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circusheart

If I keep practicing I might even be a person soon

2colde

how it genuinely feels

#Ocd #Undiagnosed #Ocd comic #My post

07.26.

Today they actually left me alone, i guess that gaave me an opportunity to actually think about how to express what it feels like to be inside my brain nowadays

#The exchange student isnt always rude actually. He can be curious too.#The one imitating my friend really needs to find a didfferent “look” bc thisll eventually affect my real life interactions im affraid #To my knowledge i dont have did #But yknow with a covert disorder that doesnt rly mean anything #Rn im clinging to the fact that i dont have ememory gaps #Intrusive thought #Yes they count bc they very much intrude on my daily functioning and i have no control over them #Aaaand maybe #questioning osdd #questioning system #Idk man #Im sorry if these tags are inaccurate

i wanted the background to be more vibrant to make it look more cheerful oops

i dont know what this psychological phenomena would even be called but every time i watch any type of horror, either immediately or after a while, this hopeless melancholia finds me. everything feels grey and unsafe. not to mention the fear of the dark, but that ones more understandable - the mind gets the wonder more, the less it sees.m

#i drew this strip specifically after watching a mlp infection au. which i even enjoyed! i grew up on pokemon and minecraft creepypasta #this melancholic stupor is different from the immediate dissociation fog that sets in if i watch a horror movie that outright disturbs me #my post

i-will-recover-tomorrow

amvs

what are you guys’ most “tumblr is a website” moments

amvs

off to a great start everyone

amvs

i’ve been reading the tags all day i truly cannot pick a favorite so here’s more

amvs

#^the things ocd tells you on a daily basis lol #Being on tumblr is so good for your mental health and sanity yes put vulnerable mind on tumblr dot com tumblr dot com very friendly and #welcoming to all tumbli never trigger anyone very nice yes come to the dot com

noodledragon324

What I worry will happen while going through airport security

#also when i exit a store. “did i accidentaly steal something without noticing?”#Ocd

randomreasonstolive

Reason to Live #14272

Stopping by a McDonald’s at 3am during a road trip.

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(Please don't add negative comments to these posts.)

avpd-void

Every time something I say gets a negative reaction I remove it from the mental container of "things I can say". Which means eventually I will reach zero sayable words. And then I win, roll credits

#This also with WHOM i share my thoughts with #Yes theyre still my friends but ive already checked them off of my 'safe people to talk to' list so now im just #Quickly running out of people to talk to about my problems #Bc no one is considered safe anymore #So i just dont talk to anyone about the Topics

livixdunne-blog

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

brainworm-sideblog

my answers:

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? - with one of them, yes.

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? - probably my mom.

03: Do you regret anything? - who doesnt? Yes

04: Are you insecure? - about what? Yes

05: What is your relationship status? - i give thanks everyday that ive never dated anyone

06: How do you want to die? - Cool question. Probably bleeding out.

07: What did you last eat? - tuna/corn salad with toast

08: Played any sports? - a bunch as a kid, but they rarely lasted over a year.

09: Do you bite your nails? - i bite the skin next to my nails

10: When was your last physical fight? - i dont think ive ever been in a fight. Doubtfull that i could throw a proper punch

11: Do you like someone? - like "LIKE-like" someone? Elementary school crush style? No. Ew.

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? - i dont think so

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? - yes. Its very easy to hate people

14: Do you miss someone? - yes

15: Have any pets? - theyre technically not mine

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?- i hate this question (alexithymia gang rise up). Annoyed(?)

17: Ever made out in the bathroom? - i dont think so

18: Are you scared of spiders? - rarely

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? - well if i got given the ability id probably give in to temptation eventually, but if it was a one time chance id talk myself out of it.

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? - snogging is kissing, right? At their place

21: What are your plans for this weekend? - go to pride. Not die of a heat stroke

22: Do you want to have kids? - no

23: Do you have piercings? - no

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? - i was good at everything except chemistry

25: Do you miss anyone from your past? - repeat question

26: What are you craving right now? - a cool breeze.

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? - i think so

28: Have you ever been cheated on? - no

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? - ive never had one of those

30: What’s irritating you right now? - feeling like im coming off as a lot more crass than i intended to.

31: Does somebody love you? - thats not for me to answer, but yes

32: What is your favourite color? - i guess green, blu and purple

33: Do you have trust issues? - yes?

34: Who/what was your last dream about?- idk

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? - your mom

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?- i dont give out last chances enough

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? - forget as in dnot think about it

38: Is this year the best year of your life?- no

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? - 16

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? - probably as a child idk

51: Favourite food? - no such thing. I like most foods

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? - well everything happens as a consequence of something but i dont think everything has a purpose, so

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? - watched a couple episodes of the office

54: Is cheating ever okay? - idk this is a weird question, also ive never dated and idc about sexual monogamy so i wouldnt know what its like. I think people argue too much over the ""validity"" of actions rather than the consequences of them.

55: Are you mean? - (i think im biased to think that the meanness of my reactions tend to be proportional to the situation. That being said:) no, im actually quite timid irl. But when im trying to put down boundaries im considered to be cold and harsh.

56: How many people have you fist fought? - none.

57: Do you believe in true love? - i dont know what that means

58: Favourite weather? - i find joy in most of them. Favs are: just before a big storm, snowing at night, any sunny day during spring, summer nights without mosqquitos.

59: Do you like the snow? - yes

60: Do you wanna get married? - no, i dont think so

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? - fuck no

62: What makes you happy? - the fruits of my work? Nice weather

63: Would you change your name? - already have

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? - no, but i wouldnt want to

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? - reject them

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? - most of my friends are "of the opposite sex", but i think thats a stupid way to categorize your friends (or just people in general)

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? - my grandparent

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? - what counts as deep? One of my friends

69: Do you believe in soulmates? - idk what that means. I dont think i do.

70: Is there anyone you would die for? - i know there are people in my life that i would not die for

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