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I feel a darkness welling within me. Not hatred. No freeze to speak of. The flame has calmed. The pain has hushed. The voice of a bird crying out for a friend. The world unbeknownst to it, turning their wings the other way. The trees unfamiliar with the sun looking down them. The waters that do not clean. The wind that stagnates instead of blows, howling over a land with no name. It does not need one. It's a land that all share. A feeling we all cross. Like a bridge uncovered in the best of times, ready to creak and fall. Yet we smile as we plummet. This is not a pain I fear. This is a pain, unfamiliar. I have no choice but to walk. No choice but to breathe. So under the trees I go, the bird I will answer, the wind I will take in and the water I will drink. The land I will tread. I will smile while doing so. Finally I will plummet from the familiar bridge. Wake up. Do it again. All the while, my heart unburdened.

(Not a very good poet. Or good at all but. Just felt the words were right to hear from myself.)

#poetry #bad poetry #mental health #depression

I'm more than my thoughts. I'm not the impulsive thoughts I have. But my actions are disgusting. And I have to live with that. I can only hope to get better. Atone in some way. It the universe never grants that peace, I'll understand. But this never ending anger. This never ending fire. This sense of deathly flame. It hurting. Burning. I'm shaking so fucking much. But I know I deserve it. This is MY pain. MY slow death. Don't feed the fire, girl. Not like I need to.

#anger issues #anger #mental health #mental illness

kerizaret

In case you haven't noticed May has sucked for me so far, anyway *projects onto blorbo*

So I finally got around to watching "I saw the TV glow". What I remember is seeing a lot of trans people having strong reactions to the movie. But I didn't. I'm a trans girl. Is something wrong with me? Did I do something wrong?

#trans rights #transgender #transfem

thememedaddy

ivedonestranger

I Thought this was Clever

I thought this was an interesting idea. Doing paintings that resemble real world tank art that i have seen around but mix in the Girls und Panzer casts to give it that...could we say....uncanny valley effect for the series?