Nº 38‎ — 𐮜𐬿𖤐

𝘪 𝘨𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘢𝘣𝘣𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝙛𝙡𝙚𝙨𝙝 & 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙙

[bstrdson]

❝     i'm    the    rabbit.     ❞

                                                    ❝     —    huh    ??     ❞

❝     i'm    the    fuckin'    rabbit.     ❞

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indie,   semi   —   selective,   mutual   exclusive   STEBBINS   from   stephen   king's   THE   LONG   WALK.   film   &   headcanon   based   +   novel   influence.   heavy   /   mature   themes.   21+

a   study   in   ...   irony,   putting   all   your   eggs   in   one   basket,   bastard   angst,   jerk   with   a   heart   of   gold,   the   pressures   of   perfection,   toxic   masculinity,   sheep   in   wolf's   clothing

𓃹`,—   𝐝𝐨𝐜   .ᐟ.ᐟ

[thiabeagoodgirl]

i will forever be the hurting child, the angry teenager and the lonely adult.

[eggsaladstain]

“Sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you’ve been ruined.”

— Ocean Vuong, On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous

[lux-noxaurea11]

- Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals

[cranes-and-hares]

starkovitch, from garrett and charlie (also known as pics garrett and charlie took of each other on set, ft two pics others took of them)

[loudbark--deepbite]

@bstrdson WE'VE BEEN SAYING

[ghostssmoke]

STAY SOFT - GET EATEN

[havanaberry]

"I thought, this is the most incredible thing I have ever seen, and I had better keep it a safe distance away from me. I thought, if someone like that ever loved me, it would set me on fire."

[nemfrog]

Three amigos. The built-upon house. 1929.

Internet Archive

[lleyksie]

rabbits, clovers 🍀࿐ ࿔･ﾟ

[coastercruushed]

can you surrender that in which you most desire? // written by billie. indie mapplethorpe landis from crazy fun park.

[loudbark--deepbite]

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⠀⠀⠀тнαт'ѕ тнє тнιηg, ωє αℓℓ gσттα gσ......

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀𝐈 𝐃𝐎𝐍'𝐓 𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐍𝐀 𝐆𝐎 𝐇𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐃.

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

ɪɴᴅᴇᴘᴇɴᴅᴇɴᴛ ᴘᴏʀᴛʀᴀʏᴀʟ ᴏꜰ 𝐆𝐀𝐑𝐘 𝐁𝐀𝐑𝐊𝐎𝐕𝐈𝐓𝐂𝐇. ꜰʀᴏᴍ ꜱᴛᴇᴘʜᴇɴ ᴋɪɴɢ'ꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴏɴɢ ᴡᴀʟᴋ. ᴀᴅᴏᴘᴛᴇᴅ ʙʏ ᴊ, ᴛʜᴇʏ/ᴛʜᴇᴍ, ᴇꜱᴛ, 12 ʏᴇᴀʀꜱ ʀᴘ ᴇxᴘᴇʀɪᴇɴᴄᴇ. carrd.

[mcflymemes]

PROMPTS FOR TEACHABLE MOMENTS *  assorted dialogue, adjust as necessary

you're not doing it right.

i'm just going to sit here and watch you.

that's not how it works.

all right, since you're such an expert, why don't you show me?

let me know when you need my help.

is that the best you've got?

you're holding it all wrong.

try to swing your sword.

was that you trying?

i've never done this before.

i look like a fool.

you're getting the hang of it!

you know what they say, practice makes perfect.

i'm never going to be ready in time.

let me walk you through it.

this is where you went wrong.

watch how i do this.

see? it's not so bad!

i feel like i'm making a fool of myself.

who taught you how to do this?

i wish i had more confidence in myself.

i'm never going to get it.

try again. harder this time.

put your back into it.

that was weak.

i expected better of you.

you've really disappointed me today.

it's easier to just give up.

hold it like this instead.

watch me, and then you try.

who taught you to hold it like that?

no no, you're doing it all wrong.

see? a little practice always helps.

keep going. don't stop until you've perfected it.

i'm going to leave and come back, and you'd better be ready by then.

again. do it again.

i'm not giving up on you.

maybe i wasn't meant to do this.

maybe i'll let someone else handle this.

this is too complicated for me.

you're not giving yourself enough credit.

you came this far. don't give up now.

i believe in you.

i know you can do it.

if you put your mind to it, you can accomplish anything.

the last person i taught was your mother.

the last person i taught was your father.

you're just as stubborn as they were.

i'm not letting you give up this easily.

a little hard work, and you'll get it.

i always believed in you from day one.

see that? that's where you're aiming.

deep breath in, deep breath out.

you're stronger than you think.

if you give up, you'll never forgive yourself.

a lot of people are counting on you.

everything rides on your shoulders.

they need you to learn this.

this is the only way you're going to prove yourself.

prove them wrong.

[bstrdson]

oh we are so back.......

[yellow-cat]

some days are really hard and it can be difficult to understand why. but usually its probably because my blood is haunted

[mcflymemes]

AS SAID BY GARRUS VAKARIAN, updated version  *  assorted dialogue from the mass effect trilogy, adjust as necessary

i can't find any hard evidence.

good luck, [name]. maybe they'll listen to you.

i'm coming with you.

sometimes it feels like the rules are only there to stop me from doing my work.

i just couldn't take it anymore.

maybe i can get the job done my way for a change.

if you're wrong, we'll pay for it. but if you're right, and we did nothing, i think we'd regret it a whole lot more.

i thought you were dead.

it sure is good to see a friendly face.

at least it's not hard to find criminals here. all i have to do is point my gun and shoot.

my feelings got in the way of my better judgement.

i'll make you a deal. you get me out of here alive, and i'll tell you the whole damn thing.

nobody would give me a mirror. how bad is it?

don't make me laugh, damn it.

some women find facial scars attractive.

i'm fit for duty whenever you need me.

when i got to the meeting point, no one was there.

kill you? no. but i don't mind slowing you down a little.

what do you want from me, [name]?

i know you want to talk about this... but i don't. not yet.

it's so much easier to see the world in black and white. gray... i don't know what to do with gray.

my instincts are what got me into this mess.

never knew you had a weakness for men with scars.

well, why the hell not? there's nobody in this galaxy i respect more than you.

if we can figure out a way to make it work, then... yeah. definitely.

you're about the only friend i've got left in this screwed-up galaxy.

you don't ever have to worry about making me uncomfortable. nervous, yes... but never uncomfortable.

i brought wine.

your hair looks... good. and your waist is... very supportive.

hopefully that's not offensive in human culture.

i want something to go right. just once.

think you can win this thing, [name]?

i'm pretty sure we'll still need giant guns... and lots of them.

so... is this the part where we shake hands?

the scars are starting to fade. i remember they drove you wild.

i've been doing some more research on human customs.

glad to know my romantic skills made an impression.

let's not go there.

i can afford the good stuff.

what about you? i'm starting to see some wear and tear.

don't forget to come up for air. and not just because all these people need you. because i need you.

if you're suggesting i'm scared... game on.

still trying to make me blush, huh?

i'd be lying if i said i didn't hope it would inspire a certain... mood.

it seemed like you needed time to... figure us out.

the worst part about the galaxy going to hell would've been never getting to see you again.

not saying you don't know how to handle a gun. just saying some of us know how to make it dance.

i've actually seen you dance. no comment.

i know there are other things you're good at.

probably not a lot of air in here. an hour if we're lucky.

so tell me. think a girl would fall for that?

it gets even better when you try it in bed.

you don't lack for places to get lost.

did we break anything last night?

you'll find a way to win. and when this is over, i'll be waiting for you.

if this thing goes sideways and we both end up there... meet me at the bar. i'm buying.

forgive the insubordination, but your boyfriend has an order for you.

come back alive. it'd be an awfully empty galaxy without you.

we're in this 'til the end.

we didn’t kill these people. and we’re going to shut down the bastards who did.

looks like we’ve got a siege on our hand.

if anyone needs fresh clips or a bathroom break, now’s the time.

oh crap!

guess he didn’t like the food.

looks like we got the jump.

pretty extreme, but those were desperate times.

we won’t get a second chance.

that was me, sorry.

nothing like being stranded.

we’ll do more than that.

just the usual minor flesh wound.

what would these people have done if we hadn’t shown up?

i was there when you two had your thing, remember? just get a room and work it out.

stay angry. we’ll need it to get through this.

drinks will be on me.

one of my favorite places to fight!

i’m hard to kill. you should know that.

it’s gonna be bad all over.

for whatever it’s worth, i’m with you.

you’ve waited long enough for this day.

just wait ‘til this war is over.

you came along and warmed my heart with your winning personality.

maybe you’d like to go work for them instead?

how do i not have one of those?

surprise on our side for once. i like it.

brutal, but it makes a certain kind of sense.

[pokeballvictimized]

[loudbark--deepbite]

walking with @bstrdson ; grip my muse’s jaw to make them look yours in the eye

Gary doubts Billy Stebbins cares very much about art, and Gary's made it no secret he doesn't care one bit about athletics, but Billy Stebbins seems to care a good deal about him. It was easy to brush off at first as Gary being characteristically absentminded- the overlap in schedules and social circles going predictably unnoticed. But the more Gary finds them in the same place, the more Stebbins pays more attention to him than Gary would expect him to, the more he thinks that he must be missing something.

Which is terrifying, now that Gary's gay. He's always been gay, and has always been varying degrees or aware of it. But he's actually being gay now. He's hooked up with three boys since he moved onto campus, which is a huge deal for him. So he really wishes Stebbins wasn't so closed off and hard to read- because Gary likes hanging out with him whenever they end up at the same place at the same time and everything. But he is far too gorgeous, and Gary is far too gay, to be left wondering like this.

It all boils to a head when they're both, predictably, standing on the outskirts of a party. Gary being bitchy and petty about something inconsequential, before Stebbins grabs his face. Gary looks up at him, which is what Billy clearly wants him to do, with red tinted eyes and blown out, slightly glassy looking pupils. He doesn't mean to lean his face so much into Stebbins' hand. He'd be far too mortified to.

Are you hitting on me, Billy?" Gary challenges. Either he's straight and this will scare him off a little bit and they can get back to business as usual, or Gary is miraculously right and... yeah, he just wants Stebbins to back off enough for Gary's gay brain to try and figure out how to think straight again.

[bstrdson]

stebbins   often   found   himself   drawn   towards   the   things   that   piqued   his   curiosity.   gary   barkovitch   downright   fascinated   him.   he'd   done   enough   of   his   own   recon   on   the   boy   (   because   god   forbid   ray   or   pete   start   catching   on   as   to   why   he's   asking   so   many   questions   about   their   mutual   friend   )   to   know   he   liked   what   he   was   seeing.   someone   who   didn't   give   a   fuck   what   anyone   else   thought,   said   his   peace   regardless   of   repercussions   —   something   billy   found   incredibly   attractive.   something   he   wanted   to   expose   himself   to   more. 

hence   why   he's   been   trailing   barkovitch   like   some   damned   lost   puppy   most   the   night.

❝    if   you   have   to   ask,   m'   clearly   not   doin'   a   good   job.   ❞    he'll   roll   his   eyes   teasingly,   cheeks   flushing   a   bit   with   the   amused   smirk   taking   place   on   his   features   now.   he   lightly   shakes   gary's   head   with   his   chin   still   in   his   hand,   trying   not   to   think   too   much   on   the   sudden   tightness   he's   feeling   in   his   crotch   with   gary   looking   up   at   him   like   that.   he'll   tug   him   in   a   little   closer,   their   faces   dangerously   close   now,   noses   nearly   brushing   together.

❝   c'mon,   ❞    with   a   final   squeeze,   stebbins   drops   his   hand   entirely.   taking   a   few   tiny   steps   backwards,   he   tucks   his   bottom   lip   between   his   teeth,   a   piss   poor   attempt   at   hiding   a   mischievous   grin.   he'll   nod   his   head   in   gesture   for   gary   to   follow,   pushing   his   hands   into   the   pocket   of   his   sweatshirt   as   he   turns   on   heel,   walking   towards   the   general   direction   of   his   car.   he   doesn't   bother   checking   to   make   sure   he's   following,   giddy   smile   damn   near   impossible   to   keep   off   his   face   now.   besides   —   he   knows   he   is.

❝    this   party   fuckin'   blows.   ❞