Tails

Little | IWC (interact with caution), I’m not nice.

[tailshas2tails]

Hi, I’m Tails! I’m an introject from a polyfragmented DID system. And I’m a little (8-10).

Honestly I originally made this account because I’m annoyed and very tired, and people in the sister sub-system to us didn’t need all that negativity on their own blogs. But! I’m going to try and make this more of my space now where I can scream into the void and do things I really like! Because I can! Haha!

No DNI except nsfw. But I don’t support pro/darkshippers, (pro) endos, and radqueers

I’m an extremely mentally unstable little and I do not doubt for a second that I’m going to ruffle feathers and annoy people. If I lash out I’m very sorry, but there is your warning. I don’t have any emotional regulation. I’ve been told this already internally many many many many many times I’m working on it

[tailshas2tails]

Returning kind of sucks because you sit there and you’re like why did I waste 30 minutes firsthand doing what I just did…. And then someone else took it over. Weeeiiirrrdddd

[tailshas2tails]

How do you known you have a billion of alters? I'm genuinely curious as you obviously can't count them all

Not him but it’s because in one of our side systems there is an infinite flower field and those flower fields are fragments. All of their developed alters come out of the flowers. So it’s infinite fragments because of that flower field. Also there are millions of fragments living in the inner world mimicking certain fantasy series due to the programming there which is a huge fantasy world so that helps the estimates too

[hazedxg0]

DID Research: Presentations & Alter Types

Links to studies about different presentations of DID, including different alter types, childhood and adolescent DID, and DID across different cultures.

General DID Presentations

Formation and Functions of Alter Personalities in Dissociative Identity Disorder: A Theoretical and Clinical Elaboration

Lived experiences of men with dissociative identity disorder 

The Phenomenology and Treatment of Extremely Complex MPD 

Symptom patterns in dissociative identity disorder patients and the general population

Differences Between Men and Women With Multiple Personality Disorder (not open access) 

The clinical phenomenology of males with MPD: A report of 21 cases 

Analysis of demographic and clinical characteristics of patients with dissociative identity disorder 

Possession experiences in dissociative identity disorder: a preliminary study (not open access) 

Alter Types

Therapeutic Hazards of Treating Child Alters as Real Children in Dissociative Identity Disorder 

Therapeutic Alliance with Abuser Alters in Dissociative Identity Disorder 

Internal self helpers of persons with multiple personality disorder 

Issues in consultation for treatments with distressed activated abuser/protector self-states in dissociative identity disorder (not open access) 

Animal alters: case reports

Introjection and dissociative identity disorder: a case report 

Introject and identity: Structural-interpersonal analysis and psychological assessment of multiple personality disorder (not open access) 

Opposite-gender identity states in Dissociative Identity Disorder: psychodynamic insights into a subset of same-sex behavior and attractions (not open access) 

Childhood & Adolescent DID

Outpatient Treatment of Dissociative Identity Disorder and Allied forms of Dissociative Disorder not Otherwise Specified in Children and Adolescents 

Dissociative Identity Disorder Among Adolescents: Prevalence in a University Psychiatric Outpatient Unit 

The Scientific Status of Childhood Dissociative Identity Disorder: A Review of Published Research (not open access but you can find a PDF of it if you look it up on Google Scholar) 

Child abuse and dissociative identity disorder/multiple personality disorder: the documentation of childhood maltreatment and the corroboration of symptoms 

Held in mind, out of awareness. Perspectives on the continuum of dissociated experience, culminating in dissociative identity disorder in children (not open access) 

Dissociative disorders in children: Behavioral profiles and problems (not open access) 

Diagnostic evaluation of the child with dissociative identity disorder/multiple personality disorder 

Clinical phenomenology of child and adolescent dissociative disorders 

Confirmation of childhood abuse in child and adolescent cases of multiple personality disorder and dissociative disorder not otherwise specified 

High psychiatric comorbidity in adolescents with dissociative disorders

Long-term outcome and prognosis of dissociative disorder with onset in childhood or adolescence 

Treatment for childhood and adolescent dissociation: A systematic review 

Adolescent inpatients' history of abuse and dissociative identity disorder (not open access) 

DID Across Cultures

Gender and Racial Variability of Dissociative Identity Disorder Symptoms in an International Sample

Prevalence of dissociative identity disorder among psychiatric outpatients in different cultural groups

A Schema Therapy approach to complex dissociative disorder in a cross-cultural setting: a single case study

The Scope of Dissociative Disorders: An International Perspective

Structured interview data on 35 cases of dissociative identity disorder in Turkey (not open access)

Dissociative Identity Disorders in Korea: Two Recent Cases

Trauma and dissociation in a Chinese-American sample

Working with Chinese trauma survivors with dissociation: Lessons from two cases in Macao (not open access)

Current status of multiple personality disorder in India (not open access)

Multiple personality disorder - A case report from Northern India

Multiple personality disorder in the Netherlands: A clinical investigation of 71 patients

Dissociative disorders in black South Africans: A report on five cases

Dissociative disorders in Japan: A pilot study with the dissociative experience scale and a semi-structured interview

Multiple personality disorder in Puerto Rico: analysis of fifteen cases

[britain-offical]

my unpopular take is that cowboy boots and hats should be reserved for cowboys, gay people and gay cowboys

[tailshas2tails]

And POC. Black people and indigenous people were always the OG cowboys.

[tailshas2tails]

my hot take is a loooot of antis have endo n willo headmates. they dont know it but they do. a guy might just show up due to something mildly stressful but not traumatic, guess what? ENDO. OOOOOH SCARY.

Stress can be traumatic.

continue to think about a character so much and imagine them talking to you and then they show up? BOOO WILLO OOOOOH SCARYYY.

Liking certain franchises to get you through horrible fucking life is a response to stress/traumatic events via being a coping mechanism, so you introject off of them, which as explained can be traumatic

We’re missing the point on purpose now

[hazedxg0]

Reminder that alters can only split from trauma. Alters are highly complex dissociative compartmentalizations of traumatic memory that are reliant on PTSD in order to exist on a neuropsychological level. Your brain cannot compartmentalize a trauma memory if there is no trauma memory to compartmentalize.

Alters and the self-states that make up PTSD develop from the same process, just on different levels of complexity. If it were possible to split alters without trauma it would also have to be possible to develop PTSD without trauma, which it obviously isn't.

And importantly, splitting because of stress is not an exception to this.

The development of alters and PTSD is tied to a person's integrative capacity, which is made up of their mental energy and mental efficacy (ability to use that energy effectively).

When both of these are high, the person will easily be able to integrate their experiences even if those experiences are stressful or frightening. When both are low, the person will lose their ability to engage in more high level integrative actions, making them more vulnerable to structural dissociation until their integrative capacity recovers.

Chronic stress lowers a person's integrative capacity and prevents it from regenerating, and as a result people who have experienced complex trauma (which is required for the development of DID) tend to be stuck in a constant state of low mental energy and efficacy.

As such, if you have already been severely traumatized over and over, you are much more vulnerable to being traumatized again, even in response to things that a non-traumatized person would likely be able to cope with. This is what people commonly refer to as the "window of tolerance".

However, when that threshold is crossed, it is still a trauma response even if we wouldn't traditionally call the event that caused it "trauma". Neuropsychologically speaking, the exact same process of developing PTSD for the first time is happening when you split because of stress. Trauma is still trauma to your body and mind even if you're choosing not to label it that way.

Saying that alters can split without trauma because of stress is misinformation, because the entire point of the window of tolerance is that it is easier to become traumatized when in a state of chronic stress.

[tailshas2tails]

So how many times did we get traumatized if we have fragments in the billions just hanging out here

I’m wondering if this means splitting a new identified alter or if this has anything to do with fragmentation of if it’s a different thing entirely

Because I don’t know, it was OEA so many we did split billions of times. Makes sense to me.

I saw someone say in a study dissociation causes it too. How is dissociation traumatizing? Isn’t that the coping mechanism? So I’m curious on your thoughts on that

[tailshas2tails]

I don’t want to be here right now why can’t someone else fucking front I don’t want this I just want to go back and ignore all of this and stay in the inner world

I’m sorry dad I just dig a deep hole for myself and I can never let myself out of that hole

I’m a bad person I’m sorry

[antiantiendo]

Hi everyone 👋 I've been an active syscourser on and off for quite a while, and during my time in the community, I've developed a rather nuanced position. My opinions are complex, and I've found myself not really belonging to any particular stance. I've noticed this is an issue for other people as well, so to combat this I decided to coin a new term for those with a more nuanced perspective.

A New Term: Anti Anti-Endo

At its core, Anti Anti-Endo is a label that is explicitly against the toxic behavior and exclusion commonly found in the Anti-Endo community.

Despite what it sounds like, Anti Anti-Endo isn't an inherently pro-endo stance; It's an umbrella term that welcomes anyone who is not explicitly Anti-Endo, including:

Endo-neutrals who don't take a hard stance on origin

Pro-endos who support non-traumagenic systems

Syscourse-unaligned individuals who have complex opinions or just don't want to be involved in the debate

Specific stances inherent to the Anti Anti-Endo label:

Rejection of Harassment and Hostility: We firmly believe that no matter someone's personal experiences with or theories on plurality, harassment and bullying are never acceptable. This includes behavior like fakeclaiming, public call-outs, brigading, doxxing, suibaiting, threatening, wishing harm, etc.

Opposition to Gatekeeping: We recognize the word "system" has many definitions and use cases, and thus is not owned by the CDD community.

We Understand Plurality as an Identity: We strictly reject the forced medicalization of the plural community, and recognize plurality as an Identity label dependent on self-identification.

Inclusivity of Non-Pro-Endo Stances: We explicitly recognize you do not need to be pro-endo in order to oppose anti-endo behavior. This label inherently includes endo-neutrals, syscourse-unaligned individuals, and anyone else who refuses to contribute to anti-endo spaces.

Autonomy of Self-Definition: We support the right of systems to describe, understand, and label their own personal experiences without fear of policing or aggressive backlash.

If these stances align with your own, you are more than welcome to use this label :)

Edit: oh and the flag is just based on the inverted Anti-Endo flag :)

About me under the cut

About me!

22

He/Him

CDD system

You can call me Sylvn

No DNI

pls just be nice :)

[tailshas2tails]

I find it both flattering and stupid that my little post partially encouraged someone to make an anti label against anti-endos. Do I get a cookie now?

Honestly if it wasn’t for the label being clearly not for anti-endos who are anti harassment and can critique the community I’d use it!

This is cute. In some ways I’m officially going down in history! I knew I wouldn’t get out of someone’s head, indirectly or not!

[obsidianjuggernautakaseb]

I LOVE MY SYSTEM

I hate my system

I LOVE MY SYSTEM

I hate my system

Bro this shit is an endless cycle 😭

[sparrowlucero]

little ms paint dragons

(available on my kofi as adoptables!)

[tailshas2tails]

[tailshas2tails]

I genuinely feel on top of the world! I just played a game and I spent all the money we were supposed to give away to ungrateful people out of spite! And now I’m gonna draw! And I’m gonna enjoy drawing my fucking dinosaurs and everyone’s gonna learn that I don’t give a fuck about their stupid stuff

[tailshas2tails]

They’d HATE to see me coming because my system is objectively more successful than 90% of people who even touch syscourse and while it’s disordering and while we had a bad semester and lose things and can’t get shit done well still get in a medical school and we’ll still thrive in this world unlike some of you

This world doesn’t owe you a cent so you’d best start working for it

[tailshas2tails]

Everyone just wants to see someone fold. You’re not folding me.

[tailshas2tails]

I’m better than everyone.

[tailshas2tails]

I’m thinking about it and I really, really think that people as a whole are stupid. We passed high school with flying color, we don’t try in our prestigious southern college we got a full ride for and we’re doing so well despite everything. And honestly I have very very few problems if none at all.

People say ‘work on it’, genuinely work on WHAT. What do you want me to work on? I’m a person like you! I can feel however I want about anything I want. The lion does not concern himself with ‘working on’ things he doesn’t wanna fix about himself

Maybe you should fix yourselves. That might be the best course of action for you. Fix yourself. And then come back to me. Because I don’t need fixing. I don’t need fixing, I’m more well-adjusted than most of you will ever be. I’m going to go to medical school. I’m going to have a doctorate alongside everyone here and all the rest of you are going to have nothing. Because I’m functional. I’m intelligent and I definitely have more of a chance in this life than all of you.

Add everyone up and you’ll still get 0. You’ll never amount to any real change. So take that spirit saying otherwise and shove it up your ass