Please be Brave

[breathekidbreathe]

I needed to be somewhere different. Maybe I needed to be someone different too.

[mae0x]

ew why did i let you know me like that

[kuwaiticulture]

yeah you cute but can you handle me when im having a mental break down

[innerstateofmind-deactivated201]

[perfectquote]

“And when you speak to me, it feels like the sun is caressing my cheek.”

— Lina A.

[concealthefeelings]

“Despite it all, I still believe the fragments of our souls were molded of the same star”

— nothing collapses your lungs more than watching your soulmate let go. 

[yourmissedconnection]

[coral]

“I will remember the kisses our lips raw with love and how you gave me everything you had and how I offered you what was left of me, and I will remember your small room the feel of you the light in the window your records your books our morning coffee our noons our nights our bodies spilled together sleeping the tiny flowing currents immediate and forever your leg my leg your arm my arm your smile and the warmth of you who made me laugh again.”

— Charles Bukowski (via coral)

[all-my-messy-thoughts-deactivat]

she was getting high with you in the club bathroom when you wanted to ask her if she meant it the first time she kissed you or if she just did it the way she fucked, bruises and teeth and bad decisions, and when she left it was so sudden that it scraped all the blood out from inside of you like a gutted fish.

and you fell in love with her the way that she wanted you to, all skin and wide eyes and diet coke, the two of you lying on her couch on the third floor when you read her your horoscopes and she smoked your heart like a cigarette.

and you tell yourself she tried, memorized the way you like your coffee, laid her head in the bend of your collarbone like a puzzle piece, and the nails you broke, the splinter in your thumb, the silent walk home. this is how she is. this is how she has always been. how could you ask a wasp to cut her stinger off.

and you wrote poems about her. you still do. you’re writing one right now.

she leans her head against the mirror and blows smoke at the bathroom ceiling.

you hit save and when you close your eyes the roof falls in.

r.c.c

[10000001]

when you said you loved me you must of had your fingers crossed.

[breathekidbreathe]

I love so many people who don’t even talk to me anymore. Deep down I will always love you. But our lives have changed and we went down different paths and for that I’m sorry. I will always love you remember that

[wishinforbones]

The crappy thing is I’ve spent the majority of my life believing I would kill myself eventually and now I’m having to do all these things that I told myself I would never have to worry about and I just don’t know how to handle it all, I don’t know how to handle still being here when all I thought for so long was that I would be gone by now. So when I’m struggling with tasks that you think are easy, please just be kind. We’re all learning these things as we go, together, but I’m also learning how to be okay with being alive.

[the-homie-sexual]

“I am the one before the one. It’s a role I’ve learned to accept. I am the one who will overload your senses, I am far too much of everything, but you will try to encompass all that I am. I will be the one who teaches you exactly what you want from “the one.” With me you will see things as though the lights were turned too high on the dimmer so that you could only see me and the music too loud that you couldn’t quite hear anybody else. With the next girl you end up with she will shine just brightly enough that you will be able to see everything you couldn’t see with me and the volume of her music will not leave you deaf when the song ends. I will help you grow by pushing you to the extent of your limit, I will call you out when you’re wrong, I will ask you to do a little better than last time, and I will love you with a love you didn’t even know could exist. It will feel as though one hand I’ve given you to hold holds all the love in the world and the other holds the words my tongue lashes out with no filter. But with those hands you will learn both the love you deserve and how to finally not hold back how you truly feel. These hands will teach you to speak freely without fear of condemnation and condescending judgements. They will teach you to love and touch everything that you find beautiful as you pull your hands through her hair or frolic through a patch of flowers and pull the petals to your face to smell their fragrance. You see after me, you’ll learn not only how to love yourself, but love her. She will tell you that she’s never experienced a love quite like yours and you’ll never tell the secret that you learned it from me. You see, I am the one before the one. But like that scar you got from scraping your knee on the climb up your favorite mountain, you won’t forget me. When pieces of her emanate me, I will be present in the breath you hold in just a second too long at the memory of me, the sharp feeling on your tongue as you bite down as my name starts to slip through your mouth, the butterflies in your stomach as you remember the way my eyes lit up at your presence. Her smooth edges that represent who she is will often remind you of my jagged edges, the ones that cut you but you still loved to climb. And for all those moments you’re reminded of me, you’ll touch your knee and realize you hadn’t climbed your favorite mountain to your favorite view in a while. You’ll wonder if instead of the common smooth edged rock you’d found on the ground, the one you could buy for five dollars at your local farmers market, you could’ve had a fine cut diamond with jagged edges. And as you look into her eyes and see your reflection you’ll wonder if the pressure of my love could’ve made you a diamond as well.”

— I am the one before the one (via the-homie-sexual)

[hidden-behind-a-mask]

[standingcowrrdly]

do my dark circles and deteriorating health make me look hot

[wishing-for-deathx]

I’ll be here waiting for you. I want you to know that if you ever decide that you want me, I’m here. I’ve always been incredibly stubborn much to my own dismay. And it’s not going to be any different this time. So I will wait for you. Maybe you will come back, probably you won’t. But I’m not going to stop waiting for you.

I’m not giving up on us.

[perfectquote]

“Breathe. You’re going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before. You’ve been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you’ve survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can’t break you. They’re painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you’ll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass.”

— Daniell Koepke