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vrissy she/bun/it | DID multiple | do not call us plural or headmates we are a multiple and alters or parts | shitcourse sideblog likes/follows from t8uny

[clowncorps3]

A merry fuck you to the person in a discord two years ago who told me that medical and scientific accuracy should be prioritised over someones emotional safety in response to me saying that newly discovered and/or younger systems may say "alters are literally separate people in one body" as a way to process and cope with the fact they have this disorder.

A merry fuck you to the fact this person DOUBLED DOWN when I said that these systems may not be in a safe place (physically or mentally) to start looking at the (arguably very complex) science behind having DID/OSDD1/PDID.

And a final fuck you to the fact that this person went on a whole rant saying that you are not allowed to view your alters as separate beings, and that they didnt care if thats how your alters presented you have to treat them all the same way or youre anti recovery.

With all thay being said, shout out to:

Systems whose alters present/function as fully individual beings

Systems who discovered years ago and are only just kow coming to terms with the fact you are "parts of a whole" (i hate this phrase personally it makes me uncomfortable)

Systems who are still not in the right mindset to get deeper into the science of a CDD beyond how they form

Systems who prefer to be treated as individuals with their own wants and needs and opinions and thoughts

Systems who cannot safely view complex medical information about having a CDD

Systems who use the "separate people in one body" explanation to help out new splits ESPECIALLY if the new member is distressed

Systems who are unable to mask because they are so elaborated

Systems who do not experience possessive switches but STILL are individual

Systems who are healing better by functioning as individual members rather than just one big glob

[bunnygirlmultiple]

we experienced the opposite but it's just so fucked up how comfortable people feel trying to shove pwCDDs into one box or the other you're anti recovery if you're separate people you're self hating if you're not. we're all different people with different life experiences and different perspectives on our disorders there is no right way to view having alters all our experiences with having a CDD deserve respect

[fontainians]

you know I was bored and I went online and did some web surfing. I came across a company called dreadful plushies. I thought they had plushy's for many different things. However, almost all of them were offensive for the disability ones. the did one had the endo symbol and they are making an osdd one. take away what you want with this info. 

I have ALWAYS had a problem with plushie dreadfuls, their ocd one was so so weird. its not related to ocd in the slightest visibly and it just looks so monstrous which is not good when you’re making something for an already stigmatized disorder

[the-laverre-gym]

I HATE THEM SO MUCH 90% OF THEIR DESIGNS DON'T EVEN ACTUALLY REPRESENT WHAT THEY'RE TRYING TO REPRESENT

HOW ARE ALL OF THESE EPILEPSY. These are so just not epilepsy at the fuck all this shit pisses me off so bad

[fontainians]

the npd one just having a crown like oh my god BORRINGGG…

i use peacocks as symbolism for npd and i think more people should do that

[the-laverre-gym]

i really like mirrors as symbols for mine specifically its corny and over done probably, peacocks r awesome for it too!!!

Most of the plushy dreadful designs feel like they were made for one very specific variation of how it, whatever it's supposed to represent, can present itself and that's what really irks me.  I guess they're supposed to be vague but there gets to a point where it's too vague

[bunnygirlmultiple]

plushie dreadfuls feel like they were designed by asking one (1) completely abled person for word associations and just running with it

[dic--e]

more new sys apps like SP with friend features coming out so i'll say it again DO NOT POST YOUR USERNAME PUBLICLY AND ACCEPT REQUESTS FROM PEOPLE YOU DO NOT KNOW / DO NOT TRUST

This is how you get your entire SP posted onto r/SystemCringe and get mocked and put on blast. while yes it's unfortunate and they shouldn't be doing that in the first place, this is really the only way to avoid these types of things happening since the Subreddit is still a thing.

Do not post your user in Discord servers and accept friend requests from people you barely know (Because, again, r/SC users are known for going into System servers and lurking)

[tailshas2tails]

Sysblr when a Black person tells them to not be a bigot by using xenophobic and racist terms: Hmmm I’m just gonna ignore that and scroll past that. Who cares if I say I crash out? It’s just a normal phrase to say

Sysblr when a POC explains the intersectionality between systemhood and being a POC is nothing white systems can understand even if they have felt hurt or bigotry: Ahhh did you guys see that post? Me neither. Eh whatever, moving on.

Sysblr when it’s time to straw man arguments on either side and tell each other to kill themselves and spending time accusing the other side of being evil disgusting harassers: YES! THIS is what we should spend our time on!

[bunnygirlmultiple]

i was about to make a post about how i want a break from syscourse which honestly i still might do but as i was writing it i realized what i really want a break from is the constant acceptance of CDD ableism basically everywhere on mogai and nonhuman/alterhuman tumblr i wish i could just shut everything out and be an ignorant pro endogenic again and not have to be so fucking aware of how little people care about pwCDDs and the way endogenic and the empowered multiple communities before them have hurt us, called us whiny survivors, try to define us out of multiplicity, call us oppressors for our disability for our trauma. i wish i could just live in that fantasy world that seemingly every other person i see does it feels so fucking hopeless sometimes i feel like an online landscape where everywhere but CDD specific spaces see us as disposable if we get out of line sometimes. i love mogai i love coining even if i don't have the energy to a lot of the time, and i love my nonhumanity i love being transspecies i'm excited to physically alter my body to be more rabbit-like but so often the communities for such things just ignore the way pwCDDs have been treated in the name of endogenic plurality in favor of endogenics it makes me feel so fucking alone.

[bunnygirlmultiple]

the way people treat pwCDDs who dare speak out about the community that formed from fucking originated from anti CDD hate groups makes me want to scream and throw up even when we're the fucking oppressed group being targeted we're the "aggressors"

[bunnygirlmultiple]

"no CDD no system" is very true but i'd like to also say "if you have a system you have a CDD" is something we should be breaking out more because I see so many people saying they can't have a CDD and it must be some other disorder causing their alters because of reasons that are usually just a description of what OSDD-1 is, or "nondisordered" traumagenics clearly talking about having symptoms of a dissociative disorder (besides alters) like i'm not saying every person claiming to be a system cuz of BPD or a nondisordered traumagenic system does actually have a CDD but i don't think it's a small portion of them either

[fontainians]

we’ve been trying to make a nice little symbol for anti-endo cdd systems, so far we have this simple thing:

we chose a lotus flower with overlapping petals to not only represent CDD’s but also healing and growth:)! I dunno why were telling you this you just seem nice.

-333 (that’s my name-)

omg i love it

[dissociapedia]

Hello! We are Dissociapedia, the official sideblog for the (WIP) encyclopedia for traumagenic systems!

What we aim to do is make an encyclopedia website but only for traumagenic systems, which means anything made by and for endogenic systems, willogenic systems, and tulpagenic systems will never be added.

It will be similar to pluralpedia, but again it's gonna be all made by traumagenic systems. The roles, info, xenoroles.. Everything! :)

We hope you find our site useful, and if you wish to submit something to it then please send it to our discord server!

(discord server is being worked on.)

Feel free to ask us questions!

[bunnygirlmultiple]

realizing that the only time we could only half fit the desirable endogenic narrative of systemhood was when we were so much more dissociated than we are now and probably slightly exaggerating some stuff just to be seen as "normal" and we still couldn't fit in and now we have to deal with not knowing how much of what we experienced was real even if we do still know we're a system, nothing about how we are now as we heal and lessen our dissociation would be at all desirable to the endogenic community, we don't have up to date beautiful alter profiles or proxy or know who's fronting most the time after now insys communication is almost entirely done in therapy through a meeting space we had to set up also in therapy, we feel so much more alive so much more real but nothing about our systemhood would be seen as desirable now that we begin to heal even though we're no longer in that community and obviously from this blog anti endogenic it still hurts to know that actually healing has without a doubt made me undesirable to a community I once called home

[fontainians]

Have pro willos/endos actually managed to make a real movement or advocacy group or something based on proving their beliefs

They used to back in the late 2000s. And by advocacy groups I mean cdd hategroups.

[bunnygirlmultiple]

the plural association has or at least had courses they offered to actual medical professionals (link) this seems to look more focused on CDDs from what's being shown (which definitely isn't great) but they are incredibly pro endo so i doubt they aren't touching on that, i'm also pretty sure the plural association has also been harassing the isstd for years

there's this suspicious module

most of the stuff i've seen that could fit in that category in the present day is from the TPA

[bunnygirlmultiple]

i feel like we as a community care too much about people having perfect opinions over wanting people to be safe as soon as possible, i'm sorry but i don't care if I have to be around someone who does still sorta believe in endogenic systems/plurality/whatever the fuck because they just left the community and haven't entirely rethought their syscourse opinions because i know damn well that it's better than them being in a community that has been tormenting pwCDDs for decades and hurt so many people

[lungarden]

It's funny how part of the endogenic narrative is reading the DSM-5 backwards and studying absolutely nothing else. I spent more than 6 years studying DID from my adolescence into adulthood, and I will keep doing so until I graduate and can finally specialize, but you can't tell me all that knowledge is garbage just because people who haven't done a rigorous study to verify what can already be seen with the naked eye (that endogenic systems do not exist, and being neutral is directly or indirectly supporting the abuse of other systems) say so—just because you want to engage in deep roleplay and feel special in a fantasy world to which you will never belong, because your parents didn't love you enough and you weren't taught the core values given to another human being in kindergarten.

You cannot approach me, a survivor of child sex trafficking, to tell me that you are multiple and that you didn't survive trauma. That you are happy that way and that your life is all rainbows and butterflies because, according to your criteria and three Tumblr posts, that's fine. Let me remind you that the endogenic narrative subjects young survivors to befriending them because they are highly manipulable, and you, in your erotic madness, can abuse that child by saying it is an identity, because child abusers already do that without claiming to be endogenic.

They have problems, and serious ones. They don't even seem to have the gift of reading, because they read three paragraphs and shield themselves behind a supposed system that has DID, is endogenic, and is a psychologist. That kind of person is a danger to society; they should revoke their license for going against what is known as established studies.

The endogenic narrative is harmful.

[fontainians]

Sysamoury / Systeamoury (idk which one sounds cooler)

A term to describe an attraction to another alter / relationship between alters that is fundamentally affected by ones systemhood or can’t be described using existing relationship terms.

Do not repost my terms to pluralpedia!

IMG ID: A 7 stripe flag in shades of yellow and pink. At the center is a teal heart outlined in pink and two teal gears with white and pink outlines. /END ID

[bunnygirlmultiple]

i think there is a certain horror to having been someone who used to want to reform the endogenic community and realizing that community'd rather bury its problems and wash its hands with the dirt before giving up the convenience of ableism

[fontainians]

I’m dead only like a few people have done that and it’s not even a big deal.

Also i know it’s supposed to be “gross fucking behavior” with an extra expletive for more impact but i keep reading it as like “ass fucking that is gross.”

IMG ID: A screenshot of a post that reads: “antis claiming “pro” label blogs to make sure someone who supports people cant “steal the username” is gross ass fucking behavior.

you antis get more disgusting every day. /END ID

[the-laverre-gym]

lit claimed pro willo valerie to make me an evil blog to satire post on

[bunnygirlmultiple]

the funniest part is it's not like anybody's stopping them from adding an extra dash to an already claimed username if they wanna be pro willo bbq ribs or some shit anyway 😭

[anti-willo-eu]

Here is a picture of cute baby bunnies, I had to compress this file because tumblr thought it was too big and kept blaming my WiFi

[bunnygirlmultiple]

OMG BABIES THEY'RE SO CUTESIES HOLY SHIT