| K-sone | K-Locksmith| I like writing and giving my opinions. I can play some intruments and love my girlfriend. - Taeny is not real, because they're Married- -SM, i'm not that stupid, stop fooling me with your increative tricks-
“Don’t wait, i won’t come anymore” She says; not looking at him. “Sorry”
He looks at her, laughs. “Haha what” He tries not to let a single tear fall, he laughs even harder “What are you saying? ” He thinks he will kill her now oh god, after weeks waiting for her, she came back and said not to wait because she wouldn’t come. He will curse, he will, he will look at her with the eyes of devil and curse her.
“Be careful, the weather is now changing, you might catch a cold with that shirt, i hope you stay warm” He says
“No i’m not kidding, i meant it. Goodbye” She turns and walks away, is it because she walks faster than before or because something is being torned apart? He shakes his head, isn’t it like always? This is how it ends, and always been, they had a small conversation before she’d rushed away. After weeks waiting, he will just wait like always, but what she said still lingers here.
It’s been months, and she hasn’t come, like what she said, he wonders if she ever thinks about him-a fool waiting for her.He wonders if she cries every nights like him - a fool crying over her. Right, she won’t come, she won’t, will never, and he will never meet her again. She has no ideas how much he wants to tell her that bouquet suits her hand, that dress looks good on her slim body, that hair style is just as gently as her smile, she is simply stunning, and how much he wish he were the man standing beside her in the cathedral.
He cries like a child, he mumbles “ I do..” ; buries his face to his hands “ I really do..” ; squeeze s his shirt “From the bottom of my heart..” ; He screams out loud painfully “I do..”
I’ve just unsubscribed SMTOWN’s youtube.
Because as a Sone, i’m disappointed and furious.
How many 10th years anniversary you gonna have in a whole life being an Idol? Do they deserve to be treated like that? No media promotion, MVs recorded in a box, but this box this time ain’t even good, good music, good looking members, but the qualification sickens me. Album’s cover is the worst, they don’t even invest in the girls, Youtube keeps on freezing the views, MVs were both released at the same time which distracted the fans in increasing the views, today Ksone went to SM COEX to buy the album but they said it wasn’t available yet the online shop ( I forgot the name ) announced the album is SOLD OUT? What is sold out while it’s not even released? I stayed up all night to increase the views and as Ksones said at 6AM in KST they would mass stream MelOn, it was 4AM in my place so i stayed up, the other sones too, we all stayed up, the fanpages’ admin even called those who commented their phone number on the post to wake them up, we even rented the net stores to stream and even donate money to buy album, it’s over 60M the donation money yet we’re still worried about the sales, basically Ksones will take care of the digital because it’s hard for INTERSONE to make an account, but this time we did make a lot of MelOn account, trying to get the free coupon even though we don’t know a single Korean. We felt like it was Lunar New Year that coming, you know that vibe? But what do we get? What do the girls get? Those on MelOn commented they did not know SNSD comeback. SM, are you planning to destroy SNSD like how you did to SUJU? Are you trying to lower SNSD to release a new group next year? We don’t need you to make it great, we just need you to make it normally like how other companies do to their artists. Announcing another version of the album near the comeback is a joke to you? And moreover, we doubt we will get MB'a Cup if this goes on. Not because of the girls doing it , not because we don’t try or support, but you ruin everything, SM.
I'M FUCKING EMO. OUR EFFORTS, THE GIRLS ' EXPECTATION.
BACK THEN IN 2014 WHEN YOU KEPT EXPOSING THE DATING NEWS I'VE THOUGHT OF THIS, YOU ARE SLOWLY TURNING THE GIRLS DOWN AND THE FANS DOWN, TO MAKE US THINK THAT THEY ARE FLOP AND MAKE YS LOSE INTEREST IN THEM BUT FUCK NO. WE WON'T LET THAT HAPPEN EVER AGAIN TO THEM.
I used to calling you
Violet
A small cut you accidentally left
in my heart
I still am drowning in memories
Wasting my power to fight with the
Peace i’m seeking for;
It’s the peaceful beyond your eyes,
The gentle you have
As the smell of flower
It’s you.
I kept hesitating what to write, will my words smooth like yours or will I ever end this so called “letter”. But here I am facing myself again and I hope this will be the last time my eyes react to anything relates to you.
We were young and reckless, we burnt together and drowned in sweetness of love, bittersweet, all the tastes of love, through the internet.
I loved you, all I knew and wanted to do was loving you, I tried to earn money to come to meet you, my one and only wish, used to, then the idea of marrying you kept pushing me and my goal was bigger than it was, I wanted to come to see you, to marry you, and have a happily life ever with me and you,our child, you wanted 5 and I told it was too much but I remembered how happy you were when you talked about going to heaven thanked to our childs’ blessing.You were my youth, you were all the tastes in life, you were the one that i lived for.
We argued a lot, then we made up and loved each other unconditionally, you said “ Don’t leave me alone, whatever happens, don’t let me go” , and i said “ Why would i ever do that? NO! You are the only one that matters”, and we went through everything like that, I remembered myself freaking out and getting the whole zoo running in my stomach when you mad at me, when you disappeared for days without a word, I remembered myself getting mad and psycho me screaming inside, wanting to kill you, or even more than that, i was really mad when you disappeared for days without leaving a trace, I cursed everything in my head, but then you came back, I felt like a child finding his mom, i ran to you and hugged you virtually and cried in real, “ I missed you”, i told you, “I missed you really much, i thought i lost you, please don’t go like that again”, I cried my heart out, and you were rubbing my back virtually but it eased me in real, I forgot to question where were you, forgot to get mad at you, forgot to say things in my head awhile ago, please just stay and hug me, i whispered to myself, not typing.
“I don’t want to be your ex, I don’t want you to love anybody after me, if one day we fall apart” I told you that in a not so warm night, because we were talking about your ex, I didn’t want to be talked like that, or, i didn’t want to be your ex, and that was all i meant. You said “No!” , and you told me how much you loved me and how happy our family would be, you didn’t like it when i mention deaths, or once when i was sick, i jokingly told you that i felt like dying, and you were mad at me for saying that, you were afraid to lose me, that much that even just imagine, you felt hard to breathe. Life is and never was easy for us, but whatever happened, after a long day, i came home and felt your warmth, I think love is really a miracle, I felt things i couldn’t touch, when i was down, you were there for me, you were always there for me.
“Please don’t go!” I told you that many times when we were coming to the end - many times, i drove myself crazy, i screamed, i punched everything, you said “Let’s be realistic”, and i said “what realistic? I’m trying to get there” and it was never enough, but it was settled down anyway. You, many times, wanted to break up. Me, many times, tried to hold you like you said, and because i couldn’t let you go too. But there were nights that i thought about what you said, “baby are you tired?”, you sure were, you wasted your youth to me, while me laying here and thinking about the course’s fee which i hadn’t paid. But for us, I tried, we tried, we both tried.
And almost 3 years our relationship, with every tastes in the world, ended. I decided to let you go, it was when you told me to break up, you thought i would hold you, but I didn’t. I let you go, and you were surprised. Though you came back several times to talk to me, then you would deactivate your account and I would wait for you. “I’ll wait” i said “I’ll wait for you no matter what, if life chases you, come here and hide behind my back, because i will always here for you, just come here whenever you want, come and go, then come and go, it’s fine, just come here, don’t bear everything yourself” that was when my heart won over my brain, i sounded like begging, and i really hoped you would come, and you did, though not for too long, but it was enough for me. While waiting for you, i discovered that you engaged and would marry soon, i speechless, but the next time you came back, i neither asked nor mentioned, i let everything the way it was, instead of running with time, i walked with you, and i would say that i still feel the same for you, not like before, but stronger, that the adult side in me, not a childish one. No more heart-broken feelings, i waited for you in patience, and learnt to accept the truth, you said “ Woah, you’re growing up, i’m proud” Yes please, but don’t you miss the childish me screaming your name when you were not around? I missed him, i missed you, i missed us, but wait i wouldn’t let this out, let’s talk about how good your little sister is and what she is doing?, and we didn’t talk about marriage, we didn’t let it drown the time we had, though sometime one of us accidentally reminded the old days, and we speechless.
I opened Instagram and saw your married pictures on your friend’s account whom i didn’t unfollow, i didn’t curious who is your husband, did you really smile when you took that picture? Under your veils, did that smile really bright? I didn’t cry, i felt nothing, and for the first time in my life, i’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all, but no. I finished my schedule like usually and came home for a nap, and in between consciousness, i felt my tears streamed down my cheeks,i swear it was your voice that i heard, your finger tracing on my back, or under my hairs, and i saw you in a white dress holding a boutique, then flashbacks came along, when you said you loved me, when i wrote you letters on our monthsary, your smiles, your everything, i didn’t know my bones could ache. I love you still, i haven’t moved on yet and i wish i didn’t grow up, i wanted to scream and punch everything, but instead, i had tears streamed down my cheeks, i had my heart aching, I had my senses lost,I had you in my mind, i had us in my heart, i had the past lingering.
I love you, i still do, i think one day i will stop loving you, but the memories we had, the youth we shared will always here, thank you for coming into my life and creating such unforgettable memories. You witnessed me growing up, from a kid to a man like i am now, all because of you, thank to you, my partner, my companion, I hope you life will be better, fill with joys and this is the last letter of me for you. Please smile after reading this, a new life is waiting for you, a new start, without me. But, selfish and greedy me, you still can come and we can talk if you want, because i will always be here for you, when you feel like everybody turns their backs to you. Even if this against the rule or whatever, i will still be here for you.
I know you care for me
There’s no question at all
There’s not anything in this world I want
more than your love
Can bring up anything
hurrricanes and all
And I know…I know
that you could love me in that way
When gold starts to rust
And times do get tough
Then baby ooh would you love me the same
If diamonds were rough
And coal was the stuff that made us
Ooh would you love me the same
I see you looking like you wanna stay
What are we doing?
It’s not the time to play
Just for feeling is a solid game
Cause I can’t do this forever
Tell me honestly (tell me)
Where you wanna be
Cause I can’t hide
What this is to me
What it means to me
Cause I can’t hide
Tell me what you see
When gold starts to rust
And times do get tough
Then baby ooh would you love me the same
If diamonds were rough
And coal was the stuff that made us
Ooh would you love me the same
Would you love me the same?
Will your love ever change?
When the lights start to dim
Will you still hold my hand?
Would you love me the same?
Without a dime to my name
If the world fell apart
Would I still have your heart?
Ooh hoo…
When gold starts to rust
And times do get tough
Then baby ooh would you love me the same
If diamonds were rough
And coal was the stuff that made us
Ooh would you love me the same
Letting go hurts, I know for a fact that most people can agree on that. Especially when the love of your life moves on before you, leaving you to clean up the remains of the shattered fantasy you’d built up during your time together.
Trust me, when she turns to you, dead-eyed, and tells you those unanticipated words, it’ll send you crashing into an irreversible downspiral. What makes it worse is when it takes longer for things to sink in. When you get into touch with reality much later than you’re supposed to. When she leaves, you can brush her off as much as you want, and you can keep yourself distracted by playing videogames, clubbing, drinking, having sex, you can do everything and anything possible. I promise, you will not escape.
“Don’t wait, i won’t come anymore” She says; not looking at him. “Sorry”
He looks at her, laughs. “Haha what” He tries not to let a single tear fall, he laughs even harder “What are you saying? ” He thinks he will kill her now oh god, after weeks waiting for her, she came back and said not to wait because she wouldn’t come. He will curse, he will, he will look at her with the eyes of devil and curse her.
“Be careful, the weather is now changing, you might catch a cold with that shirt, i hope you stay warm” He says
“No i’m not kidding, i meant it. Goodbye” She turns and walks away, is it because she walks faster than before or because something is being torned apart? He shakes his head, isn’t it like always? This is how it ends, and always been, they had a small conversation before she’d rushed away. After weeks waiting, he will just wait like always, but what she said still lingers here.
It’s been months, and she hasn’t come, like what she said, he wonders if she ever thinks about him-a fool waiting for her.He wonders if she cries every nights like him - a fool crying over her. Right, she won’t come, she won’t, will never, and he will never meet her again. She has no ideas how much he wants to tell her that bouquet suits her hand, that dress looks good on her slim body, that hair style is just as gently as her smile, she is simply stunning, and how much he wish he were the man standing beside her in the cathedral.
He cries like a child, he mumbles “ I do..” ; buries his face to his hands “ I really do..” ; squeeze s his shirt “From the bottom of my heart..” ; He screams out loud painfully “I do..”
