Gonna be honest, my eating habits went to shit when my chronic pain was at its worst almost 2 years ago and I haven’t really returned to healthy eating.
I could give a million excuses as to why my eating has been shit, but instead I’m going to make little changes to try to get back to fuelling my body with the nutrition it deserves.
Instead of being upset and hard on myself, I’m trying to be kind and forgiving to myself. Like I would for a friend.
It’s okay if you want to grieve that your body and/or mind aren’t functioning the way you want them to. It’s okay to take time to grieve that. You don’t always have to be positive.
But please remember that your value and worth never decrease, no matter what you cannot do because of your illness, condition or disability.
As Russia prepares to invade Ukraine (or maybe is already doing so), I wanted to share this message and request from Rabbi Avraham Wolf, Chief Rabbi of Odessa & Southern Ukraine. It’s from a few days ago and I’m not sure if there have been any updates but it just feels really important to signal boost this:
“The Jewish community in the Ukraine is in need of your assistance during these dire times. As the threat of war intensifies, Mishpacha Chabad Odessa is preparing to support the hundreds of Jews who are unable to evacuate the country including orphans, students, and Holocaust survivors. Preparations are also underway to absorb Jewish refugees from the surrounding regions of Kharkiv, Kiev, and Dnieper.
$300,000 in donations are urgently needed to purchase medical gear, protective equipment, and basic necessities such as clothes and sleeping bags. Money is also needed to help stock emergency shelters with several tons of cereal, buckwheat, sugar, rice, flour and other non-perishable staples. These donations will also help defray the costs of additional security personnel arriving from Israel to help protect the Jewish community.
Your generous donation will help ensure that the Jewish community of Odessa is prepared for all eventualities and is able to provide security, shelter, and food for everyone in need during this dangerous time. $130,000 has already been spent in food alone - but much more is still needed.”
Can’t stop thinking about how my physiotherapist’s next goal for me is to do a plank without it aggravating my chronic pain. Like ma’am, we just conquered bridges, turn it down a notch please 😰
Update. I went to physio again today and she did not bring up planks. However, she has added modifications to the bridges. I don’t see her again until 2022 so maybe it will be my New Years resolution (🤢) to do a plank without triggering the pain. In the meantime, my hammies and glutes are on FIRE 😅
Can’t stop thinking about how my physiotherapist’s next goal for me is to do a plank without it aggravating my chronic pain. Like ma’am, we just conquered bridges, turn it down a notch please 😰
Hi do you still remember me? 🥺 Although this photo is me doing a simple bridge, this pose is something I’ve only been able to do recently without having excruciating pain. The joy I feel at being able to not only hold one bridge but to do it multiple times is outstanding.
My chronic pain is becoming less chronic. It’s still there, it still rears it’s head, but with the help of an amazing physiotherapy I’ve learned how to start taming it. I feel so incredibly blessed that my pain is starting to heal and I feel incredible amounts of empathy for those whose pain will never go away.
I’ve still got a long ways to go, but I’ll never forget how far I’ve come.
September is Suicide Prevention Month and I wanted to share some reminders
suicide should not be labeled as “selfish”. people who commit suicide are in incredible pain and think there’s only one way out. that pain is unimaginable if you’ve never experienced it. think about what drove the victim to do it, not just what you think about it
not all suicidal people will self harm or commit suicide. many struggle to live everyday, but continue on. this doesn’t mean that their struggle isn’t as important as those who are actively life threatening
self harm is not an indicator of suicidal thoughts all the time. many people who self harm do it for a release from the pain, not to die. this doesn’t mean their struggle is less important because they aren’t actively suicidal. but it’s also important to keep an eye on them because the release from pain can turn deadly very quickly, and they may become suicidal over time
suicidal people don’t think about dying all the time. they can have moments of happiness, anger, love, compassion, and any other emotion. they can also still be suicidal when they’re not in immediate danger.
speaking of moods, if a suicidal person suddenly is very calm, it’s best to check on them. they may have come to terms with a plan to commit suicide and need help. yes, it can be just a good mood, but it can be life saving to check in on them
being suicidal is not attention seeking. people who are suicidal need help and attention, yes, but they aren’t feeling this way to get it.
suicidal people may not be suicidal because they want the pain to stop. they may feel like people are better off without them, that no one will miss them, they’re tired of reliving trauma, or they just can’t imagine a future with them in it
many suicidal people who make it past their expected death don’t know how to continue on in life. if someone has spent the last few years thinking they won’t make it past a certain age, becoming an adult or getting older and having new challenges can be very difficult to handle because they didn’t plan for it. this is why having a therapist or counselor even once they’re out of the direct suicidal thoughts is important
having someone to cry to and call when you need help is one of the most effective suicide preventers. if a suicidal person thinks they can come to you, please be there for them, it may just save their life
suicidal people may be living for things you don’t see as important, like tv show or waiting for a new book to come out. don’t shame people for what’s keeping them alive, it’s better than nothing
that’s just the beginning of stuff to know about suicidal people and suicide in general. please call a hotline or text a service if you are in crisis. from personal experience as someone who’s been suicidal, i know how hard it is to pick up that phone, but i promise you someone is there to help
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Just because we’re not writhing on the floor doesn’t mean we’re not hurting. We’ve just gotten really good at hiding it and functioning with it, otherwise we’d literally starve in our beds.
I had my first physiotherapy session today since my pain has gotten worse and I have thoughts I want to share.
She was very kind and understanding about this flare up. She didn’t make it seem like I did anything wrong or that she was disappointed or that she was doubtful (all of which I’ve had experience with from other practitioners). She heavily modified my exercise program so that I’m only doing things that cause minimal pain.
Once again she commented on how strong and flexible I am despite the amount of pain I’m in. I really don’t think I’m that strong or flexible, but then it dawned on me that I’m her youngest patient by about 35 years so to her I probably am strong and flexible.
Anyways, I’m just feeling super blessed to finally have a good connection with a physiotherapist.
My chronic pain is coming back with a vengeance and it’s affecting my mental health 🙃 I have no idea why but I can’t really stand up straight anymore or walk or stand or be alive without being in extreme pain and it’s so disheartening because I thought I was recovering and I want to cry about it but I haven’t been able to cry for like a week now
Hi hello I’m looking after my brother’s cats and I found a scale in his bathroom. I don’t own one so I don’t remember the last time I weighed myself.
I’m not gonna lie, there was a tiny part of me that was curious but I felt like I’ve done enough mental work that whatever the number was it wouldn’t effect my emotions.
So I stepped on the scale.
I was surprised at the number but otherwise I felt nothing. I still love myself. I still value myself. I’m still gonna eat cause I need it to survive. I’m still gonna exercise at whatever level my body feels like it needs and I’m gonna do activities that I enjoy.
Anyways, hope y’all are having a hot girl summer in this never ending panorama 😘😘
I’ve seen a lot of healthcare practitioners in the last couple years and one thing that will never cease to amaze me is their audacity to say “oh you’re stronger/more flexible than I thought!”