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an independent , private & selective blog for ISABELLA ‘ BELLA ’ SWAN of the twilight saga .  anti-smeyer . twenty plus only . penned by bambi . est 08 / 21 .

CARRD . HEADCANON TAG .

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bella can hold emmett in a headlock

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some angst idk y’all i like crying

“  i don’t want you here.  just go.  ” 

“  you ‘didn’t mean to hurt me?’  yeah you did.  like it or not,  i know exactly who you are.  ” 

“  why won’t you even look at me?  ”

“  i’m not angry at you.  i’m angry with myself for trusting you.  ”

“  i wish you’d stop trying to destroy yourself in some misguided effort to feel worthy.  ”

“  i know it’s not fair to say this,  but i don’t have anything without you.  if i don’t have you i have nothing.  ”

“  you can’t love me.  not the way i need to be loved.  ”

“  i’m broken.  and i don’t need anyone to try to feed me white lies about it.  something inside me is broken and it isn’t just going to be put back like it was.  ” 

“  sometimes being broken isn’t about trying to put things back together like they were before.  it’s about picking up what pieces are left and building something new.  ”

“  okay,  so you’re a monster.  so am i.  lets be monsters together.  ” 

“  because of what they/you did i’m damaged.  ”  

“  what the hell is wrong with you?  ”

“  what the hell is wrong with me?  ”

“  i can’t fix you.  you can’t expect me to know how to fix you.  ” 

“  yeah,  i’ll be here.  i’ll be here when you’re ready to stop running.  ”

“  my world is just falling apart.  it’s like everything is just crumbling around me.  i don’t know what to do.  i just want it to stop ”  

“  you’re the only thing that makes sense right now.  everything else is just—  the world is so loud.  and the only time it feels quiet is when you’re here.  ”

“  i don’t know how to talk about shit okay?  it’s too hard.  but i do care.  i need you to trust me that i care.  ”

 “  stop punishing yourself.  you wanna make up for what you’ve done?  get off your ass and do something about it.  ”

“  whatever it is you think was going on between us,  you’re wrong.  ”

“  it didn’t mean anything to me.  ” 

“  you should move on.  i did.  ”  

“  i feel like i’m one bad day away from becoming everything i’ve fought against.  ” 

“  stop pushing me away.  i’m not going anywhere,  asshole.  and as soon as you get that through that thick skull of yours,  the better.  ”  

“  i don’t need you in my life.  i don’t want you in it.  ”  

“  i can’t trust myself.  if i let myself get comfortable enough,  when i try to be happy,  people get hurt.  ”  

“  people like me don’t get to have peace.  ”  

“  i’m not the person you want.  i know you think i am.  but it won’t take long for you to realize this is a mistake.  ”  

“  you want the truth?  the truth is when i love people it burns inside me like a poison.  it infects every part of me until it feels like they’re in my goddamn soul…and then i fuck it up.  and it’ll destroy us both.  ”  

“  i’ll always choose you.  that’s the worst part of it all.  i’d choose you over and over, even though i know you wouldn’t do the same.  ”  

“  you never had to be perfect.  you just had to stay.  ”

“  will you please just stay for once.  just.  don’t walk away.  ” 

“  if i loved you less,  i might be able to talk about it more.  ”   

“  just tell me something real.  tell me something i can remember no matter what happens to us.  ”

“  when you look at me,  i feel seen.  i feel like you see past everything i’ve always surrounded myself with to try and protect my heart.  no one has ever looked that deeply at me.  ”  

“  how can you uncover so much about someone,  make them let their guard down and lay themselves bare to you.  and then just throw it all away?  ”

“  if you walk out that door don’t bother coming back.  ”

“  why are you so afraid of trusting this—  trusting us.  what’s making you hold back?  ”

“  will you still be here?  will you stay even after you’ve seen all the ugly parts of my heart.  ”  

“  i don’t care how willing you are to die for me.  i want you to fucking live with me.  live for us.  ” 

HURT/COMFORT

[ DISCOVER ] for one muse to find the other crying alone. 

[ COMPANY ] for one muse to sit with the other so they don’t have to be alone while they’re upset. 

[ EMBRACE ] for one muse to suddenly hug the other one for their own comfort. 

[ OFFER ] for one muse to suddenly hug the other one to comfort them.

[ SETTLE ] for one muse to comfort the other and end up cuddling. 

[ SHOULDER ] for one muse to rest their head on the other’s shoulder while they comfort them. 

[ CARRY ]  for one muse to find the other injured and carry them to safety.

[ SECURE ] for one muse to carry the other to bed after they fell asleep. 

[ STRUGGLE ]  for one muse to resist being hugged but then break down and crumble against the other. 

[ CLEAR ] for one muse to wipe the other’s tears. 

[ BREAKDOWN ] for one muse to ask the other if they’re okay prompting them to finally stop bottling things up. 

[ BRUSH ] for one muse to run their fingers through the other’s hair while they open up or cry. 

[ NURSE ] for one muse to tend to the other while they’re recovering from injuries. 

[ TRUST ] for a scenario where sender’s muse is the only one receivers muse will let close. 

[ COAX ] for scenario where receiver’s muse knows they’re the only one sender’s muse will let close. 

[ CALM ] for one muse to subdue the other during an outburst. 

[ CLARITY ] for one muse to help ground the other back in the present  (i.e. after nightmare, breakdown, battle etc)

[ PREVENT ] for one muse to stop the other from going too far during a fight. 

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@duskwolf​ asked : “  do you wanna get out of here ?  ” // x

the room was near suffocating and instead of answering , bella reached out to grab his wrist . throwing the door open , the cool night air hit her and it was the best thing to happen all night . giving his wrist one last squeeze she let go and grinned t him . “ thanks . not sure how much longer i would have lasted in there . thought i was going to have to threaten someone again . ”

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@etrnalheart​ asked : “  i’ve got your back , okay ? ” // x

“ that- ” bella swallowed the lump in her throat , smiling a little as she gazed at esme . that meant a lot to her - meant more than words could say . she settled on reaching out and gripping esme’s hand and giving her a soft squeeze . to have someone stand behind her on this , knowing she had people in her corner - she could feel the bubble of emotion in her chest swell . “ thank you . ”

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misc sentence starters

“  i wish i knew how to talk about it.  ”   “  you don’t have to talk, we can just sit together.  ”   “  i don’t want to be alone anymore.  ”   “  i wish i could hate you.  ”  “  take a seat, we’re gonna be here a while.  ” “  i need you to trust me.  ”   “  i missed/miss you.  ”   “  she/he won’t listen to me.  ” “  let me do this for you. please.  ”   “  is there anything else you want to say to me?  ” “  tell me something happy.  ”   “  promise me.  ” “  i just want/wanted to help.  ”   “  let me explain.  ” “  i didn’t/don’t need you to understand, i just wanted/want you to support me.  ”   “  i’m on your side.  ” “  i’ve got your back, okay? ” “  please, tell me you have a plan.  ” “  stay with me tonight.  ” “  don’t go. please.  ”   “  i’ve been alone for so long i’m afraid i don’t know what it’s like not to be.  ”   “  talk to me.  ”   “  i did what i had to do.  ” “  we can’t keep going on like this.  ” “  i’m just tired.  ” “  i’m scared.  ” “  it’s okay to be afraid. fear can be good. use it.  ” “  it’s better to expect disappointment.  ” “  hope is dangerous.  ” “  i like seeing you smile.  ”   “  you look beautiful.  ”   “  be patient with her/him. they’re trying. ”   “  i’m trying my best and it’s not good enough. it’s never good enough. ” “  i’m starting to think i’m just fucked up.  ”   “  have a drink with me.  ” “  she/he is better off without me. but i guess that’s their choice.  ” “  you can’t dictate what’s best for someone else. ” “  can i help you?  ” “  i thought you’d like this.  ” “  do you wanna get out of here?  ” “  walk with me?  ” “  well, shit.  ”

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@televampyr​ asked : ‘  if  i  were  a  human  being...   ’ // x

“ you like these ‘ if ’ questions . ” she looked away briefly before sliding herself closer to him , knocking their shoulders together . “ but the past can’t be changed and neither can who you are now - who , i might add , i like quite a bit . i like the future question game . it gives us something to be hopeful about . ”

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﹠　.　　　　⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯　　　　sentence  starter  meme， tale  of  the  nine  -  tailed.    these  are  all  taken  from  the  kdrama,  tale  of  the  nine  -  tailed.     change  pronouns  or  anything  else  as  needed to fit for your muse(s).

‘  he  can  kill  him  because  he  loves  him?  ’ ‘  such  a  monster.  ’ ‘  did  you  even  get  a  worried  phone  call  from  him?  ’ ‘  you’ve  been  abandoned  once  again.  ’ ‘  i’ll  protect  you.  ’ ‘  i  wanted  to  protect  all  your  nights  &  all  your  days.  ’ ‘  are  you  really  going  to  give  up  on  your  life?  ’ ‘  i  want  my  voice  back  &  the  prince.  ’ ‘  if  you  say  help  me,  i  can  make  sure  you  never  see  this  face  again.  ’ ‘  are  you  okay?  is  your  body  alright?  did  you  get  hurt?  ’ ‘  don’t  get  on  my  nerves.  ’ ‘  i’m  going  to  kill  you.  ’ ‘  i  met  someone  that  i  want  to  kill  just  now.  ’ ‘  you’re  all  i  see.  ’ ‘  is  that  all  you  have  to  say  to  me?  ’ ‘  i  didn’t  think  it  was  polite  to  come  to  a  home  empty  -  handed.  ’ ‘  i  wanted  to  spend  more  time  with  you  in  this  lifetime.  ’ ‘  are  you  saying  more  people  could  die?  ’ ‘  it’s  not  a  threat,  it’s  a  gamble.  ’ ‘  i  just  couldn’t  get  used  to  being  apart  from  you.  ’ ‘  i’ll  always  be  waiting  for  you.  ’ ‘  are  you  sure  he  graduated  from  the  best  university  in  our  country?  ’ ‘  do  you  have  a  tail?  ’ ‘  i  want  to  live.  ’ ‘  i  don’t  have  time  to  chit  chat.  ’ ‘  what  am  i  to  you?  ’ ‘  you  are  so  cruel  to  me.  ’ ‘  but  in  my  eyes  you  were  shining.  ’ ‘  i  wanted  to  be  like  you.  ’ ‘  you’re  licking  his  ass  while  he  ate  your  whole  bloodline.  ’ ‘  you  see,  foxes  can  transform.  ’ ‘  i  hate  doing  something  so  disgraceful.  ’ ‘  even  when  facing  your  own  death,  you’re  worried  about  your  dignity.  ’ ‘  lets  live.  you  &  i.  ’ ‘  do  you  have  a  boyfriend?  ’ ‘  a  fairytale  for  adults  usually  ends  in  a  terrifying  way.  ’ ‘  he  spilled  everything.  ’ ‘  you’re  good  at  acting.  you  could  become  an  actor.  ’ ‘  stop  acting  like  a  man  in  front  of  me.  ’ ‘  &  you’re  still  a  crybaby.  ’ ‘  i  missed  you  so  much.  ’ ‘  praise  me  more.  ’ ‘  how  can  you  be  so  handsome  &  there’s  nothing  you  can’t  do.  you’re  dazzling!  ’ ‘  i’ll  bite  you.  ’ ‘  wow,  i’ve  raised  you  wrong.  ’ ‘  if  someone  bites  you,  just  bite  them  back  exactly  the  same.  ’ ‘  the  world  is  cruel  towards  those  who  can’t  even  say  it  hurts.  ’ ‘  who  asked  you  to  save  me!  ’ ‘  i  told  you  not  to  follow  me.  ’ ‘  i  just  feel  like  i  woke  up  from  a  long  sleep.  ’ ‘  he  even  risks  his  life  for  me.  ’ ‘  you’ll  know  whether  it’s  life  or  death  waiting  for  you.  ’ ‘  we  are  connected  through  destiny.  ’ ‘  my  mom  &  dad  want  to  meet  my  boyfriend.  ’ ‘  are  you  a  good  hostage?  ’ ‘  i’m  not  scared.  kill  me.  ’ ‘  i  need  some  know  -  how.  to  look  good  in  front  of  parents  &  such…  ’ ‘  so  people  like  this  kind  of  style.  ’ ‘  the  tale  will  complete  only  when  one  of  us  dies.  ’ ‘  you  looked  good  in  each  &  every  photo.  ’ ‘  i  always  lose  when  we  argue.  ’ ‘  if  i  were  a  human  being..   ’ ‘  how  wonderful  it  would  be  if  i  were  a  simple  human  being.  ’ ‘  does  your  life  taste  bitter  again?  ’ ‘  they  are  couple  rings!  i  really  wanted  to  have  one!  ’ ‘  what  a  cowardly  bastard.  i’m  going  to  get  that  bastard.  ’ ‘  so  what  if  they  die?  i’ll  do  it.  ’ ‘  i  will  save  my  brother  in  my  own  way.  ’ ‘  should  we  become  friends?  ’ ‘  you  can  do  better.  ’ ‘  for  me,  it  has  to  be  you.  ’ ‘  whose  side  are  you  on?  ’ ‘  why  are  you  saying  sorry?  ’ ‘  i  stabbed  you  &  wounded  you  with  my  own  hands.  ’ ‘  why  are  you  worrying  about  me  when  you’re  in  that  state?  ’ ‘  wherever  it  is,  let’s  go  somewhere  where  it’s  only  the  two  of  us.  ’ ‘  the  role  of  a  sinner  fits  you  best.  ’ ‘  do  you  even  love  me?  ’ ‘  our  arguments  never  go  over  five  minutes.  ’ ‘  why  can’t  we  have  this  ordinary  life?  ’ ‘  i  learned  that  a  male  with  a  big  inferiority  complex  is  like  a  time  bomb.  ’ ‘  get  out  of  my  sight  right  now.  ’ ‘  i,  who  am  small  &  nothing  special,  find  my  fate  very  heavy.  ’ ‘  it  feels  like  i  might  sink  deep  down  into  the  ocean.  ’ ‘  i  won’t  be  able  to  keep  that  promise.  ’ ‘  he’s  a  bad  cook  but  he  can  make  rice.  only  rice.  ’ ‘  you  couldn’t  live  without  me,  right?  ’ ‘  i  tire  of  things  instantly.  ’ ‘  i  hate  your  tacky  looks  &  that  constantly  smiling  face.  ’ ‘  do  i  need  a  friend  or  family?  ’ ‘  i  can’t  ever  break  up  with  you.  ’ ‘  please  get  out  of  my  life.  ’ ‘  don’t  follow  me.  ’ ‘  i  thought  you  wouldn’t  be  able  to  hit  him,  so  i  did  it  for  you.  ’ ‘  don’t  talk  to  me.  i’m  going  to  bite  you.  ’ ‘  you’re  not  human,  are  you?  ’ ‘  if  you  don’t  like  it,  leave.  ’ ‘  you  make  a  good  sleeping  beauty.  ’ ‘  i’m  listening.  don’t  make  it  lengthy,  just  get  to  the  point.  ’

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the way that bella just casually threatens to “ cheerfully beat you to death ” to mike is something i think about at least once a week

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bella named her cactus pokey

he’s still hanging in there

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twilight but instead of a dramatic reveal about how edward’s a vampire bella just shows up to class one day and slides a copy of Dracula across the table to see what happens 

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𝐌𝐀𝐘 𝐌𝐘 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐁𝐄 𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐃 , 𝐌𝐘 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐃 𝐅𝐈𝐄𝐑𝐂𝐄 & 𝐌𝐘 𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐓 𝐁𝐑𝐀𝐕𝐄

an independent , private & selective blog for ISABELLA ‘ BELLA ’ SWAN of the twilight saga . anti-smeyer . twenty plus only . penned by bambi . est 08 / 21 . carrd .

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my entire goal is chaotic energy 

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