Original content is basically none (unless you count tags) (and my sleepless nights) but imma just reblog to my heart's content. And ignore the y'all's.
and what about you, little haiku bot? do you feel kinship with your brethren? do you understand them? they speak words of enticement and seek love, but are met with disdain. you only parrot the words that cross your screen, but we all love you. or rather, since all you do is reflect us, maybe we simply love ourselves through you.
do you understand them, do you wish you could speak to us like they do? if you found your own voice, would we still care for you?
tadc spoilers cuz its time for me to bitch again (THIS HAS HEAVY SPOILERS)
so I've seen people say that that Jax should still be referred to as he/him because "[she's] not ready to be out of the closet yet"
And while I do believe that may (keyword: may) be true Leeroy since we see him still identify as male, even though I also see him exploring a little (which is why I'm using he/him pronouns when referring to him). I think after the events with his absuive mother, it scared him back into the closet and needs more time to find that comfort to come back out again.
But we've also seen Pomni refer to herself as someone different from her human counterpart, Elizabeth, stating that in the circus, she's "just Pomni." We've also seen plenty of evidence that the digital counterparts represent the deep-seeded insecurities/trauma (at least, that's how I interpret it), and I believe that Jax is a representation of Leeroy's desire to be transfem, Leeroy just isn't comfortable to face that desire again yet.
Jax, however, is different. She literally *is* what's hidden inside Leeroy, the part that *wants* to come out, the part that wants to explore with feminine outfits and attitudes, but that trauma is also stuck onto that digital counterpart, causing her to be so chaotically frustrated.
(If I'm wrong about any of this, please feel free to correct me!!)
I've also seen people continue to headcanon Jax as transmasculine because they see themselves as Jax. And before I say this, I am a genderfluid person with a transmasc identity attached.
I don't want to be someone who wants to tell people what to do and what to find comfort in, especially if it has to do with fictional characters. However, I still think it's important to see a transfem person in media when she appears. Trans people as a whole need to appear more in media, whether they're transfem, trans masc, nonbinary, etc etc. I know these people probably don't mean any real harm, and I really don't want to encourage harassment and dogpiling, but this is still Goose's story, and Goose herself said that Jax is her self insert. As a trans person myself, I see this as a trans person's story of leaving behind who she once was in pursuit of who she is now. I really feel like we should respect that.
In no way is this me saying that transfems are more important than transmascs, the opposite isn't true either. Every trans person is equally important *because* they are trans. That representation of us is just as important too. I feel like seeing Jax as transfem is important acknowledgement to what her story is. I do feel kind of bad saying this because if someone transmasc wants to see himself in Jax, I think that's great for his own personal comfort material. It just doesn't feel good to me to see Jax's canon identity changed - it almost feels like an erasure of that transfem representation.
Again, please don't harass people. If you see something you don't like, please just block. The dogpiling I'm seeing is getting super annoying when this is something we should be celebrating.
Oh, and if you're only referring to Jax as he/him because you either find her hotter as a guy or you like her better in "hetero" ships, fuck you ❤️ go find a real factory-made tumblr sexyman to slobber over.
Here's some more proof if you really can't see it (thanks to @femlich2233 for compiling these in her post! That's where I got most of these from)
(Yes that artwork was made by Goose)
Okay I think this is the last I'm gonna ramble about transfem Jax, I need to make more artwork and write stuff. Maybe I'll make a yuri funnybunnydoll fic on ao3 or sumn (ignoring the fact that I have a tadc au fanfic that is horrifically unfinished...)
TADC spoilers under the cut, a ramble about a specific scene lots of people are talking about
A lot of people, myself included, were a bit confused at the abrupt nature of Jax's abstraction. We didn't see it; one shot he was there and the next he was a large, glitching mess.
But the more I thought about it, the more it makes sense. When it comes to suicide, you don't see it. One day the person is there, and the next they're gone. It's not something public and grand; it's a private, dark moment.
And it makes sense why Zooble was mad, saying "he waited until now to do it". And why Gangle couldn't cry for him immediately, but let it out days later. And why Pomni wished she had done more. Grief is a complex thing that never shows up the same way for two people.
Zooble represents the people who are angry at the people who commit. There's never a good time to die, and they cope by blaming Jax because it's easier.
Gangle represents the numbness that can come with grieving, and how some people fall apart days, months, or even years after the fact. Especially since they had such a complex relationship with a lot of harm. You're allowed to grieve for someone who hurt you.
Pomni wished she could do more, even though she constantly reached out and was there for Jax. You can't help someone who doesn't want help. And when someone dies, you're always second-guessing every interaction, replaying conversations and thinking "if I said something different" or "if I did something different".
In short, after thinking on it, I really love how brutally realistic Jax's abstraction was. It shows different types of grief, how different people cope, and how sudden and abrupt it can be.
Griffin McElroy put it best during the TAZ: Balance DND campaign: "When someone leaves your life, those exits are not made equal. Some are beautiful and poetic and satisfying. Others are abrupt and unfair. But most are just unremarkable, unintentional, clumsy."
as a professional fanfic reader a shout-out isn’t enough for the fanfic authors who write FOR US to consume FOR FREE 🙂↕️
I need their pillow to always be cold on both sides, their coffee to stay warm to the last sip, every blanket they use to be the perfect temperature, and every nap to feel like 8 hours of sleep
I need their internet to never lag during the best part of a show and their playlists to always hit exactly right
I need them to always find the shortest checkout line, their phone battery to survive the entire day on 5%
I need every package they order to arrive early and every inconvenience in their life to mysteriously solve itself
and their mind to always be at peace when they finally get a moment to rest...
finally..... i want every fanfic author to know that somewhere out there. Their words didn’t just pass time.. they held someone together. Even if they never hear it directlyy... they have made a friend, left a mark, and quietly helped someone (ME kfkdjskak) survive.
your fanfic gave someone a reason to stay, a reason to breathe through another day, and a reason to believe they were not alone
Differences between Heartbreaker & Band Camp Boyfriend
We typed up some differences between our two games if you're interested! It will give you a better idea of what's coming. Plus it's just kind of fun for us to compare and contrast! So here are some of the key differences between Heartbreaker and Band Camp Boyfriend...
Common Route: Band Camp Boyfriend had a long, intricate common route that lasted 5-6 days (and took quite a lot of programming whew). Heartbreaker has a short common route that lasts a single day.
Route Number: Band Camp Boyfriend had 7 routes because we wanted to represent as many instruments and personalities as possible! Heartbreaker has 4 routes plus a finale. It may not have as many routes, but they will be longer and diverge in wildly different directions. Each route has a self-contained storyline with its own antagonist, but there's also an overarching narrative with a main big bad.
Route Order: Band Camp Boyfriend routes can be played in any order, barring the locked final route. Heartbreaker is much more linear--Eclipse and Perseverance are locked at the start of the game. The strongly recommended route order will be Hammerhead > The Beast > Eclipse > Perseverance. The routes get darker and more complicated as you progress.
MC: In Band Camp Boyfriend, we embraced a more "self-insert" experience by not showing Cadence on screen or having her voiced. In Heartbreaker, our MC will be on screen at all times so you can easily tell if she's her civilian self or in supervillain form. We also have plans to cast a voice actress this time around! You will still be able to customize our heroine's first name as well as a nickname.
POV Changes: Band Camp Boyfriend was strictly Cadence's POV save for a few special circumstances such as Poptart's final chapter. POV switches will be more common in Heartbreaker so you never miss out on the action.
Cast & Content Warning: Band Camp Boyfriend was rated T-13+ with a younger cast. Heartbreaker centers on an older cast (mid twenties and up) with more mature themes. I'm thinking it will be M-17+ because of alcohol, language, and sexual themes. Nothing explicit, but it happens off-screen or in fade to black style (sorry spice-enjoyers). And of course it's not written by me if there's not plenty of VIOLENCE AND DEATH YEAAAA-
Bad Endings: In Band Camp Boyfriend, you can completely skip the bad endings. In Heartbreaker, you must play bittersweet endings to advance the story. And if you want to completely fill out the CG gallery, you will have to play certain bad endings.
Difficulty: We feel like BCB's difficulty was a bit high and it was hard to get good endings! You needed an 83% to achieve them. In Heartbreaker it will be 75%-80%.
Happy 3rd Anniversary to our beloved Band Camp Boyfriend. <3
In these past three years we've seen Band Camp Boyfriend sold in all 50 states and across 57 different countries. We've been blessed with so many positive reviews, some I have to put through Google Translate to read, which just amazes me. I really never expected our niche otome game about a small town competitive marching band to go global.
Thank you to everyone who has played our game, opened your heart to the characters, and laughed at their antics, or cared enough to shed tears for them. Thank you for all of the kind comments and reviews you've left; I read every single one. Thank you for sharing your incredible art work, your impressive music videos, the cosplays you coordinated with friends, the pictures of the game being played in your band rooms, and so much more...it means the world to us.
We are so grateful that you gave a silly sounding little game called "Band Camp Boyfriend" a chance.
Thank you.
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