bunni

18+ traumaposting. bpd sufferer. fatherless behavior.

[bunnisguts]

the devil couldn’t reach me so he gave me BPD only to make my closest friends turn out to not give a shit about me

[bunnisguts]

what stage of grief is trying to get your friends who abandoned you to genuinely be interested and care about you by sending sad songs covered by cats

[ronnie-ratke]

I love pretending idgaf and then spiraling about it for months

[bunnisguts]

Sometimes I think I am quite literally the worst person to ever exist on this planet. I know that isnt true in comparison to some evil people but I just think I deserve to rot lately

I don't make my partner happy. I dont make my friends happy. Im too much of a coward to take myself out of the equation. What other options do I have? Do I just blindly let my existence ruin other people's lives? I don't have anyone else or anywhere else to go. I'm so tired of existing

[bunnisguts]

What changed between May and October where you went from “I’m sorry your mom died I love you and I’m here for you” to completely ignoring me during the worst year of my life

[sickfrr]

[daddystinygirll]

crazy how trauma isn't your fault but it's your responsibility to heal

[hisuncontrollableanger]

the absolute worst thing is when they genuinely believe they've done nothing wrong

makes you feel fucking insane for hurting, doesn't it?

[a-hospital--for-souls]

They say it gets better, but I have been hearing this since I was 12.

[bunnisguts]

maybe im done being kind now too.

[bunnisguts]

ignoring your friends with bpd feels abusive btw even if you don’t perceive it as abuse it is perceived as so hurtful as if its abuse because I can PROMISE you that no amount of anger you hold towards me will be solved by ignoring me

fuck you

[bunnisguts]

fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you WHY AM I THE BAD ONE FOR HAVING EMOTIONS? WHY AM I A BAD FRIEND FOR NOT WANTING TO BE IGNORED? You are a piece of shit and youre a terrible friend and I hate you I love you so much please don’t actually leave me im terrified you hurt me so bad but I’ll do anything to keep you

[himekawaiiprincess]

i miss you

i hate how much i miss you

i still love you

i hate that i still love you

i still worship you

you're still god to me

i wish you still loved me

i wish you hated me

i want to hate you

please hate me

[tear-stained-lenses]

Every time I take a breath, it's like I did every wrong thing. Every time I close my eyes, I'm told I'm selfish for not paying attention. Every time I try to speak, I'm silenced. Everything is my fault, and everyone around me continues to prove it.

[apoptotic-apothnesko-deactivate]

On my way to fuck up another relationship while crying that I'm fucking up the relationship.

[tiredalwayz-deactivated20250804]

Would it hurt you if died tonight? Would you mourn me? I have a sick feeling you wouldn't.

[tear-stained-lenses]

*No reply*

Oh so you want me to kill myself?