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active ed blog march 2023

[brxkenknxfe]

this blog may it may not be triggering to some🤹‍♂️

[xpersephonewantstodiex]

crazy how im never good enough or sick enough or happy enough or sad enough or pretty enough !!!!!!!!!!

[failed-apple]

me: *isnt scared of death, bugs, heights, snakes, gore etc.*

calories: *exists*

me:

[brxkenknxfe]

im just so tired. i cant do this anymore. i cant find light anywhere. everything is falling into shreads

[pneumonox-deactivated20221205]

this is your (tw) ed reminder

that you should not weigh yourself right after/day after intense working out. my weight is 50 kg, but today it was 54 kg, because i burned 1000 calories yesterday. it might be water or your muscles are sore. so please, tell it to your ed friend, so they don't have to freak out.

stay hydrated, luv yal'l

also, i am starting 30 days Thinspo Challenge, so stay tuned today !

[rayj4ck]

[bnmxfld]

“I’m not used to being loved. I wouldn’t know what to do.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald

[vakta]

:/

[brxkenknxfe]

the rain is the prettiest thing that occurs in nature. i understand that bad/horrific days like this happen a lot, but the rain is like that one beauty that you love more than anything. the thing that drives you forward. rain never stops moving, new steps, new horizons in life. a single drop can see the whole world in a life time, and i never stops moving forward. think of yourself as that drop, you could see everything, the good, the bad, and the dirty. all of it. and maybe someday, whenever that is, you can find the one thing you really care about and brings you comfort. something or someone you love.

[duckerdodadau]

[brxkenknxfe]

i lost 2 cals in 1 day/night im so happy :))

[brxkenknxfe]

i wonder if she ever misses me like i do her. i miss everything about her but the love for him spreads slowly like a rash that you can't get rid of and i know he'll leave me missing him more.

[brxkenknxfe]

i don't want her to feel then same we do. the way some of us feel when we can't get out of bed to brush our own teeth. the way we feel when we get exited abt sum that's coming up but we can't even bring themselves to eat. the feeling when something so bad for us feels so good. they way we bleed out after every emotion passes over us like adrenaline. they way we feel when we meet someone you would rip your organs out to be skinny and not be told everyday that your fat. they way we feel when we realize no one likes us.

i just want her to know i love her and i want her to be okay.

[brxkenknxfe]

the fucking guilt after everything and every day is like a burning sensation in my soul that may seem to go out with a splash of water but comes out to be worse than before

[brxkenknxfe]

you want to be pretty?

stop fucking eating.

[brxkenknxfe]

yk what

i feel as if i made no progress but ig ill do this

sw:142

cw: 129

gw:120

ugw:100

[brxkenknxfe]

i feel as if my pain is irrelevant to others because i am less pretty as them

like ur pretty i'm not, ur pain is mesmerizing bc ur stunning and i'm just making everything up bc i'm a piece of shit who wants attention