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Journal Music Releases

[braindeadbilly]

Dragon Ball Z x Jordan 8’s

[dragonballclassic]

[recaption]

[narutocap]

[venusl]

𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐨𝐫𝐮 𝐓𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐤𝐚

[braindeadbilly]

Focus On Self. [Remain Zero]

So I’m sitting here on Twitter, having finally unblocked everyone in Otaku Underworld I quickly notice all the progress everyone has made. I can’t help but be happy for them, I love it!

But I am also jealous...

None of my music ever gets that much attention. It barely gets retweeted by the people who are supposedly my riders, but in the midst of this train of thought I realize exactly what I’m doing.

I’m comparing my progress to theirs...

They were ready for this, and I pulled out because I felt I wasn’t. Heck, I still feel nervous sometimes, but I know for a fact that it’s different this time. I am approaching the field that much more confident in myself. I’ve practiced in my room too much, listened to my songs over and over, I am in control of this narrative. I have a plan for myself and I am going to put it into motion, and this time I will stick to it. I refuse to let my doubts overpower me. 

[streetdepot]

[tkciao]

マント

[kuma0980-deactivated20220421]

[realniggaz-blog]

[demifiendrsa]

Death Note new one-shot cover illustration for Jump SQ March 2020 issue.

[braindeadbilly]

Every now and then I feel cut off from the world. Like I’m not wanted. I don’t want to fight that anymore. I want to stay alone and learn to live with it. I want to be happy by myself. To do my thing without distractions.

I’m the one who is separating myself anyways. I don’t make attempts to interact, and I shrug off anyone trying to reach out to me. It’s because somewhere deep down I know it’s a waste of time. What are we growing close for? To grow apart again? You are just here to waste even more of my time.

I need to make a list of things I find important, because even though I never actually forget, more things come up and distract me. I end up forgetting why I was doing something in the first place. A petty example, I am playing Fire Emblem Warriors. I decide to change Lucinda’s job to Great Lord, so I go out and hunt the seal. I get the seal after what takes forever, go to the crest market, and now I’m looking at all of my characters trying to decide who’s job to change. Uhh, hello? Earth to Me, you already made this decision, why are you trying for it again? So a list would help. I will make a list. Nothing will stop me from achieving this.

[braindeadbilly]

newslaves.mp4 pic.twitter.com/zpQfRniTP5

— 💔 (@WhoIsBillyNigma) January 28, 2020

[hyzumiis]

落書

Member: Kakyoin_Aki

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[biancabaumann]

gloomy // d ü s t e r .

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[cquirkart]

the original duo ✨

[bvckstvb]

me

[braindeadbilly]

And I’m doin’ pretty hood in my pink polo.