Nill / Tessa 🌌

collective account for a did system || mostly nill & tessa

[mournfulroses]

Albert Camus, from a letter to María Casares featured in Correspondance, 1944-1959

[breakingsymmetry]

Hey.

Chances are noone will ever read this.

But if you do, please...stay for a minute.

I'm a Trauma Holder in a DID system. The others have friends. I don't because they all get annoyed by how insecure and scared I am.

And If I reach out, they hurt me for being so insecure.

I just can't be alone anymore. But I also don't want to get hurt again.

I just want people in my life. I don't wanna be alone anymore.

Please.

[crazyness-overpowers]

the way haymitch must have seen it as all his ghosts coming back to haunt him at once when katniss walked onto the train with the face of burdock and asterid, the pin of maysilee, the voice of lenore dove, and a background so devastatingly similar to his own. of course sweetheart slipped out. and of course he did everything he could to keep her alive

[sketch-cat]

Haymitch and his ducklings

[scribeherself]

I don't know how to love in halves. If I give you my heart, I give you the ghosts, the galaxies, and everything in between.

[nixscriptum]

[breakingsymmetry]

things to do instead of eating:

Go for a long walk with music or audio book

Read a book

Write fanfic

Write book

Read academia

Make moodboards

Pinterest

Tumblr

Insta

TikTok

C.ai

Watch Series

Watch Movies

Research something random

Research flowers

Learn languages

Smoke vape

Drink water

Drink flavored sugarfree drinks

Pet the cats

Play with the cats

Mobile Phone games

Video games

Color in

Research furniture

Draw my own mandalas

Practice drawing

Tidy up

Go to the gym

Make a tbr list

Text Lena

Make a list of good traits of students/ppl I know

Window online shopping

Reallife window Shopping

Go swimming

Learn city and places names

Make playlists

Make Alter profiles or PP

Journal

Paint nails

Do my hair

Delete Emails

Google street view

Geoguessr

Learn driving theory

Skincare

mast.

Smell parfumes

Watch GNTM

[xoxoswancutie]

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[ultraviolencesaints]

cinnamon girl ۵. *࿐

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[mydarkawaits]

We are all glass, pretending to be stone.