Goodbye
Hello everyone,
It breaks my heart to make this post, but I have decided to end this blog. I was venting to my caregiver/gf about the kind of messages I get on this blog, and she noticed how upset I get about them and pointed it out. We started discussing all kinds of things relating to the topic, and I realized that this blog doesn’t really make me happy. It actually makes me anxious. I get a lot of messages of people asking me to be their cg, or asking if I’m ignoring them or if I hate them because I haven’t responded yet. And I need to be honest and say it makes me really anxious, and has been affecting my mental health. Unfortunately while some of the messages I get are kind and very cute, a lot of them are people doing this, and I can’t handle it anymore. I can’t constantly be there for everyone, and I can’t even come on here to check things quickly without someone confronting me about me not responding. I never ignored anyone on purpose, and I don’t hate anyone that has ever messaged or followed me. I simply was to busy to reply, and came on just to check if unsafe blogs were following me. The fact that people immediately assume I’m ignoring them or hate them makes me really upset. It makes me really anxious, and it makes me feel like I’m doing a terrible job. I don’t want to feel that way anymore, and I don’t want to keep venting to my girlfriend about it. I want it to end, and unfortunately it’s only going to end permanently if i get off here. Please don’t take this personally as that’s the last thing I need right now. I am doing this because I want to, and think it’s best for my mental health. Not because someone told me to or because one person has been harassing me. So please don’t message me asking “is this about me?” because it’s about many people, and I don’t have the energy or strength to go through all my messages giving reassurance or facing confrontation. Thank you for all the cute drawings, the nice messages, and for everyone who participated in the couple activities I posted. I enjoyed making even more friends and babysitting for some of you. Please take care of yourselves and remember to be kind to yourself and others. Thank you for your understanding. Also I’m sorry if this message seems harsh, it isn’t my intention to be, but I must be straightforward and honest in order to get my point across. I’m genuinely so stressed and anxious because of this situation, and just want it to end.
-Buck
