We have been together for 2 months and one day now. We have only taken one picture together and you aren’t even looking. You still have your relationship statuses as single. You don’t communicate unless I’m with you in person. Today you told me you had to miss your mandatory class for probation. So I figured I would send you money that way you wouldn’t go back to jail. I made the mistake of messaging your father to ask Him where you were so you can make sure you made your class on time since you didn’t even have a lot of time. You got so angry with me because I messaged him and that he might kick you out because you told him you already went. You didn’t talk to me the rest of the night. You messaged me at 10:45 and said “home”. Meanwhile you have been on Facebook for hours liking pages of naked woman and posting videos to your friends. I asked you how your class went. And you didn’t respond so I said I love you goodnight. You said love you too. You made me feel like shit today. You made me feel like I was so fucked up when I was the one trying to keep you out of jail…. you said you appreciate it. But you didn’t really show it. We have fought before. But yet I’ve been by your side. I stuck by you when you got arrested for domestic violence. I stuck by you when you were in the hospital with no memory. I stuck by you when you lost your apartment and lost your job. And I still stuck by you now that your out of jail. I have sent you almost 500$ and spent more than that coming to see you. Just to make sure you were alright. Some days you tell me you love me a lot and send me cute hearts or tell me I’m beautiful. Other days you talk to me like I’m supposed to do this for you. Without you showing me any love in return. I would die for you. I am literally head over heels in love with you. When I’m with you in person we have sex a lot. Mainly because I want to. You treat me like a queen and take care of me. Even when I was hungover and puked all over your floor. Or when I was about to pass out. You make me feel loved and wanted and beautiful. But when I leave it’s like all that is gone. And doesn’t matter. I’m so confused. Everyone says you’re not good for me or your emotionally abusive. And I should know because I’ve been through that way too many times. But for some reason I refuse to believe that we’re not gunna work out or you’re not abusive. I love you too damn much to believe that. But I don’t understand why you don’t show it. Is it that hard to send me a text every once and a while expressing your love to me. If I meant that much to you, don’t you think you would show it? Men aren’t affectionate. But it’s like youre not even trying. And every time I tell you how I feel I get put down about it because if you didn’t want to be in a relationship you would be single.. I don’t know what to think. But I know I want to be with you for life. I would drop everything in a second for you. But I don’t think you would do the same for me.
