former ed blog @breathe105 - Tumblr Blog

I haven't made a tumblr post in years.. but I have something to say to the edblr community

I first made this account in 2018. I was 15 years old. A baby, really. I thought it was something I'd look at like instagram, casually, just until I lost the weight I wanted to lose. Then I would delete this account and be normal again. Eat normally again.

It's almost 2025 now. I am 21 years old, I'm graduating college in a few months. And I still think about this shit every day of my life. I try not to, but I do. I think about the numbers floating around inside of food that I wish I didn't know about. The way my bones feel inside my skin. I would give ANYTHING to have never thought about it a day in my life.

Now, these problems certainly did not begin with tumblr. But this site is not blameless in my EDs/Disordered Eating's persistence long after I deleted the app from my phone and unbookmarked the website from my computer. Before I came to this site, most of my food, control, and body image issues manifested themselves as a little voice in my head. Not in outrageous fasts, malnutrition, and habits that I still can't shake seven years later.

The reason I'm writing this is a word of warning. If you are just starting out on this app, leave. If you are a CHILD, tell your parents what you're struggling with. If you want to be skinny so bad you're willing to ruin your life for it: that is not normal, it's not okay, and it's not worth it. Get the help you need, and get it as early as you can.

I wish I had sooner.

I love you all. I hope these tags get fucking deleted.

#anamia #thinspo #edblr #thinspiration #anatips #proana #meanspo #mia #ed #tw ana bløg #tw ed ana #thiiinspo #thiinspiration #thiinsp0 #ed but not ed sheeran

being skinny is actually not worth ruining every relationship worth its salt in your life i fucking promise you.

#anamia #tw ana bløg #tw ed ana #tw ana rant #thinspø #thiinsp0 #anami4 #ana y mia

bones-b4-scones

it never gets better, huh? it’s been years since i’ve posted anything on this hell-site. if you’re new in this community, fucking run. you’ll never be happy with yourself here. weight doesn’t matter. it’s been ACTUAL YEARS and nothing is better. this ruined my life, and it will ruin yours too.

This is your sign to recover. If you need a reason: you’re an absolute bitch for no reason when you’re starving and you know it.

You deserve to eat and you deserve to be a pleasant and functioning person.

#anamia #thinspo #Ed #edblr #thinspiriation #thiiinspo #thiiinspiration

I’ve lost 20 pounds why do I look the exact same.

Trigger ✨ warnings ✨ are ✨ actually ✨ helpful ✨ please ✨ include ✨ them ✨ extremely ✨ frequently ✨

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jonpertwee

I feel like this would be a slippery slope towards making it illegal for people to choose to not vote.

hamfistedbunvendor

that’s already how it is in australia

jonpertwee

That’s just so fucked up. :( Do certain medical conditions exempt you?

sapphicdalliances

?????? why is it be fucked up to have compulsory voting? that’s the way it is in most democratic countries? it’s a part of being a citizen, like paying taxes and obeying speed limits? the fine for not voting is only like $50 and because of the compulsory voting law, our country bends over backwards to make it accessible: it’s always on a weekend, lasts most of the day, and is set up at schools and community centers so there’s one within easy reach of almost everybody. you can also mail your ballot or vote early if you’ll be out of the country on the day. like, IT’S EASY TO VOTE, and the penalty isn’t even that ridiculous. i don’t understand why the usa doesn’t have this, except obviously it would make it harder to literally stop minorities from voting.

salparadisewasright-deactivated

I think we Americans tend to forget that a lot of other countries don’t actively work to make it harder to vote.

thisdiscontentedwinter

Adding to this here, in Australia you don’t have to vote. Or, more precisely, there’s no way they can tell if you ruined your ballot. You have to turn up, get your name marked off, but you can put a line through the ballot if you don’t think any of the candidates are worth voting for. Or do this:

Or this:

You have get your name crossed off (if you don’t want to wear the fine), but you don’t have to make your vote counted if you’re opposed to it.

And it is so, so easy to vote. Stuck at work or on holidays? That’s fine. Do a postal vote. Stuck in hospital? That’s fine. They’ll go to you. Stuck in an old people’s home and can’t get around? Again, they’ll go to you. It’s amazing to me that it’s so hard for so many Americans to actually vote. If you make it compulsory, than at least the government is obligated to provide you with the means to vote.

And look, I get it. Sometimes I don’t want to vote either. But I suck it up, I walk three minutes down the street, and I hope that this year they’re selling lamingtons again. Oh, and I buy a democracy sausage, which, even if all the candidates suck, makes the effort of turning up pretty worthwhile.

julad

ALSO, you can see even on the fucked up ballots that you NUMBER CANDIDATES IN ORDER OF PREFERENCE. There’s no need to calculate whether I would be throwing away my vote on the candidate that I most agree with if they’re not from a major party. I can say, I want that independent person to get in, but if not them, give me Big Party A, and if not them, that minor party person is still better that Big Party B, and I’m not giving any preference to the Lunatic Fringe Party.

Our system certainly has some issues still, but I can show up to somewhere nearby, line up for a few minutes (if at all), vote exactly in line with my values (on paper, leaving a paper trail that can be recounted), and then buy a sausage and some home made cupcakes on my way out.

A country’s voting system matters a hell of a lot and every citizen deserves one that makes it easy to vote and results in a government that is representational and accountable.

And by the way, one time I had a bad asthma flare-up on Election Day and didn’t make it to my polling station. I got my fine in the mail, I filled out the form explaining why I couldn’t vote, no more fine. I would rather have, you know, expressed my preference for who should run my country, but they were cool with the fact that I couldn’t do it that day.