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Lucy. she/her. Excessive yapping about fictional firefighters. 🚒 (usually making gifs of ostark) buckleydefender on ao3 redbubble shop

[buckleyflower]

i saw oliver with that green shirt and those curls and all that chest and i think that’s the closest i’ve come to see god maybe now i’m a fervent believer

[buckleyflower]

[buckleyflower]

i saw oliver with that green shirt and those curls and all that chest and i think that’s the closest i’ve come to see god maybe now i’m a fervent believer

[ilyasmole]

you know how that first morning at the cottage ("i like you" / "i like you too") ilya's kind of half asleep and then after they talk shane cuddles in again and ilya pulls him close....i think ilya fell back asleep but shane didn't and after cuddling for a lil while he carefully got out of bed to go take a piss and start on breakfast. and then ilya woke up to the smell of bacon (BACON!! SHANE HOLLANDER COOKING BACON!! FOR ILYA!!) and he practically floated into the kitchen wanting to wrap his arms around shane and start their first morning together and then-

then he froze in place bc shane is standing there in just his underwear and fucking stubble. stubble. ilya's never seen this man with stubble up to this point and he hadn't noticed it earlier, was too sleepy. but now he's just standing at the edge of the kitchen with wide eyes as shane plates their breakfast and finally shane notices him standing there and looks up like 🤨 why are you just standing there

and ilya just:

[chubby-cry-baby]

shane hollander surprised people came to his birthday party, shane hollander worried about what group he’s going to be in for projects, shane hollander talking teachers during lunch instead of classmates, shane hollander getting married to ilya rozanov and having a place in every room he’s in now because he’s going to be beside ilya obviously!!! i fear childhood loneliness never leaves you

[buckleyflower]

so no fleece for me… :(

[buckleyflower]

i have literally done nothing all day because of that goddamn fleece it better not cost a thousand dollars

[letmegrabyourcuteass]

Do you think when Theo is having a meltdown cause he misses his parents, and in a flash, he spots Eddie and reaches out with his tiny hands to him, crying "Daddy," cause although they don't look similar, his grieving brain mistakes him for his dad. But right then and there, Eddie decides that Theo is his son just as much as Chris is Buck's. He sweeps Theo in a huge hug, one that makes Theo feel so safe and secure as Eddie lets him cry it all out.

Eddie can see Buck standing by his bedroom door, looking worried. He mouths that he's got this and watches Buck's shoulders droop down as he walks away. He then sees Christopher walk past his door towards Buck. Chris looks at Eddie and mouths back to him, "I got this," with a smile as he makes his way to Buck.

[buckleyflower]

i have an idea for a hollanov fic which is a bit too dramatic so now i’m sitting here wondering what i should do

[buckleyflower]

i’m scrolling through the convention content and i feel like i’m about to od on ryliver

[thisfeebleheart]

Hollander, you are having panic attack. It's just a plan to fuck.

[buckleyflower]

imagine buck gets sent to an lafd weekend event, like a three-day conference or something, out of L.A., and eddie can’t attend because christopher needs him for something and buck starts pushing his eddie-has-a-silver-star agenda as soon as he finds other firefighters to talk to. he literally finds any possible excuse to yap about eddie, and that means two things: 1. gomez, one of the guys he has hung out with during the whole weekend, in the end works up the courage to ask buck how he and eddie handled their relationship in the field because his girlfriend is also part of his team so they are still unsure about PDA and such, 2. one of the higherups calls bobby to ask why the hell he hasn’t disclosed the romantic relationship between two of his firefighters.

imagine buck’s surprise both times. imagine the color of eddie’s cheeks when he finds out.

[bisexualrozanov]

you used to be fun, ilya.

[buckleyflower]

Eddie promised Buck he would take good care of Theo. Obviously. Buck had to pick up an extra shift and Eddie was the only option, so here they are, at Eddie’s house, alone, with Eddie who feels a little like his heart is beating out of his chest. It’s a feeling he’s distinctly acquainted with, but he won’t dwell on that thought, for now.

He is pretty sure that he can be a decent dad. He is a great, awesome dad, but chances are he’ll never fully believe that. Especially after the whole Chris-in-Texas parenthesis. However, he knows he can successfully babysit a toddler and survive, making sure that they both make it through the day and he can return said toddler safe to his parent (which is a thought he’d probably associate with a postal package but… he’s stressed). That’s what he keeps reminding himself while he follows Theo around the house.

He never told Buck, but there’s no mistaking this kid for anyone other than Buck’s son. And Eddie kind of loves it. Part of Eddie, after hearing all about Buck’s childhood, wishes he could teleport back in time and hold baby Buck, protecting him from all harm, but that’s probably just his paternal instincts taking over him from time to time. Taking care of Theo gives him the impression that he’s doing something good for Buck, and for baby Buck.

However, whenever he’s with the kid, especially when they are alone, he doesn’t have much room to sit down and think. And he loves it. Really. He doesn’t mind at all that Theo is such an energetic and intelligent kid. If anything, he loves him for it.

The problem is that his brain-to-mouth filter is completely gone most of the time.

And that’s something that Eddie definitely does not like. Especially since realizing how in love he is with his best friend.

Buck is the most important person in his life after Christopher, and he cannot and won’t jeopardize that.

Except that Theo probably has other plans for him. Because it’s not Eddie’s fault that the kid has begged him for ice cream and not his fault that he can’t resist him, so now they’re trying not to get chocolate ice cream all over his couch and Theo is completely covered in it.

It’s not Eddie’s fault, really. Theo keeps giggling and Eddie is a little bit tired. “Look at you, Theo!” He says, and the kid just keeps giggling like Eddie is the funniest man alive. “What are we telling your dad?”

It just… slips out.

And Theo doesn’t flinch, not like Eddie does. Instantaneously and violently. Fuck. He really shouldn’t have said that, but Theo doesn’t seem to notice, so he won’t bring it up.

Theo just smiles, a bit mischievously and says “call Buck!”

Eddie sighs. He fucking loves this kid. It’s honestly unfair. “We can’t call Buck, buddy, he’s at work, remember?” He gently reminds him.

Theo seems to think about it, then nods, and then throws himself at Eddie, who is crouched down by the couch, so in two seconds flat, they are both covered in ice cream.

And Eddie is wearing a white tee, but he won’t budge. Not a time for a mental breakdown. He was a soldier. He can survive a mini Buck.

“Theo…”

“Eddie!” Theo delightfully wraps his arms around Eddie’s neck and squeezes and Eddie wants to drop on the floor, precisely lying down, and sob until he’s dying from dehydration.

“Eddie’s got you!” Then he whispers in Eddie’s neck, because Buck is always telling him that, and Eddie’s heart becomes dust in his chest. There’s no way it has not exploded.

“Yeah,” he breathes out, all chocked up and emotional. “I always got you.” And then, when Theo wiggles free, he adds, “now we gotta get you in a bath, bud.”

By the time Buck comes home, Christopher is sound asleep in his room, but Theo seems determined to win his battle against sleep and waits for Buck with only one eye open.

“Hey, Theo, you can sleep, buddy, I’m here,” Buck reassures him, kneeling down next to the little bed.

Theo smiles. Somehow, his smile manages to always carry a spark of something playful and smart, and Buck loves him for that. “Hello,” he sleepily murmurs. Then he turns to Eddie, to look at him for a moment, before succumbing to sleep. “Don’t tell dad, Eddie.”

Eddie remains frozen on the spot, looking at Buck, while Buck looks at Theo like he’s a ticking bomb.

“I– I think, it’s, uh, my fault, I guess?” Eddie says, whispering.

[buckleyflower]

what about a fic where ilya gets vip pass to the montreal f1 race and he stays at shane’s for the weekend because where else would he be? oh also shane’s montreal is in the playoffs and also they say i love you for the first time cause ilya looks so happy all the time and shane just loves him so much he can’t control it anymore

[bubblesandroses8]

Rafael didnt know that we are boycotting 911 Nashville and he said it made his heart happy because we are "loyal bitches"

[911onabcbts]

Oliver today, thank you Courtney for allowing me to post it 💗

[buckleyflower]

sir 🤏🏻🤏🏻🤏🏻🤏🏻🤏🏻🤏🏻 please sir give it back give it back! my heart, give.🫴🏻