brokenbitchybby

.A soft blog of things I like. Pink, pretty things, bears (i fucking love bears). TW: I have PTSD, depression, BPD, anxiety disorders, and bulimia (all diagnosed) stuff on here might discuss that... 

[dilflovingmisandrist]

right ok so he is actually all i can think about

[carcyism]

ik he’s having a really terrible time here but he’s so beautiful when he’s sad and suffering and his sweater is adorable to me.

HE HAS SWEATER PAWS.

[grabmyboner]

joe keery always be looking like a school girl with a crush kicking his legs and twirling his hair and shit when he in interviews with dacre montgomery

[bewrays]

was skimming through sadie’s yahoo interview to get to the billy parts and she says sth along the lines of ‘billy was the greatest source of pain in max’s life’ and instinctively i was like. how about her abusive stepfather lol. but, like, that’s the thing? billy spent the entire time he knew max placing himself as a shield between her and the man he knew his father to be, so that max would never have to find out for herself.

billy’s last and only source of affection can be traced back to his mother, who, if we accept canon, left him alone with an irascible and violence-prone father at a very early age, so it’s not inconceivable to presume that billy’s idea of affection is, not an active display of tenderness, but the absence of violence. his love language is protecting the people he loves from what he knows is worse using the only method he’s familiar with, namely a watered-down version of neil’s abuse. billy uses intimidation and the threat of violence, hoping those’ll scare max into behaving in a way that doesn’t make her a target in neil’s eyes.

in a way, this is paralleled in billy’s ‘you were moving your feet. plant them next time’ at steve, which, taken into the context of the basketball scene, feels excessive, but. it’s actually a pretty solid piece of advice? billy shoves steve to the ground and then, instead of helping him up once, provides him with the tip he’ll need to never get beaten again. it’s billy’s way of saying ‘life is hard, and i’m here to prove it to you now so you’re not forced to realize it later.’ it’s his way of taking back some of the control he’s never had by teaching the people he cares about what he’s known from a very young age, and making them earn the lessons he’s had violently seared into him.

in max’s eyes, and in steve’s, billy’s behavior obviously translates to cruelty, because neither of them are as desensitized to violence the way billy’s been conditioned to. they don’t understand why they need to be exposed to it in the first place, and it’s natural to view billy as the primary source of it, when, in reality, billy’s trying, in his warped way, to shield them from a marginally worse display of cruelty.

billy’s willing to be the bad guy, both because he doesn’t know any other way of professing his affection for the people important to him, and because he knows, all too well, that, if he doesn’t teach them the lessons he’s been taught his whole life now, in his own mitigated terms, someone else, heartless and merciless, will do it later.

[angryhuangyu]

Day 1 Harringrove week: Song prompt "I Wanna Dance With Somebody" by Whitney Houston

[ratboydefenselawyer]

This is my first and probably last post I will ever make. I’m here to consume the content, not necessarily create it.

I see all of you fighting the good fight for Billy and his story. And I wanted to add my thoughts into the ring.

As someone who works with children and adults from abusive backgrounds EVERY SINGLE DAY. I can tell you that Billy checks every single box for being in his survival state 24/7.

I have had extensive trainings about trauma, how to recognize it and the effects it can have on a person and how they act. Personally I have endured a lot of trauma myself and had to unlearn a lot of unhealthy behaviors and ways of thinking because of it.

With that being said: someone who is in a state of survival constantly is not capable of thinking rationally, the only goal is to…survive.

Billy Hargrove was an abused child. A CHILD. Not just physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. Does this forgive his actions? No. But it explains them. Gives us a deeper insight into the “why?”

Neil hit his son, he insulted him, called him a slur and then reminded him that Max, his younger stepsister’s well-being is in his hands. That’s a lot for a 17 year old to go through. Then he goes to the Byers residence where he’s insulted and lied to. His sister (who’s well-being is in his hands) is alone with 5 boys, one of them is his age? THEN to top it all off, Steve punches him? All that built up rage from what just happened with Neil comes spilling out. Oh and to make matters worse, he gets sedated and Max MIRRORS Neil’s abuse by making him repeat himself. Keep this in mind, while all this is going on Billy has absolutely no idea what is going on. He still doesn’t know what Max is doing with all of these boys in this house.

Moving forward- Billy gets possessed by the mind flayer, he still has no idea what is going on and loses control of his own body. He had to watch as his hands take the lives of many people to feed this creature from his worst nightmares. Then this group of children lock him in a sauna, he is FINALLY able to beg for help and sobs. Even then NOBODY tells him what’s going on, no one really makes an effort to help him. It’s only in the final episode of season 3 that El breaks through to him, she see’s his past, his mom leaving, the abuse. Even standing up to the mind flayer Billy has no idea what he’s up against, he’s still in the dark. All he knows is that it’s him or this child that showed him how to come back to himself. It’s him or Max, and as we already know Max’s well-being is in his hands. Nothing is more terrifying than Neil’s wrath. And in his dying breath he apologizes.

For my fellow Billy Stans- Please never let anyone bully you about what characters you can and can’t like. Your ability to see deeper into the characters and push past the hate is needed in this world. Not just in fiction, but in the real world. If you relate to Billy as I do, from past trauma, I am so sorry. I am so very sorry that you have to fight, explain and rationalize your love for him every time. For whatever reason you stand behind Billy Hargrove, it is valid. And unlike Billy’s story, I hope that yours doesn’t end in tragedy. My inbox is always open for those who need to talk.

Now, for the Antis- I want to say, good for you. You managed to take a broken and deeply complex character and reduce him to a heartless villain in your minds. Think what you want about him, it really doesn’t matter. What does matter is how you act to the people who do relate to Billy. The name calling, the hate, the wild assumptions about real people!! It’s so insane to me. I hope that turning into the bully to make a point was worth it. How other people relate to a character doesn’t affect you in any way at all. Somehow many of you have managed to put people down and make them afraid to express their love for a character. It’s not something to be proud of.

I am not willing to argue with anyone on this, this is just my views and my opinion. Dacre Montgomery stated that he worked hard to humanize Billy Hargrove. Seeing his character be dragged through the mud and continuously be turned into the irredeemable monster by the Duffer Brothers and the fans is just really sad.

Billy Hargrove means a lot to me. For a lot of different reasons. He deserved so much more than he was given. He deserved a chance to redeem himself and to tell his side of the story. He deserved a chance to apologize for everything he did in his survival state. He deserved the chance to finally be happy and be surrounded by people who actually cared for him, who wanted to help him.

Just keep going everyone. ❤️

[danysstarling]

one thing about the stranger things fandom is the fact that they will openly support a child predator (karen wheeler) but will literally harass billy fans for liking him and his story.... seems a bit weird to me

[throwthisawayplease]

a version of this was originally posted by @grey-sides and it was so awesome i had to make this one

[brokenbitchybby]

Bobby: Do you want to tell me how you guys crashed the truck?

Buck: Well, we were driving and there was this deer in the middle of the road that Eddie couldn’t see, so I shouted “Eddie, deer!”

Eddie: …

Bobby: Do you want to tell us what your response was?

Eddie: …

Eddie: *shamed* “Yes, honey?”

[bilosan]

9-1-1 ▸ EVAN BUCKLEY

[anarchopuppy]

God, anyone else remember when everyone understood that the correct feminist position about sports was that women should be allowed to compete with men because they're just as capable? When it was a trope in media to have the mysterious star athlete who just blew everyone else out of the water to take off her helmet and reveal that she was a woman the whole time?

Now people are rabidly arguing that supposed "men" (trans women) have inherent insurmountable biological advantages and cis women are too weak and dainty and unskilled to ever compete and must be protected, and then they try to call themselves feminists who are being silenced as if that's not just the mainstream sexist patriarchal opinion

Anyway, desegregate sports. There was never any reason to separate them by gender in the first place

[23-glass-bones]

This is so not true😭 the trope is popular because it’s fantastical, because that occurrence is somewhat rare. There are absolutely innate physical differences between indifuvuals who went through male or female puberty, no matter what they identify as. If one was to theoretically take hormone blockers/hormone therapy before puberty, then the playing field would be more level. Men develop a different bone density, fat cells, and muscle density than women during puberty. Many drugs and hormones work to change the outward appearance of someone who went through puberty, such as causing breast growth, facial hair, or voice changes, but those innate differences in muscle and bone are not something that is a. Changeable and b. Negligible, especially in a setting where physical power plays a large role, like sports. It’s true that the strongest woman is stronger than the strongest man, pound for pound, but a decently strong man may be as strong as her. That’s why you see things like mtf individuals dominating in womens rankings and sports, where they were not highly ranked in mens (think that one swimmer, I forget her name). Activities directly contingent on physical power should absolutely be separated by biological sex. If a transgender person wanted to compete, there should either be a seperate category or something else that would enable them to compete without it being unfair to anyone else.

[allcorrupt18]

[brokenbitchybby]

I LOVE THIS

[andromedas-diary]

Why does feeling fat make me wanna binge??? How does that even make sense?

Oh yeah bro, feelin like a whale- better go eat 10,000 calories.

[brokenbitchybby]

that all or nothing feeling

[bonybaker]

Yuzuru Hanyu

[lovelyweightloss]

Changing my CW when I lose one ounce but not changing it when I gain pounds

[chudypamietnik]

[brokenbitchybby]

ARCTIC ZERO WAS MY THING Y'ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.SCREW HALOTOP TOO MANY CALS!! arctic zero is like 140cals for the whole thing...halotop is three times that RIP

[kellyproana]

Seriously tho 😂 and yes I made this myself