yes!!! i've noticed this too!! it's probably in her shorthand playbook of common, relatable but cinematic images for sure. but i think it's also a microcosm of a specific tension that she's fixated on across her body of work so far. like people say she loves a love triangle, but that's not always right imo. what i've noticed is she specifically loves that dynamic of a perhaps objectively mismatched pairing where the third person (often her) longs unrequited. almost like they're not allowed to even long for them for whatever reason. Ivy has this too, and midnight rain to a degree, even ybwm holds this configuration. style mentions it however abstractly "you've been out and about with some other girl". countless others. maybe that she has a thing for forbidden fruit, or that she's into being the forbidden fruit herself, a rebellious inclination born of her lifelong anxious compulsion to be "good." or its a broader exploration of an eternal regret she can't shake. it's so specific, that tension, always wondering if you made a mistake actually, always a choice not chosen hovering on the periphery. I look in people's windows really explores that too where she talks about how she can't help but long for what if's and if only's, from across the platform, across the street, the subject of her longing nameless and anyone really. capitulating to the revelation that it's perhaps the perpetual state of longing she longs for rather than the person on the other side of the room. but also there's a bit of hope there too. she still hovers on the fringe as the unchosen choice, just outside the window as if to say yes, you made your choice, but it's not too late, I'm still here, you can choose again. and inversely, as the one making the choice herself, the longing observer stands on the sideline as not a ghost of paths not taken haunting her forever but a lifeline still dangling. it's not too late, i'm still here, you can still choose again. Whether she even wants to choose again is beside the point and it's more the comfort of knowing she can if she wants to, that her fate is not sealed. Perhaps that's what makes ruin the friendship situation so devastating to her, that lifeline has been severed forever and that choice she made, that she still turns over in her head, is sealed now, irreversible. to her, it seems there is nothing worse than that.
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