[breahdawnxo]

I literally feel like complete and total garbage all the time. I have lost all my friends because they don’t care enough to check on me now that I live 3 hours away. Why do I live 3 hours away you might ask? Because, my fiancé cheated on me & left me for a guy she said molested her in high school so I “didn’t have a reason” to worry. She sucked him off & kissed me and told me she loved me before bed. At her moms house. Where I was watching her moms dogs while she did all of this. I had to move back to my hometown where I live with my very toxic grandparents who force me to go to church 3 days a week. My mom has toxically been gaslighting and abusing me my entire life and I finally put my foot down & my dad came less than 20 minutes away from me & told my sister I had him blocked and he tried to reach me and that’s honestly such bs because he never tried to reach out to me. But I did him. Multiple times. And he didn’t see me. Because I cut my mom off. Today is the end of day 2 of no contact with my ex. The person who I ran to with absolutely everything and the person I craved to hold me through any and all times. The person who I thought was my forever. And only saw me as a chapter not the entire book. I have been raped, I have lost my baby and had to grieve alone, I have been through heartache after heartache because nobody understands me enough to just stick around long enough and love me enough to love me gently the way I need. I am burnt out. I cannot beg for anyone to want to be around anymore & honestly if you aren’t reaching out then I’m probably not gonna either bc it is way too taxing on my mental health to allow you to continue to just push me off like I don’t exist <3

[bleedingandbroken]

[breahdawnxo]

Today is day 4 of being officially broken up with the person I considered my favorite person. Having a favorite person with BPD is truly so traumatic and doing it alone in a hotel for 5 days when you beg your favorite person to just come hold you so the shaking will stop and they look at you like a monster and block your number or have their mom text you and say you’re being too much. I feel so drained. I feel so hopeless. I want her to love me, but now it’s my turn to love myself.

[breahdawnxo]

Uh oh Charlie, mamas gone off the deep end again #breakup #pain #heartbreak #whatdayisit?

[feelingsoftheday]

I don’t know how many times i survived myself without telling anyone.

[breahdawnxo]

Today I ate a singular apple and that has to be enough

[ojibwa]

[bugeceicelim-deactivated2023120]

[bleedingandbroken]

[becherdireinen]

You’re still in my life, even if you don’t think you are. You’re in every show you told me about. You’re in every book you love. You’re in every song you sang. I won’t pretend I don’t miss you. I see you in everything that we once shared.

[stricatul]

being clingy is so cute. yes lay on my chest, lick my face, kiss me 10 times in a row, rub my back, tickle me, always stand behind me when we're out. hold my hand in public, hug me at ransom times, double text me. I LOVE ALL THAT SHIT

[javarisx-fightingthosedemons]

[babyy-boss]

[missinyouiskillingme]

The hardest part about walking away from someone is the part where you realize that, no matter how slowly you go, they will never run after you.

[what-iz-life]

Never beg anyone for anything, not time, not attention, not love – nothing. If it's always one-sided and it doesn't flow that's your sign to let it go.

[miabear915]

People always leave

I’d rather have no one in my life, then deal with getting attached to another person and then they leave

[woundedgoddess3]

You vacate every crevice of my brain, I try to escape you but I can't. You've made a permanent residence in me, even when the house falls to peices, the debris creates new little foundations of you in different places, causing a constant growth of love for you, never ending; endless. You're the best and worse curse; You exist in the very fabric of my reality. I think what fucks with me is the fact that I still fucken love you the same as the first time we exchanged that special phrase. Its unconditional love that I feel for you, endless and eternal. I'll always search for you in everything I do and everywhere I go. .💫 So my question is..where do I go from here? Up, down? Left or right? Where's the path back to you?🌙🥀