So wrong but feels so good.
paring: bangchan x fem!reader
genre: smut … that’s it i think.
warning(s): infidelity(i don’t support cheating!!) , sexual content , cussing , a brief mention of slight choking , p in v , praise , use of y/n , guilt(?) , aftercare(?).
summary: you and Chan had a complicated relationship , but you both chose to stop seeing each other ever since you got with Hyunjin..but it hasn’t been easy. that must be why you ended up back in Chans bed while Hyunjin was busy with work.
a/n: i’m terrible at writing the lead up to sex i swear . also , this was for my bsf @unknown-ab !!
Breaking old habits is a hard thing to do. You knew weren’t supposed to be here again. Especially after you and Chan called it quits a while ago. Breaking old habits has never been easy for you, but that’s not an excuse for this. Hyunjin is a sweet guy. He cares, loves hard, makes you feel safe and comfortable..the only thing that’s a downside is that he isn’t good in bed. It’s like he’s two thrust in and then he’s out. Maybe that was something you could have talked to him about. Or maybe you just like this idea more. You knew that if Hyunjin found out you wouldn’t just be hurting him, you’d be hurting yourself. But at the same time..Chan is just better in different ways.
You sucked in a deep breath before knocking on Chans front door. You’ve seen this door way too many times, it’s because a routine. You know like when you brush your teeth. Back and forth. Back and forth. You keep coming back to him back and forth. Seconds felt like minutes, and minutes felt like hours before he came out. He’s probably just not home. That’s good. What’s not good is how much you want this. You should feel disgusted and ashamed for willingly wanting to cheat on your boyfriend. But fuck it feels so good at the same time. It’s something about how Chan touches you. How his hands fit perfectly in the curves of your body.
“Y/N? What’re you doing here? It’s like one in the morning.”
His accent slipped through as he questioned your presence. Damn, everything about this man is insanely attractive for no good reason.
“I just…thought i would stop by, y’know.” You and him both knew what that meant. Talking about nothingness and then fucking until you can’t feel your legs.
It really didn’t take long for you two to start getting all touchy feely. All it took was Chan and that damn silver hair of his. Though you loved this new era of hair for him, it made you think things that you probably shouldn’t be.
“You gonna keep staring or what?” His voice loomed through your ears. All you really could do was stare at him. His hair, eyes, lips…everything about him made you want to pounce on him without further explanation.
“Shut up. You know why i’m here. You don’t have to be a jerk.”
“Okay…come here then.” You had no idea what he meant by that. That was until he patted his thigh. Oh shit. Before he could even repeat himself you were already sat on his thigh. This felt a bit awkward at first until his hands slid onto your thighs. He gently adjusted you so that you were sitting in between his legs. His touch was t supposed to feel this good. Why did it have to make you feel this way?
“Tell me about your day, Y/N.”
You took a deep breath and started talking about a bunch of random shit. Your voice was pretty steady as of right now. You hoped it stayed that way.
“I didn’t do much. Just some work..”
You carried on with talking about work for a bit until you felt the soft touch of Chans lips against your jaw. Your voice cracked almost instantly. You tried your absolute hardest to speak without sounding like an idiot. He wasn’t going to stop with these kisses any time soon and you knew it. And to be honest, you didn’t want him to stop anytime soon. His lips slowly and steadily made their way down to your neck and collar bone. In the middle of your sentence you let a little noise slip. You heard him chuckle a bit and it embarrassed you. This was funny to him.
“Fuck…Chan.” He wasn’t even doing anything and it was somehow making you extremely wet.
“I’m not even doing anything baby. Are you really that pathetic?”
His words were doing something to you, it was making you into a person that only came out whenever Chan was acting like this. Hyunjin has never made you feel like this.
“I’m not pathetic! S-Shut up..”
“Mhmm, sure you aren’t princess.”
You tried. You really tried to convince him that you weren’t pathetic but it didn’t sound like that at all. Before you could even process it, he leaned his head down to press his lips onto yours. Your lips moved in rhythm with each other perfectly as if this was rehearsed. The wet sound of your lips against his echoed in your ears. The fluttering feeling in your stomach came back just like it always did when you were with Chan. On instinct, you squeezed your thighs shut together to give yourself some sort of friction. Something. Anything. Just for a few seconds you thought you could have that relief…until Chan realized.
He forced your legs open with his free hand. It’s funny because he didn’t even have to use that much force. A tiny gasp fell from your lips.
“Nope. Open them up baby.”
You knew you couldn’t argue with him. Not with that authority in his voice. Not even two seconds later you were being tossed onto his bed. It seemed bigger than the last time you were here. He had this predatory look in his eyes and you were his prey. His fingers toyed with the button of your jeans.
You instantly nodded. You thought you wood die if Chan didn’t do something immediately. In one swift motion he took off your jeans and panties. You felt exposed and tried to close your legs but was stopped by Chan almost immediately.
“Unt uh. Keep them open for me.”
You cursed under your breath a bit but do as you’re told. You eyed him as he also took off his sweatpants and boxers. Damn. You’ve seen his cock before but it just gets better every time. You wanted nothing more than for him to give into your needs. It’s all you needed. He spread your legs a bit and positioned himself in front of you. Your heart began racing. You’ve been in this exact same position with him numerous times before this but it’s still exciting to you. With a low groan he inserted his cock into your tight cunt.
All you could do was make noises. You were enjoying this a bit too much, and by the look on Chan’s face, so did he.
The sound of Chans hips hitting yours echoed in the room that felt so small at this moment. This pleasure was something that you’ve experienced with Chan a handful of times before, and yet it got better every time. Chans low groans went straight to your pussy, his voice had always been extremely attractive to you. Fuck, everything about him was extremely attractive.
You could barely contain yourself. All you wanted was him. All you needed was him. You’ve never felt this way with Hyunjin before. You knew this was wrong. Going to your best friend for sexual pleasure because your boyfriend can’t do the job. You couldn’t even attempt to twist how it sounds to make you seem like the good person here. There was no possible way that you could even sound remotely close to being right in this situation. As much as you wanted this, you couldn’t stop thinking about Hyunjin. He’s a loyal man. He loves you so much. But you on the other hand, you’re not. You felt sick with yourself and the decision you made, but you know there’s no going back after this. Chans touch is engraved onto your body. You’ve seen parts of him that you never should have..but it feels so good.
Chans fingers crawl up your chest and wrap around your throat with gentle pressure like vines. Identical to the faux vines that form in your throat when trying to explain to Hyunjin why you kept coming home late every other night. Everything reminds you of him at the wrong time. You shouldn’t be thinking of Hyunjin while you were getting pounded into the bed by Chan. Well, you actually shouldn’t be in this situation anyway. The guilt was eating you alive. How were you ever going to explain this to Hyunjin if he ever found out? You prayed that he didn’t. Hopefully he just stays clueless and never even lets the mere thought of this cross his mind. Hyunjin was not stupid though, you know this. He may act ditzy but he’s actually pretty smart in certain situations.
“Hey, Y/N what’s wrong? You’ve been zoned out this whole time. I know i’m good in bed so what’s up?”
He sounded a bit worried. You hadn’t even realized that his boxers were already half way up his thighs. Whoa, you were really deep in your thoughts.
“I-I was paying attention! I was just a bit caught up in my thoughts. Come on, i’m ready.”
You tried to pull his boxers back down but he grabbed your wrist before you could even get a feel of the fabric.
“No, just stop. It’s fine, i’m not offended or anything. Just a bit confused.”
His voice was laced with confusion and what seemed to be amusement.
“I…I was just thinking about Hyunjin again. I can’t stop. This isn’t right, Chan.”
Chans expression faltered a bit at the mention of Hyunjin. He didn’t know what to say. What was there to say? He knew this was wrong, so incredibly wrong.
“Y/N..I know how it feels. Seeing him come to you with gifts and affection, it also hurts me. C’mere.”
He really didn’t have to say much. His presence was enough to make you feel comfortable in times like this.
He motioned you over with his middle and ring finger to invite you into his lap. Your legs wrapped around his waist, head placed delicately on his shoulder. He held you as if you were fragile, like you would fall apart instantly. He might not have given you a mind blogging orgasm tonight, but he would be here for you when you needed it. That’s what so twisted about this whole relationship you have with Chan. One day he’ll have you in doggy style begging for his cock, then the next day he’s running his fingers so gently over your arms as you poured your heart out to him.
You two sat in a comfortable silence for a little bit until your eye lids began to drop. You could barely keep your eyes open. Chans gentle touch mixed with his soothing words was not helping your tiredness at this moment. Maybe this was how it was meant to be. You and Chan over you and Hyunjin. That’s how you think it’s destined to be sometimes. The thought crossed your mind ever so often. But it would absolutely destroy you to hurt Hyunjin like that. He’s an amazing lover..Chan is just..better in certain areas. Hyunjin cares so deeply all of the time and is attached to you by the hip, but sometimes it gets suffocating. You just hoped that at some point you could break this habit and stop coming to Chan. Hopefully one day you’ll see him just as a friend and nothing more. That’s how it was from the start. But God you just can’t. Breaking old habits is a hard thing to do.
