Wherever you are. It wouldn’t matter where we were or what we did. It could be just like us here right now in this room playing dolls with you.

I would play dolls with you over everything else in the entire world.

I told you that’s how much I loved you. I loved you more than anything or anyone in the entire world and the only thing I want above all is you.Everyday forever

And we sat there holding one another for a little longer. Rocking you like a little baby.

And then we played.

You said “you know which ones are my favorite”?

You were pointing at your dolls and you had some over in a corner by themselves

And you pointed at those and said “the ones you gave me”

[brailynandlanismom]

Understanding Stages of Grief applied to Parents Affected by Parental Child Abduction / Alienation…

“The death of a child is indisputably one of the most incredibly horrible tragedies one can imagine. Whether by sudden accidental…

#parentalalienationawareness please take the time to read

[brailynandlanismom]

Parental Alienation Awareness. This song goes out to the parents who reached that point of letting go. We know pain like no other. You are not alone and you stopped your baby/babies from being abused. Only those who know what that’s like from experience can truly understand how deep and painful that is. Just to give them a little peace❤️

I love you Brailyn and Lani❤️