In My 38th Year, I Chose No Fear
Who in the world am I? Thank God I know myself. Thank God I love myself. But at 38 I never expected to have to embark on an even deeper voyage of self love. I usually retell pieces of my life story on my blog or podcast once an experience is complete and after it’s fully processed, but as this is probably the wildest story of my life thus far, I wanted to tell in in real time and take y’all with me on this new chapter of self love.
I just turned 39, but in my 38th year I confirmed that not only are my parents not who they say they are, and they are not my biological parents. They are actually cult members and human traffickers, which sounds shocking, but is a lot more common than most Americans would like to admit. In fact I believe America was constructed and built up due to the workings of many cults.
I’ve done my ancestry, I understand my lineage, and my DNA, but I never thought at 40 I would have to go on a journey to find out who my real family is. It’s also been super frustrating because it doesn’t matter how exposed the truth has become, my parents keep telling lies. When you are cult affiliated you are not allowed to say certain truths when you are under contract.
Am I stressed or pressed about going on this quest? No. I feel like it will evolve organically. As I walk, the way always appears. I love myself enough to be patient and give this chapter all the grace it deserves, and it honestly feels very liberating.
Truth in general feels liberating. “The truth will set you free” is not just an empty saying it carries weight. The truth always comes to light and I am the sun. My life is a miracle simply because I woke up today. I am still alive and so are my dreams.
It’s strange disclosing a story that some people feel I don’t have the right to tell even though this is my life and my path. Just because my life is by no means “normal” is no reason for me to stop expressing myself. For the longest time other people have been plotting to close off every avenue that allows me to be myself, to create, make my own money, and to complete my work/my mission. So, I have every right to share my story as I hope it will help others going through similar ordeals heal as well.
Growing up I always knew there was something different about my family. Early on I learned how to protect my energy and creativity. I have recorded many podcast episodes about the struggles I faced in my upbringing. I could never really relate to other households and often my friends families would become my family, because I never had a supportive parental presence. Many other mother and father figures took me under their wings and into their homes while growing up.
In my 38th year I found out that the people who claim to be my parents are 4th/5th generation Masons. All they really know is cult life and living in that way. In my last article I explained how my parents sold me to the Masons as a sacrifice. I guess that sounds bizarre if you have no cult knowledge, but although my parents lied to me about being Masons, doing magic, and cult affiliation all my life I always had knowledge. I’ve watched more cult documentaries than I can count. I try to educate myself in all things, so I wasn’t super shocked. All it did was make it all make sense; their bizarre behaviors, ritualistic abuse and the controlling evil they spewed over my life.
I was supposed to be gone by now, so to never tell this story. But, I am instead alive and well and this is what I have come to find out:
I was adopted by my parents. My mom was actually pregnant, but her real baby was placed for adoption, because I was seen as the more spiritually powerful and financially profitable vessel. Thus, she’s always harbored secret resentment against me for something of which I had zero knowledge. The Mason’s wanted my healing energy and intended to live and harvest off it after my passing. Within the Mason cult and many others, there is often deep abuse present; psychological and physical. They thought sexually assaulting me ritualistically and harvesting my energy was okay, because I am not their “real daughter”. However I am still a relative on my dad’s side and that is still incest. There is often history of incest within cults and some people actually do sexually siphon energy from their blood children. They believe this is “normal” because their parents and their parents parents did the same.
I now have to take multiple DNA tests to find out who these people in my family actually are. They will only ever lie, so this is a jounery of self. My parents even got my brother involved (who is a Mason as well). I am not sure if he is their real son or not. I am only sure my 12 year old sister is my dad’s biological daughter. Biological children get treated somewhat better. Me, they treated as an outcast. Not only did they sell me out to a cult, they also sold me out to the government. I am currently experiencing being tracked wherever I go - if it’s an apartment or hotel they always place a cult member in the units above and next to me to watch me. They want me to live in fear, go into hiding or date a cult member who can exploit me. They plant various men on me daily - (after discovering I’m not a lesbian) lol. If I got married to one of their cult members or paid actors they could extort money. I however, have been celibate for years, as I have known (although not in complete detail) what these people have been doing.
“The Watchers” is what many refer to them as, because according to many local Oaklanders Mason’s gang stalking people is actually pretty common. And apparently they always find someone new to watch and siphon. Mason’s built up a huge portion of Oakland society and have even been historically noted for designing the horizon of Oakland. For decades in America, cults have been paid off by the government to track people. It’s all about money and greed. My family are capitalists and they sought out to capitalize on my life. They surveil me, virtually violate me, stalk me, harass me, bribe friends and strangers to abuse me. They work with businesses (like Oakstop - who are also Masons) to go after me. Oakstop gave them all the ICE funded surveillance tech they needed as they use tech called Palantir.
My family essentially excluded me from their life before I broke away from them. In 2016 my parents planted a mystery illness on me. My dad more recently admitted to this. It caused my entire immune system to crash, I was in bed for months and sick years after that. Initially when I didn’t understand what was energetically happening I was also getting sick due to them virtually sexually assaulting me. They thought it was funny when I didn’t understand, but I honestly just never knew people could actually be that evil. I felt the energy, but I needed to contextualize what I felt. I am very energetically sensitive, and the foul and grotesque energy that these nasty sexual deviants hold was making me sick to my stomach and throw up. I am not really their daughter, but I am a relative on my dad’s side so all they have done is still incest. Some cult members really do sexually violate their own blood children or family members. Once I learned what they were ritualistically doing I got better, because I could protect myself.
I was supposed to be their cash cow and in 2016 with the beginning of Trumps fascist regime they were approached to take me out and end my career and they almost successfully did. I ended up healing after that attempt, but they tried many “more subtle” ways after that point from poison to pills.
The plot, however, never went as planed. They tried to bribe everyone around me, so that I would have no one to turn to and nowhere to go. They told my friends, co workers, and other family members I was crazy, because it was a part of their ultimate plot. They had planned to lock me in a psych ward and take my money for quite some time. In March my parents actually did unjustly 51/50 me for an entire week. My mom and I got in an altercation because she wouldn’t let me in the house to get the rest of my things and she would not let me see my dog. I have only seen my dog once for 8 hours since March. They had me arrested and taken to the hospital where I had tests and blood taken for almost 24 hours and was chained to a bed. They sent me to 2 psych institutions after that. Upon entry to the second place I was asked by a psychologist if my family was trying to place me in a false conservatorship to take my money and I said yes. I told her I was actually a mental health artist and gave her my STUK Designs website. She ended up forwarding it to the judge who in turn dismissed my case.
The entire day of my release they played games with me. They locked me in various freezing cells, sometimes alone for hours, stole the book I was reading (about a girl who was unique) and wouldn’t tell me anything about my case. I was in 3 different holding cells from 6am to around 10pm and they strip searched me twice. The food was uneatable. When I was released (only by the grace of God) crickets - almost as if everyone already knew where I had been for a week. No one but my paternal aunt and Grandma apologized to me or ever has over the years about anything. I had to walk back from that psych prison at midnight after taking the closest BART (Bay Area Metro). I am now working with a Nonprofit called Oakland Abolition and Solidarity, helping out others who have been unjustly placed there.
I was released from what the policed called “a phychiatric hospital, not a prison” on the night of Easter. After I had to walk back to my false mother’s house because she stole my belongings (my purse: wallet, house keys, camera and computer). She and my false maternal grandmother would not let me in the house once again after my release. They dumped all my belongings on the side of the house and never opened the door. Through the front window I saw they had a full Easter spread set out on the table as if they were happily celebrating my demise. I felt like a ghost peering through the window of a family who thought they had ended me. It was a very eerie feeling. My false mother continues to not let me see my dog (I’ve only seen her once for 8 hrs since March) and she threatens to call the police when I come by the house in which I grew up and lived most of my life.
These people who claim to be my family literally waged the most brutal war on me - all over money. I’ve never met more greedy people, but all the people they bribed to get involved - all the other fed rings or various sects of Masons “groups” (as my paternal grandmother calls them) are equally as possessed.
These people have been literally hunting me since 2016 and find joy in it. They think watching me, stalking me and torturing me physically and emotionally is a fun fun game. But what’s not funny is the sheer amount of people they involved in this plot. They involved nearly all my friends, businesses I worked for, co-workers, and anyone I showed any emotion towards. There are people in multiple states and countries involved. Intimate details of my life pop up all over Israel’s google search. My gang stalkers spread lies and rumors about me and diminished my name. They played with my money and wanted me to go broke. They set up man made callamities in my life and laughed at my struggle, pain or tears and this went on (with outsiders) for 10 years. These people took a decade away from my life and wonder why I look so young. Lol the comedy.
I was essentially born as a set up. They always knew they were going to sell me off and virtually violate me sexually. This is why my dad named me after Lady Brett Ashly (a promiscuous woman) from the Ernest Hemingway book ‘The Sun Also Rises’. Apparently only my father knows who my real parents are, as he helps set up such deals for himself and others. These deals when exposed sound semi esoteric or unbelievable, but with the release of the Epstein files it’s actually all very 3D. America was literally built on human trafficking and they are still doing it. They just never expected to get caught.
Most of my family is initiated in the cult. As a prospective sacrifice, I was not asked to be involved. Everything was done completely without my consent - in fact I have stated numerous times since around 2023 that I want nothing to do with my parents. They just keep financially and emotionally blackmailing me to make me stay “close”. For example: My dad currently has all my art in his basement.
As I am gifted; a healer and an artist I was targeted. Many gifted beings, spiritual beings, divine beings or “chosen beings” have lived the same experience as me and are just in the complete dark about it. The same thing that happened to me happened to my Paternal Grandma who is still alive and well at 92. She said Masons have a history of giving celebrity children to others. So, who in the world am I? I guess you will have to stay tuned to find out. I guess only time will tell. So, if anyone thought I was lying or making up tales about being virtually violated and gang stalked and thought “parents could never do this” - well you’re right, because they aren’t by parents. However, I think all parents whether biological or otherwise have the capacity for such cruelty, most people just do not socially discuss such happenings.
What have I gained out of such a twisted and bizarre story? The truth - most importantly, but also fear removed from my life as illusion. I can only have faith based on how God had held me up through the most dire delays of abuse. Its made my faith in God 10 fold stronger as well as my faith in myself. Although I now have to journey to find my real parents, I am also so proud of myself in the ways in which I love myself and of all the ways I held myself up. Rather than entering this new chapter with my head held down in shame or pain, I enter this chapter completely knowing my name, absolutely knowing and believing in my own fame, and ready to continue to grow, expand and evolve into more miraculous mays. Even though I’ve been through hell, there is a garden at the end of the long desert. I feel abundant, fulfilled, loved and very much alive. Cheers to ending and new beginnings! May we all embrace them!
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